# 174;
happy halloween(:
went pretty boring for me though -.-
there's no trickortreating here, but i still got my fairshare of candy (stolen from my aunt's kitchen)

today was the espesyal pinoy planner launch.
i'm definitely using it next year for homework and stuff.
i mean, i'm in "june" lol.

my sister, day and i had lots of fun getting high after cupcakes -.-
there was even the horny incident where coke was misheard as "cock", which was followed by three crazypeople rolling on the floor.
the halloween party's been rescheduled to monday, so the goodnews is that i dont have to perform -.-

but the bad news is that indoor's on monday.
i need to mug scales.
damn, after eoys chances for mugging still pop up.

thunderstorms all through the week, according to "the weather on my mom's iPhone" -.-
yeah.
wordgraphics.tumblr.com is an awesome site(:

I remember every look upon your face, the way you roll your eyes, the way you taste , you make it hard for breathing.
'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away, I think of you and everythings okay , and finally now, believing.

#173;

FreakyFreakyFriday(:

was bypassed for indoor today T.T
took weiting's file home to practice.
talked about subject combo again after i went back up.
-.-

interclass truthordare today T.T
"hello, so how is your dick?"
=.=

i'm very confused now D:
and something happened last night between my parents, but i don't know what.
all i know is when i walked into the room it scared me like hell.

i need help with my life.




"HELLO MY NAMES IS RIS LOW AND I WANT YOUR CREDIT CARD."
Happy Halloween(:
BOOMZ.

'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing

# 172; no matter how loud i call your name, you'll never turn back.

today's field trip was damn sian.
and epicfail.
when we reached the subordinate courts the ppl didn't let us in T.T and then in the end we only went to the supreme court. it was all for nothing -.-

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HORNY FELICIA.
yay hope you liked the blur-just-like-you cake(:
yeah happy fourteenth(:

yuppp.
my grades suck, and i want that biology history lit combo.
and i'm going to drop thirdlang, so i won't have any more distractions so that i'll be more focused on my main academics.
i won't even hit a 3.2GPA anyway.

SP-ed today.
memorized wholetone scales, and tried out a few 1.5 octave scales.
then weiting and yanting decided to wuliao abit and play first suite eflat.
i'm going to fail indoor.

i'm extremely confused. extremely frustrated. extremely hopeless.
i'd ask for help, but i don't know how -.-

whatthehell. i waited twohours.
sometimes i wish i could go back 4 years.
you were so much more you then.
someone tell me what to do.
i suck at this. i suck at everything.

i can't breathe thinking of your smile.

# 171; he's been running through my dreams, and it's driving me crazy, it seems.

not caring about results anymore(:
taking what i get, and yeah that's it.

i feel accomplished. i can strum without my fingers bleeding -.-
yesterday the index started bleeding and i freaked out.
at least i have i can play my destresser again :D

today i went out to the airport with my dad(:
he flew off.

tomorrow is cmefieldtrip T.T
i'm with 2H lol.
why do 2K and 2L have to be split in such a strange way -.-
cant we just be combined together and be happy -.-

(horny)fel's birthday tomorrow!(:
i didn't buy a present, but i'm getting her that customary cake.
maybe i'll make a card and cover it in horns -.-
horny felicia.
greet you tomorrow, its a bit extra if i greet you today(:

my lungs gave out as i faced the crowd, i think that keeping this up could be dangerous.

# 170; i can't breathe thinking of your smile


everything around me came crashing down in that one moment.
when i got back that 41/110.
everything that he's been saying finally made itself known.
now instead of going to hongkong for christmas, i'm staying at home while my parents go on a holiday.
instead of the smiles when the results are revealed, their disappointed frowns.
instead of an electric guitar, a crushed dream.
did you ever think that your methods of motivation could cause extra stress?

anyway, band today wasn't as bad as usual.
i miss the trombone.
but there's indoor on friday.
i'm going to need to memorize a bunch of scales.
but i'll try hard(:
when all else fails, excel at something else.

i've just figured out why guitarists have long nails.
i just cut them, and now i cant strum.
and i dont have a pick.
the strumming sounds horribly soft and muffled D:
you need nails for that!
i'm plucking for now =.=

'cause i know this flame isn't dying, so nothing can stop me from trying
baby you know that maybe it's time for miracles.

