Yo.
Today was really suckish.
I think this week is starting out really badly.
Got reminded again, during band, of my utter suckishness.I know its supposed to have a lesser effect than what mr ng says. But somehow it has a greater effect.
Like, try having someone who constantly criticizes you to criticize you.
And compare it to your good friend criticizing you.
they were like, "you cant just say i'm coming, i'm coming anyhow. we waited until 5 or 6 and nobody turned up." and i felt like crying. because i was the one who did that. i skipped band just to slack.
It just makes you feel like you're a freakin horrible person. Like you really suck.
So, now, I have to find some freakin way to organize my freakin time and do well in my studies and in band. my time management has always sucked.

Though my situation cant compare to cass's just now. She just emo-ed her heart out to me on msn. Its really sad. Even though she's okay now, what she told me really made me think.
We eventually have to face the fact that one day, people change. One day, we can come to school and they are completely different. It makes us remember what they were like before.
It makes us miss them, in some way.
Like when we have good friends who used to support us, and help us.
And now, they abandon us, they leave us alone. And they avoid the problem issues when we ask them. They ignore us completely.
We just have to remember, that good friends see past our weak points, and they never ever abandon us. So if they did, they're not good friends at all. And if they dont even treat us like friends, feel welcome to treat them the same way.
Thats how we tell if you chose the right friends or not.
Wow. that was vaguely philosophical. -thumbsup-

I just found out Seng Joe has facebook. his name is Watt. xD
isaac bursted his specs today. he couldnt see during band. i was amazed he didnt trip over the stairs. but still, that didnt stop him from singing "my humps". while beatboxing. -.-
i saw my juniors. isaac and weiting were right about them. haha.
i think i did well during sp. i could finally follow. except for some rhythm problems.
it was okay, aside from the part that made me feel horrible.
I think i should go do other stuff now.
And try to reflect.
It helps you learn.
Oh. We're going to Towner Gardens School for CIP, a special school, like kids cove, the school my aunt manages. so reflection's gonna be easy. cos i have experience with autistic, down syndrome kids. who are below 5. xD they're like normal little kids. except they're a bit slower.
yay.

What does it take to show you, that's its not the life it seems.

Yo.
Today was really suckish.
I think this week is starting out really badly.
Got reminded again, during band, of my utter suckishness.I know its supposed to have a lesser effect than what mr ng says. But somehow it has a greater effect.
Like, try having someone who constantly criticizes you to criticize you.
And compare it to your good friend criticizing you.
they were like, "you cant just say i'm coming, i'm coming anyhow. we waited until 5 or 6 and nobody turned up." and i felt like crying. because i was the one who did that. i skipped band just to slack.
It just makes you feel like you're a freakin horrible person. Like you really suck.
So, now, I have to find some freakin way to organize my freakin time and do well in my studies and in band. my time management has always sucked.

Though my situation cant compare to cass's just now. She just emo-ed her heart out to me on msn. Its really sad. Even though she's okay now, what she told me really made me think.
We eventually have to face the fact that one day, people change. One day, we can come to school and they are completely different. It makes us remember what they were like before.
It makes us miss them, in some way.
Like when we have good friends who used to support us, and help us.
And now, they abandon us, they leave us alone. And they avoid the problem issues when we ask them. They ignore us completely.
We just have to remember, that good friends see past our weak points, and they never ever abandon us. So if they did, they're not good friends at all. And if they dont even treat us like friends, feel welcome to treat them the same way.
Thats how we tell if you chose the right friends or not.
Wow. that was vaguely philosophical. -thumbsup-

I just found out Seng Joe has facebook. his name is Watt. xD
isaac bursted his specs today. he couldnt see during band. i was amazed he didnt trip over the stairs. but still, that didnt stop him from singing "my humps". while beatboxing. -.-
i saw my juniors. isaac and weiting were right about them. haha.
i think i did well during sp. i could finally follow. except for some rhythm problems.
it was okay, aside from the part that made me feel horrible.
I think i should go do other stuff now.
And try to reflect.
It helps you learn.
Oh. We're going to Towner Gardens School for CIP, a special school, like kids cove, the school my aunt manages. so reflection's gonna be easy. cos i have experience with autistic, down syndrome kids. who are below 5. xD they're like normal little kids. except they're a bit slower.
yay.

What does it take to show you, that's its not the life it seems.