BLOG.

2010-06-15T01:02:00.003+08:00

#253;

Cool, maybe I'll remember this number.

It's 1AM, and I'm attempting to tire myself out.
Using the computer works apparently.

I think I've just made a lifechanging decision.

I'M MOVING TO TUMBLR.

Maybe if I feel like it, I'll revive this again.
But for now,
Relink, stalkers :D

2010-06-12T16:53:00.002+08:00

#251;
Insomnia again last night.
Lay awake in the silence until 3AM, thinking.
Can't believe this.

I can't really describe my mood for the past two days.
Just been feeling really stone.
Like I don't feel like doing anything.
I don't know if this is because of you, the insomnia, or because something's wrong with me.

Class Outing next Tuesday(:
ECP to fly kites, KTV after that.
Really want to meet up with the horny kids again.
Have a chance to feel high.
Centerstage rehearsal on Wednesday!
Practically nailed Into Your Arms yesterday.
Practicing with the band is gonna be damn awesome, I can tell.

Anyway the World Cup started last night.
Its quite fun to watch, especially when my insane sister goes crazy over a goal.
Mexico vs South Africa was a draw, haha.
The slowmo faces were so damn epic.
Tonight's England vs USA! o.o

Lol I love the Maine now. Again.
(and I'm addicted to My First Kiss by 3OH!3 and Ke$ha o.o)

I need to stop being such a stone ._.

2010-06-09T15:36:00.002+08:00

OMFG CAN SOMEONE SAY "HOT"
themaine :D

(hahaha credit to Vivien for intro-ing)

2010-06-09T14:22:00.002+08:00

#249;
Life's still been damn boring.
Passed on Bitch Club ( + terence & chongming) outing today,
was gonna sneak out of the house but if I got discovered that would suck.
I need beach therapy like ASAP.

Yesterday was IDMI filming.
Epic in the morning, sian in the afternoon, fell sick again in the evening D:
Still recovering from the weekend, stupid cough wont go away.
Zishan and Yuxin look totally epic as old people.
Convincing as hell, regina was completely fooled at first.
Spent most of the time shooting zishan's high dancing along with some retarded music.
Fail (Y)

I'm gonna do covers with Vivien :D
Exciting like shit yay.

Head hurts like a bitch):
(not the good kind)

2010-06-07T16:16:00.001+08:00

#248;
Hello(:
Just recovered from a fever ._.
Still kinda sick but I'm definitely getting out of the house this week.
Realized if I'm stuck at home I start thinking about things.
There's a hole in my chest where my heart should be.

Got a few things lined up next 2 weeks(:
Really looking forward to LYSTRA class outing next week.
When everyone's back from overseas.
Kiteflying + KBOX here we come :D

Really need people to go out with this week.
Dad's overseas, perfect chance to do something reckless and stupid and fun.
And for IDMI filming ._.

My life's so boring right now.
I should do covers :D

2010-06-02T13:14:00.002+08:00

#247;

Last night I stayed up until 4am, because of you.
Because I can't stop myself from thinking.
How can I miss you when you're not even gone?

Once I finish my math homework, you can consider my holiday homework conquered.
Hell yeah.
Mugdate with StupidShrimp, Centerstage rehearsals, 2L class outing, band camp to look forward to now.

Anyway, my life's been amazingly boring lately.
Mug during the day and use the comp until night.

Failshit Fishball enjoys smsing Stupid Shrimp(:

2010-05-31T21:59:00.002+08:00

#246;

Insanely epic video up on facebook of 3Cows doing what we do best(:
Having fun, and looking like crackheads doing it.

There is a shitload of people going overseas this june holidays.
Cass, Jianchong, ReginaToon, Vivien, etc.
I'm gonna be left in SG to stone and mug every single day.
It's worth it I guess. More time to stone and mug.

I shall devote my free time to practising the 8 songs we've chosen for centerstage.
Getting my guitar cable back from the Fusion people on Friday, thank god.
I've been itching to touch my electric for weeks.
The classical's just not satisfying enough, and you can't shred on it(:

I've got a month.
A month to try and close that gaping hole in my heart before I go back to school and see you again.
Today I rediscovered the same pain again.
If this is what I'm going to feel everytime I see you, I'd rather not see you at all.

My life is so boring.
I'm SO stealing my mom's camera soon.

2010-05-30T12:54:00.003+08:00

#245;
Its the june hols!!!
THANK GOD.
I'm gonna motivate myself to mug my ass off and finish my homework.
And I vow that this month shall be filled with happy memories (L)
I alr hv a date with TYT at starbucks(:
With my family one day to hit Universal Studios again,
And multiple dates with TLFY to practise for CENTERSTAGE!
So pumped.

Right now I'm not letting anything get to me.
I'm looking forward to the good things, and drowning the bad things.
Not going to see you for one month (unless something comes up), so I have time to think.
Without seeing you, without having your smile influence my decision.
Good riddance, pain.

Anyway,

HOLIDAY CHECKLIST
-Read Macbeth
-Chinese Practice Paper
-Chem Online Quiz
-Chem e-learning worksheet
-Bio project
-Bio worksheet
-Read ACE notes
-Ask Melvin/Alisa about Math HW
-IDMI
-Mug Math and Chinese
-2Lystra Class Outing!
-CENTERSTAGE.
-Mugdate with TYT
-SLACK LIKE CRAP.

I think I'm going to enjoy this.
After the all the hw is crossed out, I mean.

Things are going to get better(:

2010-05-28T22:18:00.004+08:00

A Plea to your Kind and Understanding Heart
Zhou Si Rong

Hello everybody! Here's wishing you a very happy holidays.

I am particularly sad to be the bearer of the sad news that I have to inform the school of on this sad day. You see, dear schoolmates, I have lost my most beloved pen! This pen was given to me by a teacher who has played a very important role in my development. The amount of love that I have for this pen cannot be described by words alone; it is at once awesome, jaw-dropping, and stupefying. Therefore, my dear friends, the loss of this pen has affected me greatly. I am rapidly entering a state of malnourishment, as all food has lost its taste to me. At night, I toss and turn on my bed, and it is only after a bout of crying that I am able to enter a turbulent sleep. In the morning, my heart indubitably aches for that which I have lost. In the afternoon my hands never fail to search my pockets over and over again for my most beloved possession. The despair and helplessness that overwhelm me at such times leave me gasping for breath like the most afflicted of asthmatics.

As such, my dear friends, I humbly beg you to inform me if you find a blue Pilot ball-point pen on our school grounds. The pen has a markedly scarred appearance, as it has been through my rough hands many, many times. The nib, however, remains bright and shiny to this date, as I scribble my way through the forest of homework that I so lovingly cut down with my bullets of ink.

Lastly, I apologise if my poorly crafted letter has been the cause of any annoyance on your part. My humble thanks for the time that you have taken from your doubtlessly busy schedule to read my letter.

Epic. Awesome. No words can describe HAHAHA (Y)

2010-05-28T11:31:00.004+08:00

#243;
LEE DEWYZE :DDDD

Im gonna miss Simon alot.
AI wont be the same without him):

Short post first(:
GPA this semester, 2.4, lowest in class.
I kinda expected it, abit happy i didnt get below 2 or get demoted to 3A.
im gonna work a lot harder from now on.
I will get 3.6 next term or die trying, watch me.
CIP was AWESOME, even if the goat farm was quite smelly and i was hopelessly useless.
the old folks were entertaining and i guess 3Cows bonded more too.
after that went macs with the original Too Long For You for lunch(:
exchanged epic stories about parents.
went home on circle line with kang min :D

i'm trying to forget the pain you caused me, but i know you'll never know what you did, and i can never blame you.
its been a really rough week, trying to deal with it, when i know i will never be strong enough to truly face it.
and i dont want you hurt the same way either.
i just wish you would stop making this so hard.

i guess i'm just thankful for friends.

2010-05-23T14:35:00.001+08:00

if he doesn't win american idol or become famous, i will kill everyone.

LOL JK.

maybe i'll just complain :D

2010-05-23T09:02:00.004+08:00

#241;

playing for holy trinity music ministry today.
still cant believe i got in.
bloody lucky.
woke up with a slight fever but i hope it doesn't get worse.
last day with my relatives before they disappear for i dont know how long.
i hate goodbyes like this.

2010-05-22T17:16:00.003+08:00

#240;
LEVEL EXPERIENCE 2010 Heartbeat!

Was a really awesome experience. I love 3Cows.
Didn't rly take any photos, the cameras were occupied the whole time. The good ones at least. LOL.

First day was okay I guess. We made kueh dadar and curry puff.
OMG our table was so epic. I wish I could've taken photo of the deformed curry puff yasmine and reginatoon made.
Cos yasmine forgot to take the plastic and the puffs stuck to the plate-.-
so fail.
we were waving to little kids too! they were damn cute.
after cooking we had 2h plus to play games.
chubby bunny ROFL, and other games like blow wind blow and whacko and murderer and truth or dare and shoot shack marry.
malay dance was just FAIL. i swear, some guys in our class are epic dancers.
AFTERWARDS me, reginatoon, chongming and terence headed over to ECP.
it was damn fun even tho it was fail.
played guitar and flew kites.
it was exciting, cabbing home in a hurry was totally worth it.

second day was the amazing race!
we were damn high omg.
grouped with terence and dorothea. hahahahaha.
we were combined with 3J too.
so HIONG. ran almost the whole day.
the iPhones were cool to use and we were all high so.
HAHAHA. 3Cows took the top three placings! our hiong group won! 3C FTW.
AFTERWARDS the four of us went to do something damn gl hahaha.
we just walked straight out of the school gate.
and kept walking straight.
we saw a house with a pink lift went in cos the gate was open. in the end ran out cos chongming was afraid of a blanket. LOL.
reginatoon walked into a condo like nobody's business. HAHA. we were trying to cover up loudly but there wasn't even a security guard-.-
and we walked until we reached katong! then we ate awesome shaved ice.
so fun.

overnight stay on the third day was cool.
macs breakfast with cows! haha chongming and hongkai were epic.
and we came up with the most ingenious thing ever.
KANGMIN. hahaha.
yasmine's korean name AKA yasmine's fan club AKA kpop haterzzz.
terence used the sandcastle briefing to come up with a kangmin hand sign. mass dance was fail.
all the screaming, running around, choo choo twain.
then we had SIGNATURE HUNT omg i swear my voice was strained as far as it could go.
screamed like hell while running around harrassing teachers.
i think we were the most high and crazy ones.
then TRADGAMESTOURNAMENT! dog and bone was scary i swear. and smelly-.-
jingyi owned at everything. and we owned all the games. for once.
omg i was in a winning group. felt so good.
C3! hahayay. desirae, adeline, sarah, dorothea, alisa, jingyi, chongming.
then we had free time, all the groups shared their cheers.
we played more games, came up with a barbarian war cry.
charged to a bus that wasn't ours and said BYE to 3B cos it was THEIR bus.
the performance at eastcoast was fail. LADYGAGA ON STILTS O:
the overnight at the chalet was damn meaningful.
confessions, gossip, SHOCKING gossip, laughing, commenting on project runway, blackouts, horniness.
slept at 5am but who cares, it was fun.
lost my voice the next morning-.-
sandcastles was fail. hahahaha. screamed more and aggravated my sore throat.
towards the end i was quite pissed they didn't wna release us. hahaha.
went subway with kang min, zhaoru, jia en and chityee!
and that was level experience.

omg it was srsly damn fun.
i love 3Cows(:
dont wanna go back to school life, three days full of tests and presentations.
JUNE HOLIDAYS COME FASTER LA.

2010-05-16T18:57:00.002+08:00

#239;
my emotions are really out of control lately.
last night i told yasmine my emo stage was over.
but i dont think so. fusion was the only thing that distracted me.
i'm pissed off at everything and i end up hurting everyone including myself.
its not like i tried my best anyway.
i'm just a lazy ass.
and i seem like a little kid trying to put the blame on things i end up breaking when its all my fault.

zz. and then my heart has to be torn apart.
i already cant handle whats happening now, then there has to be something else that gets in the way.
there's no way i can let go of one thing without hurting myself.

oh gawd.
what is happening to my life.

anyway this whole sunday's been spent doing all the hw i've ever owed.
and playing my guitar.
the rain is relaxing tho(:
monday left before level EXPERIENCE (omg-.-), at least there'll be no idiotic work to piss me off and make my insomnia worse.
this year's level "camp" is hopeless -.-
sigh.
OBS next year!

i need to get my emotions in check.