# 169; uncertain.



tomorrow is going to be a bad day.
i can feel it.
giving back HCL paper tomorrow, which i will probably fail.
and then have that electric guitar slip through my fingers T.T
even though i studied for the other subjects so damn hard.
i'm going to lose everything through chinese -.-

band resumes tomorrow too :/
i haven't touched my trombone for like, 2 months.
and with the braces and everything, that will probably kill me.
i'm really scared.

tomorrow's not really clear anyway.
but that far-fetched dream of zhenglaoshi proudly announcing that i had the most improvement and handing me back my paper with a smile on her face... yeah that's still in my head.
even though it might not even happen.
maybe the opposite will happen.
and i'll fail math too.
skipped so many damn questions.

i think i'll just brace myself for that lousy subject combo i'll be put in next year.
and everybody in 2L will go off to like, triple sciences and stuff and i'll be left behind.
its always been that way.
i got lowest PSLE score for GEP batch of '07.
and then i'll drag everyone's average down this year again too.
if i had studied for everything as i did for the EOYs, i'd be a really good student.
but its always like that with me.
by the time i realize, its too late to do anything to fix it.

good luck to the guy's soccer team tomorrow(: get that 3rd place yeah.

watch you take the fall, laughing all the way to the hospital, there's nothing surgery can do.

#168; i wish i was a rockstar.



you're really confusing, you know that? T.T
you literally drive me crazy.
but for some crazy reason, i can't get enough of it.

i've just been given the very troublesome job of performing at kids cove's halloween party next saturday.
as a surprise for the guests. gotta lug my guitar all the way there.
and i don't even know how to sing wtf.
i'm going to embarrass myself.
i finally get to perform as a musician -.-
and i'm scared.

my birthday's in less than 2 months(:
although i don't know why i'm excited now.
yeah. i don't have a wishlist, because i'm not that kind of person.
you'll have to ask me in your own weird and stealthy way -.-

forgive me i'm trying to find my calling, i'm calling at night.

# 167; my first love.



i think i'm the only one with no life.
that's why i'm the only one back to a daily posting basis, and the only one reading other people's blogs -.-


okay actually it hasn't been that bad.
i've jamlegend.com to entertain me, and ofcos youtube, and the guitar.
i'm not allowed to watch tv 'cause my sister has exams in 3 days, which is when i'll be killed by my horrible results.

and then today i woke up with no voice and so was not allowed to go to sch by my mom.
where i would most probably cheer until i have no voice.
so i couldn't talk to my dad when he came home and had to resort to like, sign language or something.
epicfail sign language. so i wrote on a piece of paper =.=
its the first time i've ever lost my voice in years so apparently i suck at dealing with it.

Lystra lost today at interclass, but they put up a brave fight yeah :D
don't lose heart, you did your best, and you're still the best in my opinion.
(my opinion is horribly biased =.=)

life is always hard for the belle of the boulevard.

#166; i think.



i was wiki-ing believers never die just now T.T
and then there was something about fall out boy being on an indefinite hiatus D:
i'll miss fall out boy, and their songs which i love so much. [until they break hiatus and drop another awesome album -.-]
definitely going out and buying believers never die(:
falloutboy FTWWWW.


Interclass today(:
2Lystra played B and G for volleyball.
Lost by 7 to 2B, and won by over 10 with 2G.
Our team is quite pro. Fel SXY spike like crazypeople o.o
I sit in the corner watch -.-
Cabbed to KLP with a bunch of crazy people and had lunch at the hawkercentre xD
Played truth or dare, which eventually became just truth cos all the dares are too easy, and everything involves kissing inanimate objects =.=
Took 12 home with rebecca and sxinyi.
Fell asleep cos I was tired cos i slept at 12plus the night before and probably today.

And then the rest of the day was boring because I fell asleep and I didn't manage to find my guitar (which was stuffed in an awkward position under my bed) until just now -.-

YAY.

Pinoy ako(:

IT'S DONE.

The only time i'm using large bold font on a day other than a birthday or christmas.
Heck, this is just like christmas.
It's like Santa Claus just dropped by o.o

After weeks of mugging.
We're finally free.
Weightless.



(Ronza docked today(: And I just had two Burglar misses -.- I'm saving up for the Kraken and the Giant Speaker?)

Tmr is interclass.
Going to support :D

I want that UBERCHEAP Fender Strat/Les Paul.
And then I have to practice that song my dad wants me to sing/play for him in order for me to get the strat/lespaul -.-
GUITAR SPAM :D
I'm going to fill my repertoire up to the brim with billions of pro rock songs(:
And acoustic songs because chords absolutely rock, and each takes like only 5 minutes to learn but almost half an hour to memorize -.-
Maybe I'll take up fingerstyle too.

Recently got Nothing Personal to listen to while I slack. It rocks :D

Oh yeah. By request from Iris:
eep.

Maybe it's not my weekend, but it's gonna be my year. I'm so sick of watching while the minutes pass as I go nowhere. This is my reaction, to everything I fear. And I've been going crazy I don't wanna waste another minute here.

# 164; run baby run, don't ever look back.

Countdown to FREEDOM.
and also when i am free to post and slack again.
muggermode sucks.
it sucks.
like everything else thats happening to me now. =.=

mug like you're dying.