2010-05-15T19:25:00.001+08:00

homggg :DDDD

2010-05-15T18:37:00.003+08:00

#237;
FUSION 2010!
was a blast.
The entire concert we were zi-highing.
I remember being so nervous before we went on I couldn't breathe.
And Vivien and Yasmine had to calm me down or else I'd faint on the spot.
In the end I think I screwed up but ohwell, its over and it was a surreal experience.
The rush you feel when you hear people scream your name.
When you finish a song and the auditorium erupts into applause.
The feeling is awesome.

The performers were cool.
Benjamin Chow was awesome, i was in total awe of him. I think Yasmine and I made him deaf though.
Omg both the drama groups were epic fail.
And MILO JIA PEARL! HAHAHA.
Loved TAGalumni omg they were so good.
The blonde beatboxer looked like he was on crack tho. We were damn scared.
And FIVE SECONDS TO FLAT did great(:
Band and CO ensemble also :D

Fusion was such an awesome ride homg.
Thankyou to 3Cows! for screaming our names so loudly, my family, cass, jianchong, rongying, my family, all those who came! And to xunlin, our mentor :D
And obviously Vivien, Regina, Yasmine for going through this whole journey together and being so epic I couldn't ever stop laughing during rehearsals. And Melvin, even though he was a last minute addition, he still experienced all the stress with us :DDD

anyway i'm sorry this place is so dead D:
my mom's not letting me touch the dslr to upload pics!

this week i've been getting 3h or less of sleep every day.
work, insomnia, stress.
i'm in a load of trouble right now.
and its all my fault.
so i better fix it before smth more happens.

still "recovering" from last night haha.
the excitement, the stupid sore throat from screaming with yasmine.

:DDDDDDD

2010-04-30T20:07:00.002+08:00

#236;
today was a fucking awesome day.
HAHAHA.

speech day in the morning was total sian.
woke up at 5AM.
rode the bus in my freaking concert attire.
the stockings were damn white.
sigh.
then it was damn tiring, my legs almost died.

but ohmygod universal studios was freaking awesome.
loved the revenge of the mummy and the jurassic park rapids adventure.
those were the best.
can't wait for the battlestar galactica thing to open :D
dueling roller coasters.
fking cool.
haha i'm a rollercoaster junkie :DD
i will post photos next time so that my blog isn't so zz-.-
my legs are totally dead now hahaha, but it was so worth it.

anyway i'm at home eating domino's pizza.
freaking awesome.
four boxes finished just like that.

i seriously love it when my relatives come over from the ph.
we get to spend like mad and not feel guilt.
haha.
we'll feel it after they leave.

i bought stuff at universal studios today ;D took photos with gl mascots hahaha.
there's this book that says WTF?: what the frak?
lol -.-
so lame i couldn't take it, so i bought it LOLOL.

anyway i'm wasting my life away.
dont know what i'm doing with myself.
i'm so damn confused again.
homg.

2010-04-29T20:32:00.002+08:00

#235;
speech day tomorrow!
i'm happy there's no school.
but we have to be in school by 715 in CONCERT ATTIRE.
ah zz.

anyway today cheered me up quite abit.
school is so epic.
i'm sry if i AP-ed anyone last night or today.

there's quite alot of hw this coming long weekend.
going universal tomorrow after speech day :D
then during the weekend we might be going overseas to like malaysia or indonesia or smth with my cousins.
packed omg.
and i have all this shit to do.
what a sad life i have.

anyway I LOVE FALL OUT BOY :D :D
hope we do thnks fr th mmrs for fusion.
its so cool acoustic.
i figured out a plucking version.

going to go play with my cousins again haha.
i feel so slack -.-

thanks to all those who tried to cheer me up yesterday(:
i love you guys.

2010-04-28T22:06:00.002+08:00

#234;

I just don't know how to carry on.

Whatever I do just seems to blow up in my face.

Such a fucking failure.

Just want to throw myself at a wall and knock myself unconscious.

Anyway yeah.
School sucks, life sucks.
Everything practically sucks.
I'm in no mood to do anything other than choke on my pain-.-
Guitar won't work.
Talking won't work.

Just fucking leave me alone first, okay?

2010-04-24T15:11:00.002+08:00

#233;

hai.
today's the weekend.
like finally.

I had ACE test yesterday.
total suck, I forgot to bring my notes.
Instead I had to crap out everything D:
I hope I pass by some miracle.
20% of humans marks.
2.4 on Thursday was total fail too.
I got overtaken at the very end and my stamina still sucks shit.
Position number 95 zz.

American Idol this week was quite satisfying. Tim Urban is out.
LOL.
And Idol Gives Back was quite cool.
David Cook was on it!
Haha he's still one of my favorite idols.
I'm listening to his album again now cos Cass told me to haha.
I miss his lyrics.
And his songs.

Speech Day rehearsal yesterday.
Quite okay.
Did quite well I guess.
Must wear concert attire without blazer D:
so hot.
SP on thursday with our alumni.
We went out to macs with 3C to eat. Even though it was quite fun and we gossiped quite alot.
Felt very very guilty for coming late for SP.
I think kengheng was pissed off.
Learnt a lot of valuable stuff that I will remember and teach the other juniors.
After that I tried colors ;D
I love it ALOT homg.
I keep replaying the recording -.-

Today I realized that most guys are dickheads.
Actually yesterday.
Sigh.
Really don't get them at all.
I'm still confused over you.

I'm going to listen to David Cook until I have to go out to the airport to fetch my family(:
Haven't seen them in 2 years.

2010-04-21T23:29:00.002+08:00

#232;
Happy birthday yanting(:
Even tho its like half an hour early, nvm this is a blog lol.

Had speech day rehearsal for half an hour. Quite cool. Played 2sm with the timpani and trumpet and a few others. V fun.
Anyway i had an emotional breakdown on the bus home today.
I shouldn't be left alone for a long time. I'll go mad.

Bio test tmr. Studied quite a lot, hope i do well.
2.4 too, i'm going to run through the six rounds. I'm damn determined. Going to get silver i dont care.

Baked ytd(:
So fun, i almost forgot how fun actually.
Rly awesome.

I should rly update more often.
And be happy. Like bossini keeps saying.
I've been so emo lately.
Must smile more(:
Will post again tmr.

2010-04-17T20:10:00.001+08:00

thats it.
i'm officially in love with ARTTM(:

2010-04-17T14:13:00.002+08:00

#230;
Today's been a rly rly bad day so far.
I hurt you so much.
I came this close to knifing myself.
But I didn't.
I realized knifing myself would be the stupidest thing to do.

We've got ensemble test on monday I think.
Need to master Quintus and Fantasia by then.
And maybe if there's time rehearse with the juniors on monday morning.
I will pitch that high G.
Band yesterday was scary.
We screwed Mahler 3, kindof.
And 2SM was quite disastrous without the year4s.
I actually noticed myself moving around at some parts wtf.
Must play ALOT louder from now on.
And be confident of where to come in. Esp that scary part in the first movement.
Need to train the juniors alot more also.
Next year's SYF alr.
Wednesday and Thursday will be devoted to SP.
I want to reach that standard the seniors set for us. Maybe even pass it.

Can say my grades have been okay so far.
Except for math.
Math is the extreme alr, extremely bad.
Mrs Nancy Phua alr coming to talk to me to see whether I can "cope with the standard of SBGE maths".
Actually I cant.
But I dont know why the school put me there.
I don't rly get maths.
Its all a blur, stupid letters and equations and stuff.
I'm more humans and arts.
Screw school srsly.

Don't know when the Fusion results are coming.
But I hope they're good results.
We tried our best alr, no point looking back at what we did wrong.

I'm going to try and be a better person to you.
I have to prove to you that you can trust me.
And not disappoint you again.
Rly must try alot harder at everything.
Cant keep waiting for someone to push me.

2010-04-12T21:17:00.002+08:00

#229;
i'm fcking pissed off at everything now.
went to sch and got a stupid migraine.
then some ppl pissed me off.
actually a lot of ppl pissed me off.
almost everybody did-.-
thats what a migraine does to my brain.
gives me like PMS or smth.

ANYWAY.
band today was crap.
i played like crap.
but i'm going to prac ALOT more.

tmr i'm staying back for fusion.
and wednesday's audition.
sigh hope we do well(:
fingers crossed!

hope i survive the week-.-
its started off idiotically.

ahhh zz so pissed i cant post properly.
will go cool down =.=

2010-04-09T21:59:00.004+08:00

#228;
sigh.
last night i had a billion things to think about.
insomnia sucks because.
you cant sleep cos you're thinking of too much crap.
then in the end when you cant sleep you think more about that crap.
and it gets worse.
you get stuck with stupid thoughts and idiotic memories.
no one can help you cos they're all asleep.
and you're just alone in your room in the dark trying not to think about those stuff but they just keep coming back.
then you realize how screwed up your life is.
and everything falls apart.

today was a tiring day.
had to pretend to be happy and smile and laugh and be friendly even though i felt all broken and pissed off at everyone so that ppl wont notice anything.
and they didn't.
anyway the other stupid part with insomnia is that you're super tired in the morning.
couldn't concentrate during chem test made a few stupid errors but still got 13/16.
the day just passed in a blur.
remembered being quite sad that i wasnt playing mahler.
then we got called down(:
i like mahler.
it sounds rly cool.
i think the eflat clarinet is cool too.
too bad my sister cant bring hers home anymore-.-
was enjoying the music during full band(:

i'm going to organize my pile of workshit this weekend.
then i'm going to revise everything.
so that i dont lag behind everyone.

anyway i recently discovered a rocket to the moon (:
i like them alot now, i know i'm quite lag.

:D

2010-04-06T22:29:00.002+08:00

#227;
Today was a soso day.
Hi I stole my old phone back to post-.-
Yeah so i stayed back 2hours and sp-ed cos i needed someone to go home with(:
In the end went w rongying LOL. Total epic win :D

Yesterday we watched our rhythm concert.
Quite good(: but that twosymphonic first entry was total embarrassing shit.
That part in blue shades was nice tho. Even though dirty failed badly. Oh and the wail.

Fusion auditions in a week. Hope we dont screw. Jy vivien, regina, yasmine(:

Pri sch syf on thurs(: jiayou to my sister, on the eflat clarinet lol. Damn pro.
She'll probably dsa dunman high. Haha.

Going to try and mug through th night(: totally blanked out past few lessons, need to catch up.
I hate headaches.
Alot.

Hope i dont die this week(:
Rly. Sigh.

2010-04-03T09:18:00.003+08:00

#226;
Hai stalkers.
I'm posting again, like finally.
Yeah right now i'm sitting at home waiting for my stupid fever to go away.
Four days of headache led to this, total fml.
School is killing me.

The first band prac after Rhythm on Monday was really motivating.
Then Kaleidoscope was like a blur. But I brought my guitar and jammed w my gay partner Vivien and Regina after school in 3S, it was totally awesome.
We went through a few songs, Regina and Vivien sang, I played guitar, Weiting and Hongkai were audience LOL, coolest experience I've ever had in a long time.
Fusion's gonna rock(:

Good Friday yesterday.
Didn't go to church-.-
My parents cheated me wtf.
And I had to go out and walk walk when all I wanted to do was fall on the floor and die.
Bought a new oven.
I can bake cookies again :D

Looking back on term and term 2, I'm very disappointed in myself.
Last year I made myself a promise, but I'm breaking it.
I promised myself, I promised the teachers, I promised my friends.
But I'm not going to break it anymore.
I'm going to keep it or I'll kill myself.

Going to do all my homework today.
Then I'm going out to get a haircut :D
Watching Clash of the Titans tonight-.- the 2D version lol.
Hope I don't die in the cinema.

I'm going to try and post more often LOL.
Totally killing this place.

2010-03-26T21:08:00.004+08:00

#225;
this place is dead haha. changed to sony ericsson t175 and it has no more wifi):
anyway hi the week sucked ass.

on monday it was quite sian cos there was no band.
tuesday sucked bcos i stayed back until so f-ing late for no reason.
wednesday i got to go home early bcos i tripped over reginatoon's leg, twisted my ankle and scraped my knee. ate carl's jr for lunch, that was the awesome part.
yesterday was okay i guess.
today started off bad, the middle part was high, then it ended off worse.

went for ACE this morning at school(:
zishan and vivien are damn fun to watch.
sent myself some songs. sent "the only difference between suicide and martyrdom is press coverage" instead of "the only exceptioon".
fail.
but its a nice song by panic! at the disco. the name is cool.

then went to go crash reginatoon's house.
its cool haha she didn't find us when we were hiding near the pool.
in the end we took 12 and arrived late at bedok stadium.
dunman high did quite awesome.
towards the middle we really started highing.
and then we started watching the hot soccer guys lift weights and play soccer.
the ilovehotguys club president tsk.
i had 3. daryl's was 10 and regina's was 9, until she gave him to me too.

my ankle is swollen now.
i'm abit freaked out, but i'm putting ice on it.
and its not so painful really.

i'm damn stressed out.
i really don't get it.
and you're making it impossible for me to talk to you anymore.
just tell me.
whataya want from me.
LOL-.-

zz i got no life.
everyone's out at 3C class dinner.
screw my lack of freedom.

2010-03-21T12:06:00.004+08:00

#224;

RHYTHM XXIV
was a blast last night(:

Just as awesome as last year, if not more.
Love the feeling you get when you're performing for a concert, its awesome.
(Even though I blasted my first entry in 2symphonic and got a stare from Mr Ng and probably screwed the whole thing after that haha its over anyway)

Thanks to all those who gave me chocs/candies/cards/flowers/cookies!
Keng Heng, for the cakes (which we shared with the euphoniums haha) and the card.
Y2 trombones for the postit and chocs, Y6 seniors for the chocs and snack thing.
thank you to Isaac, Xuewen, Weiting, JiaEn, Peishan, Hannah, Sophin, Yanting, Cass and Chongming for the cards and extra stuffs(:
Thiri for the sweets, Rumeng for the flower.
And all those who came for the concert and brought presents,
Jingjie for the cookie(:
Vivien for the cookies and ReginaToon for the lollipops and flower thing.
And Daryl for the balloon(:

When I woke up this morning it felt like Rhythm was just a dream, but I know its more than that.
It was one of the best nights of the year, and I bet it will remain that way for a LONG time :D

It was the last Rhythm with the sec fours, and I'm really going to treasure it.
Going to miss Sophin, Wenlin and Kengheng ALOT.
Time passes really fast, its already our second-last Rhythm also, next year it'll be SYF, we'll be year4, and we'll have our last Rhythm too.
Need to treasure all these moments(:

This week was just like free of worries and homework and shit, I loved every minute of it.
Even though we didn't really have holidays, it felt better than that.
Now I dont wanna go back to school tmr.
I wish there was band.

Thanks to everyone for making last night awesome and unforgettable, all those who went through the whole ride with me(:
Homg everyone's going through Post-Rhythm Syndrome now haha ._.
It really was awesome.
DHSSB♥
TROMBONES♥

2010-03-17T01:50:00.002+08:00

#223;
2 days of Band Camp are over.
Dont know if I can take 2 more days of this.
I get splitting headaches during the day and when I try to sleep early I cant.
And it just keeps getting worse everytime.
A few hours ago I couldn't even see clearly.
Now I cant even sleep.
Zz to hell with it.

Only 3 days left to Rhythm.
Time passes really fast.
I dont even think I'm ready yet.
Hope I can get it together by Saturday.
And I have to write cards. For the juniors.
And the seniors who are gonna step down.
Its damn sad that they're stepping down.
I'm seriously going to miss them alot.
And I doubt I can match their standard.

Insomnia is hardcore shit.
I'm not going to survive today.

2010-03-14T20:50:00.002+08:00

#222;
today was boring.
went for cathecism. realized my class got like no plans aft sec school.
DHS has 6year IP.
next saturday there's youth mass. but i wont be there cos of rhythm.
went to church just now again.
we're halfway through lent alr.

band yesterday was abit sian.
we talked about cool stuff at the staircase.
went for combined brass sp in MPR10.
when i played there was this stupid flutter sound.
my embrochure's screwed suddenly.

after band was when i screwed everything up.
i always make the wrong choices.

tomorrow there's band camp.
i remember last december i dreaded every day of band camp.
and this year i'm looking forward to rhythm again.
rhythm was such an awesome experience last year(:
hope its just as good this year.

my holidays are as good as gone.
my hw is like:
1) history proj
2) hist position paper (on thailand-.-)
3) chem TYS + holiday ws
4) bio practical ws + TYS
5) FOUR math ws
6) ACE genocide proj
7) CL practice paper
8) CL compo qn
9) CL xizi(wtf)
10) CME proj
11) LA essay(autograph book)
12) lit creative writing portfolio introduction
i have one day to finish it.
thursday afternoon.
sianshit.

i realize my handbook is very vandalized this year.
so that means i'm actually using it :D

today my dad complained that i'm not using my electric guitar again.
need to go prove him wrong.
but i like the classical more, the songs i can learn have more emotional connection.
i still want to learn canon rock.

my sister's leaving for a 3D2N band camp tmr.
i have my room to myself :D
can do anything i want in the middle of the night.
haha that sounds really wrong.

need to slack somemore and then sleep early.
meeting yanting in the morning on the way to school(:
will probably be late for band haha-.-

2010-03-12T22:02:00.003+08:00

#221;
today started off real bad.
got scolded for something totally unreasonable, the bus uncle drove off when the bus still had space but the idiots inside didn't want to move.
then i got to school and remembered i forgot to finish my chinese compo again.
recess was awesome though when i could play vivien's guitar.
felt totally at ease and relaxed.
read MLIA on the E51 during LA(:

band was okay.
fcking cold.
i need to bring a water bottle to my seat next time.
almost died-.-

its finally the MARCH HOLIDAYS.
-.- haha yeah right.
tmr there's band, sunday morning and evening church, monday to thursday band camp, friday math trail at vivo, saturday Rhythm XXIV, sunday church again.
zzz and the homework is like one huge shitload.
will post the list soon so i remember.
school is such an ass.

on this friday last year, i had insomnia and couldn't sleep until 3AM, then my mom suggested i skip school.
[was reading through blogarchives-.- the thursday before that day was our A-level results holiday too. but it was a full day]
at that time i didnt even know what made me unable to sleep.
and now i'm getting it every other day.
need to relax. i think i'm too stressed.

the american idol top 12 was revealed today :D
i think tim urban is really shuai.
haha-.-

i'm going to enjoy my time on the comp then sleep early so i dont end up staying up.
then go for band tmr and block out everything else.
and when i get home learn more songs on my guitar.
i want to be able to play at least 50 from memory by the end of this year.

2010-03-11T14:04:00.002+08:00

#220;halfday of school today.

extremely pointless, they should either make it full day school or full day holiday.

had math and 45 min of PE. played floorball.

went SP until 12 today, was very free.

i managed to practise, and thats what counts.

yesterday went to SP too, extra-ed while weiting practised with her brass quintet.

they sound damn good.

been a whirlwind so far.

got a lot of things to deal with.

you're fcking confusing me.

first you're an asshole, then you're extremely sweet, then you become an asshole again.

make up your mind.

and apparently 2A, 2K and 2L 2009 aren't getting any yearbooks.

wtf.

i want the yearbooks.

been battling insomnia again this week.

every few days it just comes back.

thank goodness the best inspiration comes from deafening silence.

i want songs from alltimelow and themaine.

at least they dont remind me of D.

and i'm in need of new more-than-decent music to listen to.

going to go "enjoy my half-day holiday" -.-

will post properly during the weekends, dazed like fck right now.

2010-03-06T21:57:00.003+08:00

#218;
[themaineeeeeeee]

went for band today, even though there was only 1 1/2 hours left, and i was practically in agony.
but it was okay i guess. until the high notes-.-
after band went for lunch at KFC with part of the lowerbrasses, and some seniors o.o
the walk there was awesomely high.
and we met some of the guys at KFC, where we watched them sing two symphonic -.-
dont know who attracted more attention, them or the nearby children's party lol.
epic.

went home with wenlin(:
we talked about stuff.
i'm going to miss the year4 seniors when they step down.
trombones(:

alltimelow's writing a new record now, saw it on alex's twitter.
cant wait for it to drop :DD

i learnt three solos on my electric guitar today.
i keep forgetting to get a guitar pick. you cant shred with your fingernails-.-
tonight i'm going to sleep late.
because i need to finish my part of the LA thing.
and my chinese homework.
so that tmr i have time to slack and go jogging.
zz my 2.4 is damn suckish.

2010-03-05T22:17:00.002+08:00

#217;homgz this place is like extremely dead.

i have no other mood today other than tired as fck.

didn't manage to sleep last night, and i had to survive through band today ._.

and tmr gotta wake up early bcos of dental+more band.

awesome.

this week's been considerably better than last week.

can say my academics are improving.

and even though i went through an experience that left me confused and one incident yesterday that pissed me off quite abit , it was still okay.

today i high-ed with cass during fall out.

we were laughing about lame stuff like that idea of cass = squad leader.

and other horny stuff i'll get in trouble for posting :D [cass would own at bar304-.-]

yay so.

ADAM LAMBERT is coming to singapore next week ;D

homfg get me tickets. maybe i'll win one pair and give one to vivien hahaha.

bet its gonna be awesome. at least i get to go to an americanidol concert, bcos i missed kris allen's -.-

next week i aim to finish all my homework on time [haha ohshit]

and not screw up anything.

and go for SP at least twice bcos thursday is xybastian's 1st birthday.

and be happier.

and not think about you so much bcos it just depresses me.

and to not write so many songs bcos they take up valuable hw time.

yay.

i freaking love the gLee soundtrack yay.

2010-02-24T19:02:00.003+08:00

#215;
Posting with my phone because i couldn't take the deadness of this place. And my life in general-.-
Anyway yesterday i couldn't breathe. I hope my lungs dont have a problem or something.
And two days ago i felt like a fucking idiot when you said that to me. I'm sorry.

You could say so far my week's sucked ass.
Math test was screwed up.
Chem test today was reasonable.
Screwing myself with the hw.
And i still have bio and history left.

Hell, and then you're there to distract me.
This week alone i wrote 3 songs about you.
Love is effing blind.

I need to work harder. So that i can give my parents something to be proud of.
Instead of making myself look like a worthless piece of shit.
Instead of being the cause of their fights.
Instead of making them want to split.
I'm being sawed in half.

I suddenly miss lystra.
All the people that make me happy just by existing.
But there's still people around now i guess.

I was playing with my penknife yesterday zzz.
Cant go down that road.

gLee tonight.
Going to chiong hw like shit.
Hist is gonna be a killer.

Save me from myself.

2010-02-19T21:31:00.002+08:00

#214; [this would have been cool on valentine's day -.-]
Another week is over.
Just like that.

PE was freaking embarrassing yesterday.
And painful.
I don't know how three people fell on each other at once but it happened.
And I stretched a muscle at my left shoulder.
Everywhere hurts.
Inclined pullups sucked.

I hope you didn't do that to me on purpose.
Maybe I'm overreacting, but everyone seems like they're against me.
I think I'll just ignore it.

Yesterday I couldn't sleep again.
Slept for 3 hours only.

Band was awesome(:
SP was quite awesome also, first experience taking the section.
That day my face went red very easily.
I think its cos of PE-.-

Hope next week is a better week.
I'm going to train my arms again so they dont hurt so much.
And play more guitar(:
And update my tumblr. Shit its so dead.
And so is this place hahaha yay.

2010-02-14T15:05:00.002+08:00

#213;
Watched Valentine's Day last night at Tampines with family.
Saw the taylors haha. Swift was a bimbo and Lautner was a jock-.-
There was a guy who played the trombone ._.
And the movie was so romantic it gave me heartache. ~~I wish life were like the movies~~.
Its also quite sick(:
So overall i'm quite satisfied hahahaha.

Cass and I made our twitters yesterday :D
epic fail.
the word limit didn't allow "lauraysettamendozaraquepo"
and "believersneverdie" so i had to go with
"believersdie" instead-.-

Today is the first day of CNY!
Happy CNY everyone -.- Even though I'm stuck at home, everyone should be enjoying themselves today.
Sigh sometimes its sad knowing that your friends' whole family are with them but yours are overseas.
I miss everyone alr.

Anyway, the homework:
1)~~Zhouji~~
2)LA Compre Exercise 37
3)Lit Ass
4)Bio Graded Practical Ass
5)Bio Groupwork PPT
6)Bio WS
7)Chem Groupwork
8)ACE Essay
9)Chem worksheets [overdue zzz]
10)Math Class Practice 3
11)BP Group Ass

Sigh. I better start on the others.

Wednesday having celebration (wearing Rhythm) and hopefully class lunch with Lystra.
Then back to suckish stupid school life.
I hate everything about it.
I only have band to look forward to.
And bus rides home with people who are as epic as I am or more(:

34 DAYS TO RHYTHM XX1V(:
we can pull it off, i know we can.
Buy tickets ;D i sold all mine alr but still.
DHSSB ftww.

2010-02-12T20:54:00.002+08:00

#213;
Wishing all the blog stalkers a Happy Valentine's Day/Friendship Day/Chinese New Year/Total Defence Day-.-
i think CNY sucks hardcore.
people get money and food and family time while i get four days at home without anyone to talk to.
lucky shits.