# 174;
happy halloween(:
went pretty boring for me though -.-
there's no trickortreating here, but i still got my fairshare of candy (stolen from my aunt's kitchen)

today was the espesyal pinoy planner launch.
i'm definitely using it next year for homework and stuff.
i mean, i'm in "june" lol.

my sister, day and i had lots of fun getting high after cupcakes -.-
there was even the horny incident where coke was misheard as "cock", which was followed by three crazypeople rolling on the floor.
the halloween party's been rescheduled to monday, so the goodnews is that i dont have to perform -.-

but the bad news is that indoor's on monday.
i need to mug scales.
damn, after eoys chances for mugging still pop up.

thunderstorms all through the week, according to "the weather on my mom's iPhone" -.-
yeah.
wordgraphics.tumblr.com is an awesome site(:

I remember every look upon your face, the way you roll your eyes, the way you taste , you make it hard for breathing.
'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away, I think of you and everythings okay , and finally now, believing.

#173;

FreakyFreakyFriday(:

was bypassed for indoor today T.T
took weiting's file home to practice.
talked about subject combo again after i went back up.
-.-

interclass truthordare today T.T
"hello, so how is your dick?"
=.=

i'm very confused now D:
and something happened last night between my parents, but i don't know what.
all i know is when i walked into the room it scared me like hell.

i need help with my life.




"HELLO MY NAMES IS RIS LOW AND I WANT YOUR CREDIT CARD."
Happy Halloween(:
BOOMZ.

'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing

# 172; no matter how loud i call your name, you'll never turn back.

today's field trip was damn sian.
and epicfail.
when we reached the subordinate courts the ppl didn't let us in T.T and then in the end we only went to the supreme court. it was all for nothing -.-

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HORNY FELICIA.
yay hope you liked the blur-just-like-you cake(:
yeah happy fourteenth(:

yuppp.
my grades suck, and i want that biology history lit combo.
and i'm going to drop thirdlang, so i won't have any more distractions so that i'll be more focused on my main academics.
i won't even hit a 3.2GPA anyway.

SP-ed today.
memorized wholetone scales, and tried out a few 1.5 octave scales.
then weiting and yanting decided to wuliao abit and play first suite eflat.
i'm going to fail indoor.

i'm extremely confused. extremely frustrated. extremely hopeless.
i'd ask for help, but i don't know how -.-

whatthehell. i waited twohours.
sometimes i wish i could go back 4 years.
you were so much more you then.
someone tell me what to do.
i suck at this. i suck at everything.

i can't breathe thinking of your smile.

# 171; he's been running through my dreams, and it's driving me crazy, it seems.

not caring about results anymore(:
taking what i get, and yeah that's it.

i feel accomplished. i can strum without my fingers bleeding -.-
yesterday the index started bleeding and i freaked out.
at least i have i can play my destresser again :D

today i went out to the airport with my dad(:
he flew off.

tomorrow is cmefieldtrip T.T
i'm with 2H lol.
why do 2K and 2L have to be split in such a strange way -.-
cant we just be combined together and be happy -.-

(horny)fel's birthday tomorrow!(:
i didn't buy a present, but i'm getting her that customary cake.
maybe i'll make a card and cover it in horns -.-
horny felicia.
greet you tomorrow, its a bit extra if i greet you today(:

my lungs gave out as i faced the crowd, i think that keeping this up could be dangerous.

# 170; i can't breathe thinking of your smile


everything around me came crashing down in that one moment.
when i got back that 41/110.
everything that he's been saying finally made itself known.
now instead of going to hongkong for christmas, i'm staying at home while my parents go on a holiday.
instead of the smiles when the results are revealed, their disappointed frowns.
instead of an electric guitar, a crushed dream.
did you ever think that your methods of motivation could cause extra stress?

anyway, band today wasn't as bad as usual.
i miss the trombone.
but there's indoor on friday.
i'm going to need to memorize a bunch of scales.
but i'll try hard(:
when all else fails, excel at something else.

i've just figured out why guitarists have long nails.
i just cut them, and now i cant strum.
and i dont have a pick.
the strumming sounds horribly soft and muffled D:
you need nails for that!
i'm plucking for now =.=

'cause i know this flame isn't dying, so nothing can stop me from trying
baby you know that maybe it's time for miracles.