Anyway thanks to all those awesome friends who care about me.
To all those I spam-hugged because I felt gay ;D
To Cass for starting off the day serenading me with River! and pwning everyone who's tried it hahaha(: And for being awesome as usual.
To Weiting and Yanting for an epic busride home, and making me feel happy even though I was prepared to sulk the whole day.
Yeah and to all those who ever smiled at me, been nice to me, counseled me, lamed with me, highed with me, gayed with me, tolerated me.
Y'all are awesome happyfriendshipday.

My plan to make the week awesome epic failed miserably.
(I owe alot to my epic counselor and the horny duck, i almost penknifed myself-.-)
~~It's getting worse, I couldn't stop thinking about D the whole week.~~

Band was cool.
Blasted until I was giddy-.- Learnt about my mouthpiece.
Two hours of straight practical today.
Chem's was quite a success. Bio's graded ass was totally and completely epic fail. Retarded laughs and spilling sucrose all over the place.

Maybe next week will be better.
Homg fck my life DD:

2010-02-05T21:35:00.002+08:00

#212;
TGIF(:

hello!
this week has been okay i guess.
i feel accomplished(: coordgeo quiz passed, hist assignment passed, chem quiz owned.

getting a new handphone ;D
finally i dont have to get a secondhand from my parents. I just hope there's some plan that involves a free iPhone. or at least an imba touchscreen la.

in terms of relationships, i'd say i'm very happy with this week(:

yesterday was the most confusing day of my life.
in the morning/afternoon i was freaking happy.
then at night i got pissed off until i did something i regret doing ._.

i wrote another song today(:
one day i will actually perform them at one go.

PE yesterday was scary. it felt like my chest collapsed. (haha 2L<3)
but i need to get in shape zzz.
or else i'll die halfway through PE. literally.

going to finish all my homework this weekend.
and then i'm going to sleep alot.
and go jogging.
and play with my electric guitar before my dad threatens to take it away for not using it-.-

next week is going to be awesome idontcare.

2010-01-31T22:27:00.002+08:00

#211;I feel sad today -.-

I didn't manage to sleep last night and it made me extra emo for some reason.

I realized my life is full of stress.

And i went on wiki and discovered i have transient onset insomnia.

Sounds quite cool but it feels like shit.

I talked to no one today.

So I spent the whole day working on a song I wrote in the middle of the night.

Its still crap, but I hope I can turn it into something great(:

We skipped church again.

I don't know why.

Being ignored feels like I died.

You wait for that person to notice you/respond, but in the end you're treated like you don't exist.

For some reason that's how I felt the whole day.

I should sleep more LOL.

Tmr morning going SP!

Hopefully I'll be happy tmr.

I'm going to (FORCE MYSELF TO) sleep soon yay.

2010-01-30T20:00:00.005+08:00

#210;

Today, I made myself a tumblr.
Tumblr is freaking cool yay.

Check it out ;D

Still keeping my blogger though, until I get sick of it -.-

[edit] its 2:25AM and i still cant sleep-.-
I'm going to go quietly play my guitar.

Wtf-.- its 6:12AM and i freaking stayed up the whole night. Zzz. [/edit]

2010-01-29T23:32:00.005+08:00

#209;going to have to practice much more for band.

and improve much more on the trombone ._.

everyone was shivering.

i don't wanna be kicked out.

today sucked BAD.

couldn't concentrate because i felt pain everywhere.

my leg, my arm, my neck, my head. got woken up last night.

history presentation was screwed, as i thought it would be.

and i probably failed my bio test.

tgif.

~~but when D actually said something non-degrading/insulting to me it made my day.~~

anyway i went home with cass for the first time in months(:

talking to her is damn fun. i should go talk to her more often D:

possible lystra outing on the 16th of feb ;D i miss the gaypeoples.

going to need to run over the weekend also, among other things.

my PACERcrap sucked.

and weiting keeps saying the pain is cos of lactic acid(LOL) but my arm hurt since two days ago.

and if it gets to your brain it wont just cause a headache it'll probably melt the whole brain.

no wonder cannot concentrate today.

at least i finished some of my hw today.

there's still the play sighhhhh.

2010-01-28T18:53:00.002+08:00

#208;
Heyyo(:
Another handphone post ._.
Anyway my mood has sucked the past few nights.
I think i'm angsting -.-

Brought the classical for yanting yesterday it was failed.
But playing the guitar is very very destressing(:

WE HAD PE TODAY. I FEEL THE LACTIC ACID -.-
i sucked at the PACER crap.
And i have a good feeling abt my chem quiz :D

Yeah i borrowed kris allen today hahaha. And onerepublic and adam lambert a few days ago.
Awesome la.
Going to spam my com/phone.

When i post with my phone i can never see what i alr typed without spamming the up button-.-

Today had sp.
Fun(: anything involving my trombone is fun.
Tmr there's full band.
I'm quite excited.

Anyway we're 3cows -.-
Lol they're petitioning for calbee haha.

Hist presentation tmr. Hope i dont screw.
I'll go and play my guitar now.

2010-01-22T21:44:00.002+08:00

#207;
another week is over ._.
i've managed to get myself confused over choices.
how does a person manage to choose one over the other.
and you've gotten me confused and hurt enough almost to the point of giving up.
but i won't.
maybe you're worth waiting for.

today i almost died climbing the stairs up to the third floor.
my thighs ache like mad.
we stalked the school like paparazzi with a cool DSLR today for LA.
i totally fail at photography.
which is why i stick to music.
maybe if my mom lets me use her D5000 more often i can play around with it more.

oh yeah last night i dreamt 158 was speeding through geylang there and i got struck by lightning somehow.
then i flew off into the band room and my trombone started talking to me -.-
i forgot what it said, but when i woke up i burst out laughing.
and halfway through there was that usual sequence where weiting and yanting would perform their random korean song which i didnt bother listening to cos i was talking to my trombone.
how come i keep getting traumatizing (in some way) dreams.

this weekend i aim to write my play and a song.
maybe i can write some poetic one and put it in my portfolio.
kill one stone with two birds :D

TGIF.
today band was fun.
even though i had a sorethroat which was the fever's way of telling me not to go run three rounds right after some miraculous overnight recovery ._.
luckily i didnt die again and i managed to play quite well during SP(:
it was extremely epic.
and after SP before going home i was high-ly singing random songs with wenlin lol.
got rhythm tickets.
6DOLLARS PER PERSON. 20TH MARCH, SUNDAY. SEATED IN PAC BY 7:20PM.
lol i have a feeling all the tickets will be used on my family -.-

meeting up with history group on sunday.
hope there's still time to make it to church.
i'm suddenly looking forward to rhythm again.

streetlights, people, living just to find emotion.

2010-01-21T21:09:00.003+08:00

#206;
Hi(:
Watched american idol and glee the past two days.
Both awesome shows yay.
Don't stop believin is quite a cool song. And the main guy is quite shuai LOL.

Anyway i almost died last night when i suddenly got a fever.
But in the morning its better and miraculously after pe i'm still alive.
My legs freaking pain.

School has been cool.
Regina and vivien are entertaining hahaha xD
And i might be playing guitar in centerstage LOL(:
They know now cos someone told them D<
But i'm quite sure they wont tell.

Got two projects now.
And a trip on saturday which i dont think i can go for.
Lol 3C is quite awesome. Been enjoying myself in class.

Tmr is friday(:
I'm quite happy.

I need to go mug now zzz-.-

2010-01-16T18:07:00.002+08:00

#205; omg finally i'm back on my comp.
anyway this week is definitely better than last(:
made quite a few new friends, got a new chinese name -.-
learnt quite a few new stuff.
finally got over something i should have gotten over a long time ago.

just linked everyone(:
feels good to type with a keyboard instead of a stupid handphone keypad.
need to catch up with all the new songs.

i exceeded my phone bill by 15bucks.
at least now i can sms again.
but not so much.
200 smses per month is way too little.

my sister just came home with a "6000 bucks buffet" eflat clarinet -.-
its not fair she's allowed to prac her instrument at home and i'm not.
nvm, trombones have superior blasting skills :D

i'm going to go listen to recordings because that's what i do when i'm bored.
havent listened yet. must listen so i can improve.

finished my homework last night.
forced mugging is actually benefitial lol.

2010-01-15T20:43:00.004+08:00

#204;

Hi :D
Posting with my phone again.
Damn cool.
Anyway pe wasn't as bad as i expected.
Now i'm always going to think before saying "i'm late" -.-

Sigh i never listen to 987 for so long.
My songs are quite outdated zzz.

Anyway we just landed ourselves a stupid hist project.
And math is literally killing me.

Band was quite awesome.
Blasting feels good. I should prac the songs more often.
Alot of fun yay.
Except for that stupid shooting pain at the back of my left shoulder in the middle of the song.
Maybe its posture. Anyway i cant have it interrupting every time.
I want a soloist badge D:

Posting for real tmr.
My dad is making me mug.
Omg i love my phone and its wifi.

Mugging sucks. But i need it la.
Dont wanna fail again.
This year is a mugging year.
Somemore my sister's going psle.
She wants to dsa to dunman high with her ultra pro clarinet skills. Wait she year one go syf alr i'll feel v not pro.
She just took on the eflat clarinet lol -.-
Sigh.

2010-01-12T20:41:00.002+08:00

#203;

Omg my first ever experience posting with my phone-.-
Didn't even know i could.
My phone is more awesome than it appears. Got msn also :D

Anyway, today was okay i guess.
Second week of term.
I love lit(:
And the other teachers are nice.
The only subjects i find super sian are ACE, PE and BP.
The others are quite awesome.
Stayed back and prac-ed band today from 415 to 515.

Might be sp-ing tmr.
And i realised a few of my classmates are alr finding my blog :D
Thats quite cool. Will link on saturday.

Tmr got maths. Maths is super sian too.
I hate maths -.-
Advanced somemore dammit.
At least there's lit(:

Sigh. Better continue stoning waiting for my mom to come home so i can turn on the actual comp.

2010-01-09T13:48:00.005+08:00

#202;

Hey(:
Cos of some warped rule I'm only allowed to post on weekends unless I'm suddenly very very lucky.

Its been a rollercoaster so far.
I owe alot to yanting for all the help.
At least now you reply much faster lol(:

Orientation was tiring T.T
Went around everywhere, Buangkok, Orchard, St Andrew's Cathedral, ECP. Did a bunch of weird fun stuff.
Then telematch was soso.
CCA Exhibition... Had to play/do the same things 12 times in a row. Only the last time was it really high and funny. And I seriously hate my water key D:

The teachers are okay I guess.
I have a feeling I'm going to enjoy lit :D
Maybe LA/Lit will improve my right-now-very-suckish songwriting skills(:
PE sucked.
Cos we thought the teacher's supposed to come up for first lesson. Guess we were wrong.
I grew VERY little only.
157.5cm and 43kg. I'm never going to grow taller sigh.

Missed band yesterday for some Science Congress.
Didn't win anything, but the food was awesome(:
The speakers were quite cool la, I didn't understand quite abit, but some of them were very funny.
And we got to sit in comfortable seats in an aircon room for a long time so I guess thats good.
But I feel very guilty for not going to band yesterday.

I'm gonna need to SP alot this year.
More than anyone else if I'm going to overcome my braces once and for all.

Anyway I have a feeling my blog's gonna be quite dead since I'm only posting on weekends.
My goal is to memorize at least 2 songs every weekend!
I've seriously been slack on the guitar dont want my dad to sell it away ._.

I cant wait for American Idol 9 :D

2009-12-31T13:05:00.004+08:00

#201; [awesome, "201"0 :D Happy New Year :D]
Today's the last day of 2009(: [and Yanting asked me to update -.-]
Everything that happened this year probably happened for a reason.
No matter how bad that thing sucked.
It was the last year with 2Lystra, that was sentimental ._.
Thank you to all the friends who made this year good(:
And fun and high.

People who helped me get through the day, who kept me happy :D
The friends who made me look forward to school the next day even though that day sucked.
Anyway the academics this year sucked like shit.
And band was okay I guess. The cause of some of my depression -.-
The people I smsed ;D
The people who love me -.-
2Lystra(:, Weiting, Yanting haha(: I LOVE YOU ALL.

And there was the stupid stuff I did.
And those who still talked to me while I didnt deserve to be talked to ._.

Next year's gonna be much better, I hope.
I'm gonna try harder.
And I'll have more friends to help me(:
And I'm going to pwn everyone.

Oh, again:
HAPPY NEW YEAR! (2010 ;D)

2009-12-28T16:10:00.004+08:00

#200;

HI :D
back from hongkong.
came back at 3AM, slept so i could go for band ._.

Plane rides were cool.
On the way there watched G-force cos my sister asked me to -.-
Then it finished and I flipped to some super funny M18 movie.
My parents were asleep :D
On the way back watched HP6(:
Wanted to watch Funny People but my mom was awake the whole time so it was damn sad.
I was watching bit by bit through the gap, the screen of the guy in front of me.
-.- My mom's boss's son. I'm despo.