# 169; uncertain.



tomorrow is going to be a bad day.
i can feel it.
giving back HCL paper tomorrow, which i will probably fail.
and then have that electric guitar slip through my fingers T.T
even though i studied for the other subjects so damn hard.
i'm going to lose everything through chinese -.-

band resumes tomorrow too :/
i haven't touched my trombone for like, 2 months.
and with the braces and everything, that will probably kill me.
i'm really scared.

tomorrow's not really clear anyway.
but that far-fetched dream of zhenglaoshi proudly announcing that i had the most improvement and handing me back my paper with a smile on her face... yeah that's still in my head.
even though it might not even happen.
maybe the opposite will happen.
and i'll fail math too.
skipped so many damn questions.

i think i'll just brace myself for that lousy subject combo i'll be put in next year.
and everybody in 2L will go off to like, triple sciences and stuff and i'll be left behind.
its always been that way.
i got lowest PSLE score for GEP batch of '07.
and then i'll drag everyone's average down this year again too.
if i had studied for everything as i did for the EOYs, i'd be a really good student.
but its always like that with me.
by the time i realize, its too late to do anything to fix it.

good luck to the guy's soccer team tomorrow(: get that 3rd place yeah.

watch you take the fall, laughing all the way to the hospital, there's nothing surgery can do.

#168; i wish i was a rockstar.



you're really confusing, you know that? T.T
you literally drive me crazy.
but for some crazy reason, i can't get enough of it.

i've just been given the very troublesome job of performing at kids cove's halloween party next saturday.
as a surprise for the guests. gotta lug my guitar all the way there.
and i don't even know how to sing wtf.
i'm going to embarrass myself.
i finally get to perform as a musician -.-
and i'm scared.

my birthday's in less than 2 months(:
although i don't know why i'm excited now.
yeah. i don't have a wishlist, because i'm not that kind of person.
you'll have to ask me in your own weird and stealthy way -.-

forgive me i'm trying to find my calling, i'm calling at night.

# 167; my first love.



i think i'm the only one with no life.
that's why i'm the only one back to a daily posting basis, and the only one reading other people's blogs -.-


okay actually it hasn't been that bad.
i've jamlegend.com to entertain me, and ofcos youtube, and the guitar.
i'm not allowed to watch tv 'cause my sister has exams in 3 days, which is when i'll be killed by my horrible results.

and then today i woke up with no voice and so was not allowed to go to sch by my mom.
where i would most probably cheer until i have no voice.
so i couldn't talk to my dad when he came home and had to resort to like, sign language or something.
epicfail sign language. so i wrote on a piece of paper =.=
its the first time i've ever lost my voice in years so apparently i suck at dealing with it.

Lystra lost today at interclass, but they put up a brave fight yeah :D
don't lose heart, you did your best, and you're still the best in my opinion.
(my opinion is horribly biased =.=)

life is always hard for the belle of the boulevard.

#166; i think.



i was wiki-ing believers never die just now T.T
and then there was something about fall out boy being on an indefinite hiatus D:
i'll miss fall out boy, and their songs which i love so much. [until they break hiatus and drop another awesome album -.-]
definitely going out and buying believers never die(:
falloutboy FTWWWW.


Interclass today(:
2Lystra played B and G for volleyball.
Lost by 7 to 2B, and won by over 10 with 2G.
Our team is quite pro. Fel SXY spike like crazypeople o.o
I sit in the corner watch -.-
Cabbed to KLP with a bunch of crazy people and had lunch at the hawkercentre xD
Played truth or dare, which eventually became just truth cos all the dares are too easy, and everything involves kissing inanimate objects =.=
Took 12 home with rebecca and sxinyi.
Fell asleep cos I was tired cos i slept at 12plus the night before and probably today.

And then the rest of the day was boring because I fell asleep and I didn't manage to find my guitar (which was stuffed in an awkward position under my bed) until just now -.-

YAY.

Pinoy ako(:

IT'S DONE.

The only time i'm using large bold font on a day other than a birthday or christmas.
Heck, this is just like christmas.
It's like Santa Claus just dropped by o.o

After weeks of mugging.
We're finally free.
Weightless.



(Ronza docked today(: And I just had two Burglar misses -.- I'm saving up for the Kraken and the Giant Speaker?)

Tmr is interclass.
Going to support :D

I want that UBERCHEAP Fender Strat/Les Paul.
And then I have to practice that song my dad wants me to sing/play for him in order for me to get the strat/lespaul -.-
GUITAR SPAM :D
I'm going to fill my repertoire up to the brim with billions of pro rock songs(:
And acoustic songs because chords absolutely rock, and each takes like only 5 minutes to learn but almost half an hour to memorize -.-
Maybe I'll take up fingerstyle too.

Recently got Nothing Personal to listen to while I slack. It rocks :D

Oh yeah. By request from Iris:
eep.

Maybe it's not my weekend, but it's gonna be my year. I'm so sick of watching while the minutes pass as I go nowhere. This is my reaction, to everything I fear. And I've been going crazy I don't wanna waste another minute here.

# 164; run baby run, don't ever look back.

Countdown to FREEDOM.
and also when i am free to post and slack again.
muggermode sucks.
it sucks.
like everything else thats happening to me now. =.=

mug like you're dying.