First day did nothing much, went around shopping.
The hotel was super cool, 80 floors. Too bad we were only on the 51st.
Went to walk around at Citywalk and stuff.
Bought two pairs of shoes :D Vans and School shoes.

Second day had dim sum for breakfast then went out to Avenue of Stars o.o
Saw the stars for Jackie Chan, Jet Li, Bruce Lee and Chow Yun Fat with no handprint -.-
There was a steak house called WOOLOOMOOLOO. I saw it and thought of Cass.
Went to some shops then to the cable cars, Ngong Ping 360(:
The scenery was super cool, and the cable car was super high up.
The village was cool too, walked to the monastery and had vegetarian lunch ._.
Waved to everyone on the cable car ride back :D 13 people waved back haha.
Dinner seafood, everyone got drunk then somehow made it to the nightmarket where i got new CHUCKS!

Third day was full day at disneyland which was awesome.
Space Mountain is the bestttt. Nothing beats space mountain.
Got to ride others too like Autopia the driving thing o.o
Its a Small World which was quite okay okay.
The Adventure River Cruise was cool too. And Tarzan's Treehouse.
Watched the Let it Snow parade :D the parade floats and the dancers were awesome and the guy playing the trombone said hi to me o.o
The fireworks were amazing too.
Queues were superlong though. Rode almost all the cool rides(: Got souvenirs for Weiting Yanting and Cass.
Heard Beauty and the Beast more than once xD
Playing for year6 grad day.
Its awesome, trombones got melodyyy.

Anyway first two days were cooling, like aircon temperature(:
You cant get that in SG omg it was so shiok.
Then third day was BOOMZ. So cold. And the fourth also.

Last day stayed around the hotel again.
Flight delayed one hour, had to wait ._.
Got home 3AM omg.

Will post photos tmr when we finally sort through the three cameras we brought there ._.
All Nikon haha one coolpix one D5000.
Amazed they didnt drop somewhere.

Band today was fun too(:
We were high and playing Concerto without conductor.
Even though i came late i didnt really miss much i guess.
Beauty and the Beast is fun :D

Sojourn II on Sunday.
Wish me luck ._.

[edit] Wow Starhub is letting us watch EVERY channel for free for some promotion thing(: Awesome. I shall watch iCarly now :D [/edit]

2009-12-23T17:03:00.003+08:00

#199;

Going to disappear to HongKong from the 24th to the 27th!
Don't miss me too much -.-

MERRY CHRISTMAS :D

2009-12-20T21:24:00.002+08:00

#198;
watched this last night/this morning :D
the visual effects were like amazing, and the plot was awesome.
i even had a DREAM about it omg ._.
no movie has ever done that to me before.
i totally recommend it.
and i agree it PWNED new moon.
[however, nothing can pwn taylor lautner shirtless :D]
James Cameron is a genius.

watched the TV special, took like 10 years plus to make the one movie.
time spent was totally worth it.

going to spam practice trombone this week before i head off to hongkong and get mickey mouse's autograph for yanting -.-

SOJOURN and CHRISTMAS to look forward to :D

2009-12-18T15:37:00.006+08:00

#197;
BAND CAMP<3
was awesome.
i learnt about loads of stuff from day 1 to day 3.
and i think i improved.
it was alot of fun, and we saw mr tan, who conducted us in year 1, again.

then on day 4 we had the whole day with YCK(:
it was fun, we were all really high.
the YCKtrombones were as high as we are. and extremely funny.
adrianshengdamirzastephaniejoanneandrew :D
interaction was beyond awesome.
it was a happy day.
got myself 3 kitkats and 2 candies.
trombones FTW :D

i'm considering taking up film-making/video editing.
need to get myself a video camera first -.-

going overseas nextweek.
hongkong for christmas.
will be gone from 24th to 27th.
disneyland here i come :D

2009-12-13T21:19:00.002+08:00

# 196;

band camp tomorrow to 17th.
i'm quite scared actually. just got stupid rubber bands yesterday that hurt everytime i open my mouth.
have to change them every night [totally epic-failedly].
if it affects my already-bad-enough trombone playing, i'll die.

meeting wtf and ytd early tomorrow 'cause ytd wants photos of taylor :D
weitingfail and yantingdick.

hongkong next friday. 24th.
not scared cos i've already vaccinated.
and i feel pro cos none of the side effects affected me.
vitamins make you super strong and healthy.

finished the whole of CSI today.
all five cases.
master rank :D
could be a detective when i grow up. but i honestly cant really handle gory stuff that well.

i need something better to do with my life.
going to convince parents to let me go beach/swimming/wildwildwet/kayaking because i'm damn bored.
got more time to think about stuff though.
and thats bad.
just worsens my insomnia. by a damn lot.

2009-12-11T20:44:00.002+08:00

#195

oh yeah i never blogged about watching newmoon.
it was totally awesome because i got to see taylorlautner shirtless almost the whole 2hrs plus.
RPattz was totally pwned :D

today i played CSI (the computer game) and solved 2 murder cases.
omg i never knew the library loaned comp games.
kungfu panda also.

went out at 7plus and got my H1N1 vaccine.
so i'm like (sortof) immune against it now. or soon.
plus i'm v healthy cos i take vitamin C every day.
wasnt painful. the arm muscle just aches abit when you move it too much.
and my bandage has completely no blood on it.
unlike my mom who bled quite a bit.
omg i've no blood o.o

should be going to hk in 2 weeks.
somehow my parents got around the passport shit omg.

i need to find a HCL book for my yueduka.
stupid chinese book lost wtf.
other than that i've no more hw to worry about.
full on slacking for the rest of the hols :D

2009-12-08T20:29:00.004+08:00

#194; Since I am bored,

Random stuff about my holiday life.

1. The only interesting thing I've done this week is my post-homework victory dance.
2. I lost my stupid chinese book. Stupid chinese book.
3. I watch okto everyday to see The Magic Garden. [duanerussellho xD]
4. Taylor Lautner is extremely hot :D
5. I wish I were less epicfailed on the trombone.
6. I broke my record last week by eating one box, one bar, one pack and two big bars of chocolate in only 2 days.
7. I finally found my handphone cable on my computer table after looking all over the house for it for weeks.
8. I always feel extremely gay in my new bright-colored specs :D
9. I'm getting the H1N1 jab (think we're still going to HK) Wish me luck.
10. I have just discovered the reason why I kajiao emilyn on MSN everyday.
11. I am ~~now~~ ALWAYS in a very high mood and anyone who talks to me will get a dose of retardedness like they have never seen before O:

credits to EMILYNteoyanting for an idea for my blogpost.

2009-12-03T08:15:00.003+08:00

#193; yo(:
back from my awesome 3D2N chalet at costasands downtown east(:
[post pictures another time; shall extort them from the d5000 -.-]

i love my friends :D
so far i've gotten a bloody happytreefriend (belinda-.-)
a speaker and potato chips (jianchongandmelvin)
believers never die and a folie a deux T-shirt (weiting and yanting) thankyousosomuch(:
chocolate (xinhui xD)
a vandalized book customized keychain and markers (rongyingfelandchitty)
a softtoy duck with a mohawk (patrick)
playdough and a card where the glitter fell off and LAURA is now "A" (chingying)
a portable fan (julia)
awesome handmade card (peishan) lol you printed out a trombone xD
giant pocky T.T (linmin) how to eat man -.-
two bottles of soap-like stuff -.-, a donut keychain, 50bucks, and more chocolate xD (i forgot who these were from ._.)

I love you all omg.

Being fourteen doesn't feel like anything. but when you celebrate it with a lot of crazy people, its awesome.

second day spent fully at WWW homg.
the tsunami at the 1.8M is AWESOME.
we rode ular-lah like 4 times -.-
and played around aimlessly at the playground with the giant bucket xD
and went like 6 rounds in total around shiok river -.-
and the V thing was awesome the second time as it was the first -.-
my sister screamed on skyrider wtf.

thanks for all the birthday greetings in advance(:

and to anonymous "-", fuck off so i can live my life in peace and happiness. thank you :D

2009-12-01T09:29:00.002+08:00

#192;Gonna disappear until 3rd December(:
parents booked a 3D2N chalet at downtown east to celebrate my birthday xD

Today's the celebration :D
Going bowling, then whacking each other with water balloons -.-

Tmr we get a full day at downtown east to do whatever we want homg.
Freedom.
And free passes to escape/WWW that came with the room that we booked.

I find it very epic that I still thought last night that I was turning 13.
-applause-

2009-11-29T21:59:00.007+08:00

#191; today i got one of the best birthday presents ever.
i wanted to see if those mystery google missions were true so i typed in "what is my mission?"
i got "you've been accepted to hogwarts school of witchcraft and wizardry. please contact albus dumbledore at 405*******"
lol after 3 years of waiting and a tantrum on my 11th birthday i finally get my acceptance letter.
in time for my 14th birthday too(:
thank you, mystery google. MLIA.
HAHA this is retarded-.-
(http://www.mylifeisaverage.com/ awesome site for awesome people.)

oh and i was bored so i urbandictionary-ed my name.

1) The person with this name is the most amazing person you will ever meet. After you say hi to her, magic fairy dust will sprinkle on your head and then you'll be able to FLY! OMG! Who WOULDN'T want to fly?

2) Holding in a burp walking across the room to burp in someone else's face. (hold on, isnt this a rongying? o.o)

3)The 4th meal of the day - post tea time and before sleepy time. It can consist of anything you like - as long as it's a whole meal.

wow. entertaining :D
i think reading MLIA will cover me being bored for the next few weeks xD
oh yeah and http://iamawesome.com/ is an awesome website.

haha birthday party in 2 days(:
going bowling. i'm gonna suck xD

catch you on the flipsideeee.

2009-11-27T13:31:00.003+08:00

#190;

hello(:
i just wrote another song -.-
third one since hols started.
(what am i doing with my life.)

went out this morning at 6.30AM to catch the sunrise with my mom's D5000.
did some photo-taking at the field near my house.
quite fun haha.
my mom takes a lot of unglam photos of us (on purpose)
then we went to go pick up some food at my aunt's house and had waffles for breakfast. and pork.
(haha i know someone who loves their pork xD)

i've gone insane.
cos i'm even thinking of playing canon rock for ensemble.
HAHAHA fat chance la -.-
the notes so high, the skips so big.
when i'm professional then i'll play it. when i finally learn it on the electric guitar :D
T.T its so damn hard. (its easier on jamlegend k -.-)

sigh so fast another week is over.
have to get used to 3C now, not 2L anymore. its sad. very sad.
and at the end of my dream last night somehow there was that scene of sengjoe falling off the mountain -.-

next week i'll be 14.
doesn't feel like anything cos its so late in the year alr.
everyone else i 14 and i'm still 13.
but last year it was superpro when escape let us in at childprice cos we were still 12 :D
so a late bday is quite pro also la.
but have to wait damn long.
then if i dont get smth i want for my bday i can ask for it for xmas -.-

December babies are awesome :D
(idc cass's opinion means nothing i am awesome la wth T.T)

haha guess whose birthday new moon is premiering on? :D
i wish this meant free tickets -.-

2009-11-23T19:34:00.004+08:00

#189;
i need something to do.
despo-ly.

should i spam learn songs on the guitar? spam learn songs on the trombone?
should i practice scales the whole day tmr? movie marathon?
should i find some minddestroying game that will kill my brain cells long enough for me to not noticed how bored i am?
should i watch tv? youtube?

at least got sp on wednesday.

still pissed with the passport crap.
everyone's off enjoying holiday and i'm stuck at home.
zzz.

2009-11-21T19:47:00.002+08:00

# 188;
went to SACPS year end concert(:
was quite awesome :D
the guitar club played love story and tonghua.
quite cool.

went to heartland mall for pizza hut after that.
went crazy with the twist n' dunk xD

stupid passport la. you cancelled my vacations zzz.
why need 6 freaking weeks to renew.

sigh. boring holidays. nothing to do.
might as well find some game to waste my life on.
or do chinese.
shit.

from now on we are enemies.

2009-11-20T18:56:00.002+08:00

# 187;

i had a stupid insane dream last night.

i walked into 3C, and for some absurd reason we were all wearing shorts -.-

suddenly the scene faded to a movie theater. we were having our batch sectional outing.

the movie suddenly switched to a scene with a mountain.

we (including sengjoe) were shown hanging off the edge of the mountain.

seng joe fell off and we climbed up to the top.

isaac turned to me and said: "see i told you he'd fall off."

suddenly SS501 appeared on the screen and weiting started screaming.

then yanting fell out of the sky (no joke) and started screaming too.

then i heard another highpitched scream, i turned around, and isaac fell out of his chair -.-

and then i woke up.

i officially need imh T.T

the mountain part is something he said near the start of the year i think -.-

this is the product of talking abt my section on msn ._.

classchalet:D was awesome.
we spent the whole time gaying. gaying like the horny gays we are.
and lots of tricks like the bottle game, black magic, "yesterday i... today i... then tmr i do what?", the string trick and stuff.
we figured out all of them :D
and fel raped me in my box.
and the screams of "HARDIZEIN HARDIZEINNN!" when hady mirza popped up on the screen xD

i pitched that high G today(:
but it has to be louder.
i blasted through march during the last 4 minutes.
damn fun.

lystra is so awesome :D

BELIEVERS NEVER DIE.
(is an awesome album :D i got it today so dont need bday present alr k)

2009-11-19T15:52:00.006+08:00

# 168;

our class chalet was so awesome(:
it rained almost the whole time but we still managed to be damn horny -.-
picts(:

our room number(:
unglam -.- the fight for venus.
:D e epic battle for julia. rongying's fake height =.=

movie poster material -.- bored people.
twister xD
BBQ
(very fail. took like over 2 hours to start our fire.)

peishan ultra-unglam.

ponyo zi-highing xD

pillowfight-.-

rapist.

fel's failed zipai #1

playing either tai ti or bridge o.o

fel's failed zipai #2

fel cullen ><

fel's failed zipai #3

"you feel hot ah, its just me, dont worry." - felicia goh

super failed. my camera sucks.

though its not those kind of cool go-out-bowling-or-escape-or-WWW, it was still quite successful -.-
cos we're so awesome.
and bonded.
and awesome.

i'm in 3C -.-
my sister called me to tell me haha.
idontcare this is the combo i want.
at least i get weiting.

stop trying to act cool long enough to actually figure out whats going around around you. its not your own little world.

2009-11-17T12:43:00.002+08:00

#185; supersianday.
wasted my freaking time at the philippine embassy applying for my stupidass passport.
it takes like 6 weeks to renew damn it.
and 1 hour to wait for "your number to be called"
cannot go hk anymore sigh. my parents are booking yet another chalet instead.
there's class chalet, the chalet on my birthday, and afterxmas to-make-up-for-hk chalet.
my holidays are so cool right-.-

could have gone for combinedsp -.-
and i took alicia's scores so she couldn't play anything.
so paiseh.
have to work extra hard to get my awesomeness back.
must be the awesomest in the whole section yay :D

i want believers never die(:
FOB is awesome.
just like me.
[wow i just gave the bloglurkers a birthday present idea -.-]

your time has passed they say never means never, so the fast dance wont last but never means forever.

2009-11-16T18:49:00.005+08:00

# 184;SP today was supercool -.-
i think we improved?
all i know is that before i put on braces my tone and volume was okay. after i put on braces my tone basically kenna destroyed :D

i think we were super fail at lowerbrassescombined lunch at kfc -.-
totally didnt talk ahaha.
so the lesson is: you must talk more if you're in lowerbrass.

two days to class chalet(:
cant help feeling excited.

EMILYN TEO YAN TING. i can spell your name now :D

2009-11-14T17:34:00.006+08:00

# 183;

OMG like who blogs on a saturday afternoon right?

just came back from bedok reservoir. my attempt to become dark failed miserably.
i'll forever be known as the one who's so white it looks unhealthy.
we rollerbladed today(: my gear was way too small so i didnt wear it.
and somehow i left the reservoir unscathed.
my mom took loads of picts with her nikon d5000 O:
if only someone could find out how to hook it up to a comp T.T

i woke up this morning and realized that i shouldn't sleep at all for class chalet.
if i do i'd end up unknowingly hurting people.
[i woke up and my handphone - originally on my bedside table - was on the floor, and i was stuck inside my blanket.]
or i might end up a long way from our chalet and be found lying in the middle of nowhere.
thank goodness its only 4 hours of sleep. i might not even sleep at all. i can survive :D

i have a feeling that the holidays are going to be really boring after class chalet.
[i think my ninja playlist is really cute xD]

build your house brick by boring brick or the wolf's gonna blow it down.

2009-11-13T21:41:00.005+08:00

# 182;

screwed up bullshit[blueshades] today.
it was really awesome!
FMLFMLFML.

went out to macs at tampines for lunch today with valerietanweiting and emelynteoyanting.
it was raining like hell. we got really wet.
got all wet and had to sit in a bloody cold bus until aljunied.
valerie and emelyn decided to go resto-hopping =.=
i ate EVM at macs [and got another marina bay and and instant win fries -.-]
then we went over to kfc to eat cheese fries, and back to macs again for ice cream.
it was awesome.
we talked abt loads of stuff :D

class chaletttttt(:
spammage of snacks, board games(?!), movies, games, and crazy high people.
i think i might actually be scared for my safety/~~virginity~~.

just like that, its over.

2009-11-12T13:13:00.004+08:00

# 181;

hello(:
i woke up at 12noon today on the sofa. =.=
[just when i thought i'd stopped sleepwalking sigh.]

classchalet next week at downtown east(:
apparently the date coincides with 2G's chalet too so maybe in the middle of the night we'll see freaky faces outside our window.
everyone's deciding what movies to bring (and majority consists of chick flicks o.o) and board games, since our class is quite guai [i think :/] and probably wont sneak out past curfew to like vandalize everything in sight or sneak off to e-hub.
really surprised that my dad let me go without adult supervision. he did say he might be popping by at 10.30 since he asked for our unit number =.= [stalker.]
think i'll do the actual class cards/individual dedications for the chalet/once chalet finishes T.T

better start sorting through my dvd shelf(: [yeah there's a whole shelf by itself that contains my family's dvd collection o.o]

oh by the way since weiting's done a two year early dedication to me on her blog, here goes:

weiting is extremely weird and mood-swingy. she's rarely high and very fun to suan and bother on msn and make fun of because she rarely does anything about it(: she has a really abnormal taste for guys who look like girls and she absolutely adores SS501 and korean things like a bunch of other people i know. she's quite cool yeah... but i'm awesome :D

yup =.= hope you liked it. to think i'd be doing another dedication to you in 2 years when we're year 4 and we're leaving JH band-.- but thats really far away so this one's for pure entertainment and watching the look on your face :D

lol another countdown timer-.-
LystraClassChalet whooo.

this could be all i've waited for.

2009-11-09T19:06:00.002+08:00

#180; band today.
quite okay did stock taking instrument maintenance and one hour of full band where we played through concerto d'amore(:

whoo. i love concerto d'amore(:

wtf T.T
my dad doesn't appreciate music at all lor -.-
i close the door play very softly he also come and scold.
"do you have to freaking practice now? why cant you do it on friday? its so loud!"
yeah okay ask for permission during full band to practice by myself what a great idea!
go and shout in my face.

then he thinks he's so smart. "when i was in university, i got top 10 in the level! all you need to do is pay attention in class! you don't really need to study"
-.- yeah its that easy for you how bout for us.
"why did you get wrong for this? you shouldn't be getting wrong!"
go and take the chinese exam yourself la.
freaking pissed.
he doesn't get us at all -.-
sit at his comp all day play wow grow fat =.=

bit my bit, my life is practically falling apart.
maybe later on when i've figured out how, i'll pick up the pieces.

2009-11-08T21:11:00.002+08:00

# 179;hello(:

so that's it.
the school year is officially over.
no more walking into the classroom in the morning, greeting all the retards xD
no more listening to iris argue with the teachers, no more laughing as a class about some wrong thing the teacher happened to say O:
no more nama saya T.T
no more laughing together while discussing some internal class couple or gossiping abt whatever girl melvina's picked up this time :DD
when i walk into class next year, it will definitely be different.
thanks for the memories [even though they weren't so great] :D

no use emo-ing though!
we still have class chalet [SIGH WHEN THE HELL IS THIS T.T]
and my parents have agreed to let me invite a bunch of classmates to my birthday celebration :D
so yeah. LYSTRA FTW O:

anddddd!
there's still band tmr, the 13th, the 20th, 14th - 17th december(:

haha bought a nikon d5000 today at funan :D
its sort of a shareshare between my mom and i.
damn cool.
going to go playwith it.
suddenly photography seems so awesome!

sighhh. i'm going to go jamlegend somemore because i found a TAB for canon rock and its shit hard so i might as well play the "easier" version [aka insane -.-]

i've got troubled thoughts and a self esteem to match.

2009-11-06T21:23:00.006+08:00

#178; now here we are and i'm suddenly standing at the beginning with you.

1-2Lystra;

i've always been told that the friends you make in high school/secondary school are those that you'd carry throughout your life.

being the first 26 crazy people to be my friends, i'll be sure i'll never forget you. [yup be happy you're going to be haunting me for the next years of my life xD]

all the happy times we shared, all the crazy times, and even all the sad and angry times, they'll never be gone from my mind.

being a part of Lystra was a hell load of fun, and i never ever regretted being in a class with you people(:

i remember my first batch of friends, i remember rongying's million dollar star, i remember chashaobao, i remember the shuttle bus to tampines, i remember eating in the air-con classroom and having the teachers complain of the smell, i remember all those crazy high recesses we had, and the family tree we drew ourselves, i remember the very first clique that i was ever part of, i remember orienation, level camp, and everything else, i remember "quarelling" with vivian, i remember the original cookie seller, i remember everything because its really important to me. all of it.

and yet, as 2009 finishes, i know i've left loose ends untied.

i've fought through this half a year bearing the brunt of my own stupid actions. and i've had to deal with myself for not doing anything about it, for not trying to regain what i had lost. who i had lost.

maybe its too late now, because i was never really strong enough.

it hurt, when i thought of this day, and the fact that i wont be able to hug you goodbye, after all the memories we shared.

it was cos of my own stupidity that it turned out that way.

and it's cos of me that i had to fight myself with thoughts like: "you're being extra, you're butting in. you're not part of them anymore. it was your choice."

it was like i was slashed in half.

but its my fault. maybe i'll see you again next year, but it hurt that i ended this year like this.

i'm so stupid.

we're all going to have to move on, and this day, these goodbyes, can't be put off forever(:
its only now that most people [okay maybe me but i'm really slow so -.-] realize the significance of our level song.

it really feels as if i'm standing at the beginning with you.

but we have to be happy(:

and there's still class chalet. its not like we're separated forever, we're still one level, and there are still CCAs and 2L09 outings :D

WE ARE SO AWESOME.

2009-11-04T20:21:00.004+08:00

# 177;

WhatTheHellAreYouSaying Wednesday!

we watched miracles today T.T
it was quite boring -.-
rongying was the sole highlight of the movie, with her weird sound effects, gay comments, her constant grabbing of my hand and gayness, and the whispers of "OMG ZAC EFRON'S GOING TO COME OUT!" "U-S-A! U-Zac-E[dward]! SIN-GA-PORE!"

then there was a performance by EDS which was considerably more interesting than the movie.

the TA guys are very zzz.
poor chingying, run back and forth then find out that she return tablet tmr.
we should bring them to america and sue them -.-
shittt i want her candy so bad T.T]

working on a speical classsurprise for friday with rongying.
its very spastic T.T

is it too far-fetched to want you to talk to me?

is it too desperate if i stop breathing every time you turn around and look in my direction?
for the millionth time, i need help T.T
i can't try and handle this on my own anymore. i'll break down soon enough.

i'm relaxing for awhile this week >< [i suddenly feel guilty. should i go tmr?] cos i finished indoor :/ i'm debating whether i should stay back for sp tmr. hmm. maybe i should, but nobody's going with me T.T now my uncle's coming once a week for like an hour to help with my guitarplaying(: ilovehimforit. maybe he'll learn canonrock then teach me. haha i officially have a newyears resolution. shit. inline skating tmr. damnit. i know how to rollerblade. but i forgot -.- i'm going to die and embarrass myself. yaytmr'sgonnabeahappyday(:

2009-11-03T16:54:00.006+08:00

# 176;

drama performance at PAC today-.-
the first one was basically the story of my life.
the second one was damn confusing.
i'm going to go borrow the book from tampines library =.=

lol i love my cousin for introducing me to jamlegend[canonrockkk<3 i'm going to play this on the electric guitar someday xD]. damn cool(:
99% + highscore on skilled level, been playing ever since EOYs finished. everyday. :D

damn fun -.-
piratesofthecarribean(rocktheme) is a really cool song too.
i can barely scrape through on skilled and almost died when i clicked "legendary"

sigh. (nolifeah)
tmr is movie.
the year1s get to go AMKhub and watch coraline wtf D:
the sch booked the whole theatre.
went home with joycelyn ytd and she told me -.-

yeah returning tablet tmr.
cleared all the files and browsing history ._.

and there's only 3 days left.
3 days with lystra. the first place where i felt i really belonged somewhere in dunman high -.-
i'll never forget you guys, even if you hate me xD

and then there's year3.
damn scared.

tell me why you talk me down where ever you go;
you're a saint, you're a king, and i'm just another girl without a crown.

2009-11-02T20:58:00.005+08:00

# 175;
MyHandIsPain Monday(:
~~my heart pain la T.T~~

today was math trail.
it was quite fun i guess -.-
got picked on at the quadratic graph station, as usual. all the teachers seem to know that i suck at math la.

indoortest(:
quite satisfied with all my hard work, seems to have paid off, he seemed quite happy with me.

everybody is dao-ing me today.
the day started off like shit when i couldn't find a damn group.
then after that i got dao-ed multiple times.
its a damn sucky feeling T.T
and weiting didn't come today so basically band was living hell.
so overall, i had a wonderful day!

There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone

2009-10-31T22:51:00.002+08:00

# 174;
happy halloween(:
went pretty boring for me though -.-
there's no trickortreating here, but i still got my fairshare of candy (stolen from my aunt's kitchen)

today was the espesyal pinoy planner launch.
i'm definitely using it next year for homework and stuff.
i mean, i'm in "june" lol.

my sister, day and i had lots of fun getting high after cupcakes -.-
there was even the horny incident where coke was misheard as "cock", which was followed by three crazypeople rolling on the floor.
the halloween party's been rescheduled to monday, so the goodnews is that i dont have to perform -.-

but the bad news is that indoor's on monday.
i need to mug scales.
damn, after eoys chances for mugging still pop up.

thunderstorms all through the week, according to "the weather on my mom's iPhone" -.-
yeah.
wordgraphics.tumblr.com is an awesome site(:

I remember every look upon your face, the way you roll your eyes, the way you taste , you make it hard for breathing.
'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away, I think of you and everythings okay , and finally now, believing.

2009-10-30T21:31:00.005+08:00

#173;

FreakyFreakyFriday(:

was bypassed for indoor today T.T
took weiting's file home to practice.
talked about subject combo again after i went back up.
-.-

interclass truthordare today T.T
"hello, so how is your dick?"
=.=

i'm very confused now D:
and something happened last night between my parents, but i don't know what.
all i know is when i walked into the room it scared me like hell.

i need help with my life.

"HELLO MY NAMES IS RIS LOW AND I WANT YOUR CREDIT CARD."
Happy Halloween(:
BOOMZ.

'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing

2009-10-28T19:05:00.006+08:00

# 172; no matter how loud i call your name, you'll never turn back.

today's field trip was damn sian.
and epicfail.
when we reached the subordinate courts the ppl didn't let us in T.T and then in the end we only went to the supreme court. it was all for nothing -.-

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HORNY FELICIA.
yay hope you liked the blur-just-like-you cake(:
yeah happy fourteenth(:

yuppp.
my grades suck, and i want that biology history lit combo.
and i'm going to drop thirdlang, so i won't have any more distractions so that i'll be more focused on my main academics.
i won't even hit a 3.2GPA anyway.

SP-ed today.
memorized wholetone scales, and tried out a few 1.5 octave scales.
then weiting and yanting decided to wuliao abit and play first suite eflat.
i'm going to fail indoor.

i'm extremely confused. extremely frustrated. extremely hopeless.
i'd ask for help, but i don't know how -.-

whatthehell. i waited twohours.
sometimes i wish i could go back 4 years.
you were so much more you then.
someone tell me what to do.
i suck at this. i suck at everything.

i can't breathe thinking of your smile.

2009-10-27T21:22:00.002+08:00

# 171; he's been running through my dreams, and it's driving me crazy, it seems.

not caring about results anymore(:
taking what i get, and yeah that's it.

i feel accomplished. i can strum without my fingers bleeding -.-
yesterday the index started bleeding and i freaked out.
at least i have i can play my destresser again :D

today i went out to the airport with my dad(:
he flew off.

tomorrow is cmefieldtrip T.T
i'm with 2H lol.
why do 2K and 2L have to be split in such a strange way -.-
cant we just be combined together and be happy -.-

(horny)fel's birthday tomorrow!(:
i didn't buy a present, but i'm getting her that customary cake.
maybe i'll make a card and cover it in horns -.-
horny felicia.
greet you tomorrow, its a bit extra if i greet you today(:

my lungs gave out as i faced the crowd, i think that keeping this up could be dangerous.

2009-10-26T22:36:00.003+08:00

# 170; i can't breathe thinking of your smile

everything around me came crashing down in that one moment.
when i got back that 41/110.
everything that he's been saying finally made itself known.
now instead of going to hongkong for christmas, i'm staying at home while my parents go on a holiday.
instead of the smiles when the results are revealed, their disappointed frowns.
instead of an electric guitar, a crushed dream.
did you ever think that your methods of motivation could cause extra stress?

anyway, band today wasn't as bad as usual.
i miss the trombone.
but there's indoor on friday.
i'm going to need to memorize a bunch of scales.
but i'll try hard(:
when all else fails, excel at something else.

i've just figured out why guitarists have long nails.
i just cut them, and now i cant strum.
and i dont have a pick.
the strumming sounds horribly soft and muffled D:
you need nails for that!
i'm plucking for now =.=

'cause i know this flame isn't dying, so nothing can stop me from trying
baby you know that maybe it's time for miracles.

2009-10-25T22:26:00.003+08:00

# 169; uncertain.

tomorrow is going to be a bad day.
i can feel it.
giving back HCL paper tomorrow, which i will probably fail.
and then have that electric guitar slip through my fingers T.T
even though i studied for the other subjects so damn hard.
i'm going to lose everything through chinese -.-

band resumes tomorrow too :/
i haven't touched my trombone for like, 2 months.
and with the braces and everything, that will probably kill me.
i'm really scared.

tomorrow's not really clear anyway.
but that far-fetched dream of zhenglaoshi proudly announcing that i had the most improvement and handing me back my paper with a smile on her face... yeah that's still in my head.
even though it might not even happen.
maybe the opposite will happen.
and i'll fail math too.
skipped so many damn questions.

i think i'll just brace myself for that lousy subject combo i'll be put in next year.
and everybody in 2L will go off to like, triple sciences and stuff and i'll be left behind.
its always been that way.
i got lowest PSLE score for GEP batch of '07.
and then i'll drag everyone's average down this year again too.
if i had studied for everything as i did for the EOYs, i'd be a really good student.
but its always like that with me.
by the time i realize, its too late to do anything to fix it.

good luck to the guy's soccer team tomorrow(: get that 3rd place yeah.

watch you take the fall, laughing all the way to the hospital, there's nothing surgery can do.

2009-10-24T21:42:00.003+08:00

#168; i wish i was a rockstar.

you're really confusing, you know that? T.T
you literally drive me crazy.
but for some crazy reason, i can't get enough of it.

i've just been given the very troublesome job of performing at kids cove's halloween party next saturday.
as a surprise for the guests. gotta lug my guitar all the way there.
and i don't even know how to sing wtf.
i'm going to embarrass myself.
i finally get to perform as a musician -.-
and i'm scared.

my birthday's in less than 2 months(:
although i don't know why i'm excited now.
yeah. i don't have a wishlist, because i'm not that kind of person.
you'll have to ask me in your own weird and stealthy way -.-

forgive me i'm trying to find my calling, i'm calling at night.

2009-10-23T20:54:00.005+08:00

# 167; my first love.

i think i'm the only one with no life.
that's why i'm the only one back to a daily posting basis, and the only one reading other people's blogs -.-

okay actually it hasn't been that bad.
i've jamlegend.com to entertain me, and ofcos youtube, and the guitar.
i'm not allowed to watch tv 'cause my sister has exams in 3 days, which is when i'll be killed by my horrible results.

and then today i woke up with no voice and so was not allowed to go to sch by my mom.
where i would most probably cheer until i have no voice.
so i couldn't talk to my dad when he came home and had to resort to like, sign language or something.
epicfail sign language. so i wrote on a piece of paper =.=
its the first time i've ever lost my voice in years so apparently i suck at dealing with it.

Lystra lost today at interclass, but they put up a brave fight yeah :D
don't lose heart, you did your best, and you're still the best in my opinion.
(my opinion is horribly biased =.=)

life is always hard for the belle of the boulevard.

2009-10-22T18:25:00.003+08:00

#166; i think.

i was wiki-ing believers never die just now T.T
and then there was something about fall out boy being on an indefinite hiatus D:
i'll miss fall out boy, and their songs which i love so much. [until they break hiatus and drop another awesome album -.-]
definitely going out and buying believers never die(:
falloutboy FTWWWW.

Interclass today(:
2Lystra played B and G for volleyball.
Lost by 7 to 2B, and won by over 10 with 2G.
Our team is quite pro. Fel SXY spike like crazypeople o.o
I sit in the corner watch -.-
Cabbed to KLP with a bunch of crazy people and had lunch at the hawkercentre xD
Played truth or dare, which eventually became just truth cos all the dares are too easy, and everything involves kissing inanimate objects =.=
Took 12 home with rebecca and sxinyi.
Fell asleep cos I was tired cos i slept at 12plus the night before and probably today.

And then the rest of the day was boring because I fell asleep and I didn't manage to find my guitar (which was stuffed in an awkward position under my bed) until just now -.-

YAY.

Pinoy ako(:

2009-10-21T14:20:00.005+08:00

IT'S DONE.

The only time i'm using large bold font on a day other than a birthday or christmas.
Heck, this is just like christmas.
It's like Santa Claus just dropped by o.o

After weeks of mugging.
We're finally free.
Weightless.

(Ronza docked today(: And I just had two Burglar misses -.- I'm saving up for the Kraken and the Giant Speaker?)

Tmr is interclass.
Going to support :D

I want that UBERCHEAP Fender Strat/Les Paul.
And then I have to practice that song my dad wants me to sing/play for him in order for me to get the strat/lespaul -.-
GUITAR SPAM :D
I'm going to fill my repertoire up to the brim with billions of pro rock songs(:
And acoustic songs because chords absolutely rock, and each takes like only 5 minutes to learn but almost half an hour to memorize -.-
Maybe I'll take up fingerstyle too.

Recently got Nothing Personal to listen to while I slack. It rocks :D

Oh yeah. By request from Iris:
eep.

Maybe it's not my weekend, but it's gonna be my year. I'm so sick of watching while the minutes pass as I go nowhere. This is my reaction, to everything I fear. And I've been going crazy I don't wanna waste another minute here.

2009-10-05T21:40:00.002+08:00

# 164; run baby run, don't ever look back.

Countdown to FREEDOM.
and also when i am free to post and slack again.
muggermode sucks.
it sucks.
like everything else thats happening to me now. =.=

mug like you're dying.

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2009-09-26T20:34:00.002+08:00

# 163;

i solemnly vow to not blog again after this weekend up until exams are officially pronounced over.

somehow this is better to say than: "hello world! i am going on hiatus!"
hiatus is a funny word =.=
and the above sounds really gay.

if i blog any longer i'll be crushed and ruined by the exams which will kill me with an epic failgrade.
i need to mug for jap EOY, and then yeah.
mugging history for cass because she wants me to work on her hist question.
i am going to fail. every single EOY.
except history.
and maybe LA.
yeah heck la.

i bought new pro-arte d'addario strings from yamaha after my mom's suggested visit to the doctor.
[EJ47 Normal Tension; 80/20 Bronze Wound and Clear Nylon(: ]

got a fever last night that arrived with no other symptoms other than a headache =.=
the stress is sabotaging me.
we also bought a bunch of comfort food including candy and toblerone.

yeah i think i need to stop with facebook too.
i'll just let my mom play bejeweled on my account to her heart's content -.-

exams are unnecessary and paper-wasting. they also damage your stresslevel and health.

i look so good, without you.

2009-09-25T20:46:00.002+08:00

# 162;

jap oral was okay i guess.
except i screwed up my conversation?

me: oh i think malaysia is quite big and pretty.
teacher: okay so which do you like better? malaysia or singapore?
me: singapore.
teacher: why?
me: because... because.. i live here.

-.- screwed up damn.

this weekend is F1 weekend and everywhere will be extremely crowded.
but i'll have to spend it inside my house studying the whole day.
dont even think i got time to watch it on TV.
i think my math test was quite screwed so i'll do math tmr.
and chinese.
i'll have to... read.
sigh i hate reading chinese stuff. i always read like 5 words and stop to check the dict.

i need a new mp3 player.
the road is super boring without music.

i am quite happy today for a reason i cannot publicly reveal for fear of public humiliation.
shit i sound so freaking cheem today =.=
yeah i am happy.
and motivated to mugmugmug.
because what i was so afraid of turned out really stupid.

i'd like to make myself believe.

2009-09-24T21:44:00.003+08:00

# 161; you can't play on broken strings

my A string broke yet again.
i think capos are quite stupid.
especially when the guitar is on your lap while you are attempting to juggle between tabs while learning songs and you just happen to be leaning on the A string.
i'll need to buy a whole new set of strings. according to my dad, strings dont come individually.
eh is this supposed to be karma that it broke on the night i broke my record and learned like 4 songs in less than 1 hour. =.=
but yeah, as effectively quoted from james morrison: "you can't play on broken strings".

math test was screwed up.
okay, yeah, not so much for me as for other people, i know that.
i forgot the unit for the rhombus question, and i think i should have answered that correctly. i love trigo(:
but i skipped a few questions and i screwed up the graph-ish one. mygosh.

went home with rebecca, chingying and l.xinyi on 12. singledecker.
i suspect rongying is the reason for our misfortune today. -.-
she had a date with patrick (and iris and her computing group?)

sigh. i'll find a way to repair my string. before my dad comes back from overseas and busts me.
does anyone have a spare for a despo person who is afraid of her dad T.T damn.
badluck seems to love me, doesn't it.

jap oral countdown: tomorrow.
i've got my speech memorized, so it shouldn't be a problem. i'll just need to, uh, improve my speech.
jiayou(: wish i could be released early tmr. but i dont want my oral to be early.

holding on tightly, just can't let it go.
just trying to play my role, to slowly disappear.

2009-09-23T18:47:00.002+08:00

# 160;

its so freaking hard to chase after something that just might hate you so much its impossible.
at least someone's finally there to remind me i'm still somebody.

math ct tmr.
i suck at math.
revising tonight as a last-ditch effort.
i'm gonna screw it, as usual.
like i screwed today's acc.
and yesterday's roleplay.

confusion;
did you really have to do that, when i'm so confused about it?
hell, its not even worth my concern, anyway.
you're you. can't change that.
might as well not give a damn.

i'm going to mug as hard as i've ever mugged ever these next few days, leading up to EOYs.
i need to make sure i do well.
or at least better than the screwup that was last sem.
-.-
i need someone to help me mug.

jap oral is 2 days away.
i've practically memorized my speech.
going over it again tonight, and then going over all the basic grammar stuff.
dont want to sound like an idiot xD
and i want that 9.5 back.

watching HSM3 again cos trysh felt like it and she didnt wanna study.
so i'm sortof multitasking now?
chiong ah.

oh btw i think ronza is coming xD
better start saving if i want to buy the nice stuff.
or even be able to access the area she'll be in?
lol ronza.

so what if it hurts me, so what if i break down?
so what if the world just throws me off the edge, my feet run out of ground
i gotta find my place, i wanna hear myself
don't care about all the pain in front of me,
'cause i'm just trying to be happy.

2009-09-20T20:11:00.005+08:00

# 159; six feet under the stars

HAPPY 20/09/2009 =.=

less noticeable than 090909 but alot of ppl still getting married today.

[9:30PM news -.-]

the wizarding world of harry potter; universal studios orlando

it looks so freaking cool.
i wish i could go to the US.

this past day was spent renewing my laptop.
installed IE8 and MSNPlusLive and then got melvin to teach me how to use it =.=
it was disastrous.
we had a spam-nudge war after he taught me the "/send nudge <100>" script which i downloaded which gave me a headache.
i also dug my old mp3 played out of the bottom of my drawer and added a bunch of new songs.

tmr's a holiday.
i'm waking up at 7am to jog and then i'll study the whole day.
cannot waste time.
the earliest exam is this friday. jap oral.
have to memorize my speech and learn all my grammar properly.
hope i can get 9.5/10 like last year. oral's always been my best component in jap.
and listening. yeah. grammar and vocab can go die.
need to revise chinese if i want that electric guitar from my dad.

i should have known better than to call you out, if not for you, i'd tear this place to the ground; i'm gonna roll the dice before you sober up and get gone.

2009-09-19T18:51:00.003+08:00

# 158; mid-autumn + cathecism retreat!

this year's midautumn was fun(:
even though i didn't perform, we still did CIP and class bonding.
and earned a total of 150plus bucks.

we're imba.

bought popcorn and cool keychains.

but missed the band performance.

ohwell. it was classbonding. and CIP hours? =.=

our lantern was really cool. but i hate it cos it blocked my face in class photo.

is this some kind of screwed delusion to ensure that all the band ppl are not seen in the photo =.=

lol the pictures: our lantern!(:

[side note: me and iris were actually working on a lame side-project (aka tearing up crepe paper) but in the end it was put to some use. iris was in awe.]

2Lystra minus band people!

i hate our lantern.

it blocked my face on both class photos la damn.

MrsKoh and JingPei epicfailing.

lystra+lisbon =.=

okay yeah this picture is just stupid.

credits to rongying(:
i copied these off the class blog haha.

cathecism retreat was this morning up until five.
i overslept -.-
the retreat was fun and boring at some parts.
the games were damn retarded lol.
will post up our epicfail tree another time.
(some idiot decided to start up a drama at some part though. went to go anger our cathecist. call him guailan somemore. i think he has nobrains. =.=)
the whole thing was quite spritually enriching.
i love being catholic(:

still on the fence about exam mass.
my parents would rather not me miss sunday's mass to go for this one.

long weekend. there's healing mass on monday.
we're supposed to volunteer.
should i?

today and yesterday was quite happy.
the happiest i've been in a long time(:

okay until this happened:
"I returned to check my trap, but it appeared a Mobster mouse worth a prize (25 pieces of SUPERbrie+) had eaten a piece of cheese without setting it off."
T.T so i guess this statement has good news and bad news?

above all powers, above all kings
above all nature and all created things
above all wisdom and all the ways of man
you were here before the world began

above all kingdoms, above all thrones
above all wonders the world has ever known
above all wealth and treasures of the earth
there's no way to measure what you're worth

crucified, laid behind the stone
you lived to die, rejected and alone
like a rose, trampled on the ground
you took the fall, and thought of me
above all

GOD IS GOOD(:

2009-09-16T19:27:00.001+08:00

# 157;

GAHHHH.
damn it i have NO FREEDOM.
he scolds me on "choosing by yourself to stay back", and i "cannot do anything unless I TELL YOU."
ITS SCHOOL.
where would i go? some bar to watch porn? zzz.
then why dont we just buy some condo next to the school?
WTF.
he doesn't trust me, and he expects me to respect him.
its damn hard.
i cannot even use the internet without his permission la.
like: "ohnoes! it will lag my computer gameeee! D:"
WTFFFF.

sighhhhhhhh.

i am very angry today.
if i had like 10% more freedom, i'd be damn happy.
its like i'm a little kid.
am i that untrustworthy?

when is band phototaking. =.=
do we even have phototaking.
i wish i could perform this friday.

WHY IS MY LIFE SO FRIKING HARD.
you dont know me at all.

maybe someday we can figure all this out, try to put an end to all our doubt, try to find a way to make things better now; and maybe someday we'll live our lives out loud, we'll be better off somehow; SOMEDAY.

2009-09-14T21:02:00.000+08:00

# 156;

i'm practically invisible.
i can leave school for a week and nobody would give a damn about what happened to me.
i could migrate to another country and life in school would be exactly the same.
even in "the happiest part of school life" [for me, anyway], i'm invisible.
nobody gives a damn about me.
except a few people. like, 2, 3?
i'm not even important to anyone damn it.
its making me feel like some insignificant floor board.
[hell, you can tell from how many people read this blog and actually care enough to tag =.=]

i need a distraction.
someone else that will stop me from chasing after someone who's practically impossible, someone who doesn't even talk to me.
its unhealthy.

we had performance today and quite a few people thought it was failed.
interaction was ...
we wrote our names with our butts.
luckily it was only the first name.
or else i would die.
"L...A...U...R...A...Y...S...E...T...T...A...M...E...N...D...O...Z...A...R...A...Q...U...E...P...O..."
everyone would like, go buy a drink while i'm doing it.
took bus 29 home with joycelyn.
discovered that alot of trombones live in tampines wtf.
like, everyone except a few?
and pamela lives across the road from me.
joycelyn is one bus stop before.
we talked about stuff.
i'm such a nice senior. make friends with my juniors. treat them like my friends.
i'm imba.

the memories are too painful.
you cant imagine how many nights i've been awake staring at the ceiling =.=

Here's a song for the nights
I think too much

2009-09-12T22:01:00.007+08:00

# 155;
last night i dreamed of guitars.

D: I MISSED CHUNKFEST DAMNIT.
free ice cream can never be a bad thing. and its always a good thing.
its' ben and jerry's T.T
[wait. there was free ice cream, right?]

school on monday.
OH JOY.
mixed feelings again.

i am now very, very emo cos this stupid app on facebook told me i'm a noob.

Me: Am I a noob?
Fortune Teller Genius: What a good question! Of course!

FML lor.
it has to be screwed up in some way right? D:

i'm still looking for that little ray of sunshine to break through the clouds.
and then maybe it'll grow bigger.

look at the stars, look how they shine for you.
and everything you do.
yeah they were all yellow.

2009-09-11T08:53:00.002+08:00

# 154;

hello.
i just realized its 9/11.

had quite an interesting day yesterday.
went to ion, citylink, kovan[aunt's house], tampines one.
my mom insisted on taking countless photos at ion cos she said the outside looked cool.

rongying fel chitty and zhimin were just over for mov roleplay.
my dad was pissed at them for being 2h late.
but then i told them to say hi and bye to him [cos he likes it] then he not pissed anymore.
cos i am smart.
we just made posters.
and rehearsed.

i didn't even feel like these were holidays.
and now they're over.
time flies.
oh, and holidays don't exist. just like unicorns and leprechauns and an innocent, virgin, straight rongying.

going to watch spiderman3. see if it follows the story of our psp game =.=
[it prob does lor]

i seriously need to get a life.
and i'm hungry.
i got selected to go for hssrp. quite happy.
i thought mrschin will not let me in cos i'm "not really motivated, and quite irresponsible", but in the end i'm still going.
humanites and LA are the only thing i can hang on to.
mathsciencechinese can go die alr.
hope eoys go well.
really studied alot this week.

What's the use in trying.
All you get is pain.
When I wanted sunshine, I got rain.

2009-09-09T13:25:00.005+08:00

# 153;

(nine the movie -.-)

HAPPY 9/9/09 :D

[i never knew this was a special date until someone sms-ed me saying: HAPPY 999! MAY YOU BE HAPPY AND LUCKY FOREVER. same to you, dudes who read and don't tag =.=]

sugar rushhhh.

we have performance on monday.
with scary unexpected commentary.
first movement of 1st suite only. -.-
i'm very inferior, so i'm only playing one song.
all those ASLs and teachers day ppl play at least 2. T.T
yanting will play all three[four?] haha jiayou.
i love first suite =.= i dont know why. [i'm listening to it now; taken off youtube]
they cut off march so sad. our lead line is there T.T

so far i've spent my day making study mindmaps, listening to classical music [O:]
and stuffing myself with yupi mini-burgers.
isn't my life just fun.

eoys are coming.
i'm going to stay up late, [ytd i stayed up late for the wrong reason; movie marathon wolverine and 27dresses dvds -.-] wake up early, and stuff myself with knowledge =.=
at least get over 3 -.-
and if possible, [i dont know about this] get a 3.6?
i'll work really hard.
practiced gonghan just now. its tested isnt it.
i'm going to learn some good zuowen phrases and read books cos my grammar sucks.
must be focused.
must be determined.
must stuff self with chocolate, sugar and classical music[?!]

happy boom boom :D

2009-09-07T23:09:00.002+08:00

# 152;

band today was tiring i guess.
it was fun.
and i played until my left hand purple.
but it was fun(:
hope performance goes well.

after band went to chitty's house with lagroup.
super spastic.
sang stupid songs while rongying raided my iTunes.
and took spastic photos.
zhimin taught me how to play canon in d hahaha. irock.
and now i know like, 2 proper songs on the piano. =.=
we came up with lotsof spastic stuff for the play.
and quaaaaack. =.=
and twister lol. twister was supersick. like: move here, move there, take photo of disturbing pose. -.- if one of them posts a facebook album i'm coming after them.
the ride home was disastrous.
bus so squeezy.
dropped handphone and it broke into (three) pieces; battery, battery cover, phone without battery.
put it back in the end.
makes no diff.
=.=

sighhh.
tmr is band again.
i better sleep early.
nothing like band to distract you from the suckishness of life.

straight through my heart, a single bullet got me.
i can't stop the bleeding.