#191; today i got one of the best birthday presents ever. i wanted to see if those mystery google missions were true so i typed in "what is my mission?" i got "you've been accepted to hogwarts school of witchcraft and wizardry. please contact albus dumbledore at 405*******" lol after 3 years of waiting and a tantrum on my 11th birthday i finally get my acceptance letter. in time for my 14th birthday too(: thank you, mystery google. MLIA. HAHA this is retarded-.- (http://www.mylifeisaverage.com/ awesome site for awesome people.)
oh and i was bored so i urbandictionary-ed my name.
1) The person with this name is the most amazing person you will ever meet. After you say hi to her, magic fairy dust will sprinkle on your head and then you'll be able to FLY! OMG! Who WOULDN'T want to fly?
2) Holding in a burp walking across the room to burp in someone else's face. (hold on, isnt this a rongying? o.o)
3)The 4th meal of the day - post tea time and before sleepy time. It can consist of anything you like - as long as it's a whole meal.
wow. entertaining :D i think reading MLIA will cover me being bored for the next few weeks xD oh yeah and http://iamawesome.com/ is an awesome website.
haha birthday party in 2 days(: going bowling. i'm gonna suck xD
hello(: i just wrote another song -.- third one since hols started. (what am i doing with my life.)
went out this morning at 6.30AM to catch the sunrise with my mom's D5000. did some photo-taking at the field near my house. quite fun haha. my mom takes a lot of unglam photos of us (on purpose) then we went to go pick up some food at my aunt's house and had waffles for breakfast. and pork. (haha i know someone who loves their pork xD)
i've gone insane. cos i'm even thinking of playing canon rock for ensemble. HAHAHA fat chance la -.- the notes so high, the skips so big. when i'm professional then i'll play it. when i finally learn it on the electric guitar :D T.T its so damn hard. (its easier on jamlegend k -.-)
sigh so fast another week is over. have to get used to 3C now, not 2L anymore. its sad. very sad. and at the end of my dream last night somehow there was that scene of sengjoe falling off the mountain -.-
next week i'll be 14. doesn't feel like anything cos its so late in the year alr. everyone else i 14 and i'm still 13. but last year it was superpro when escape let us in at childprice cos we were still 12 :D so a late bday is quite pro also la. but have to wait damn long. then if i dont get smth i want for my bday i can ask for it for xmas -.-
December babies are awesome :D (idc cass's opinion means nothing i am awesome la wth T.T)
haha guess whose birthday new moon is premiering on? :D i wish this meant free tickets -.-
should i spam learn songs on the guitar? spam learn songs on the trombone? should i practice scales the whole day tmr? movie marathon? should i find some minddestroying game that will kill my brain cells long enough for me to not noticed how bored i am? should i watch tv? youtube?
at least got sp on wednesday.
still pissed with the passport crap. everyone's off enjoying holiday and i'm stuck at home. zzz.
i walked into 3C, and for some absurd reason we were all wearing shorts -.-
suddenly the scene faded to a movie theater. we were having our batch sectional outing.
the movie suddenly switched to a scene with a mountain.
we (including sengjoe) were shown hanging off the edge of the mountain.
seng joe fell off and we climbed up to the top.
isaac turned to me and said: "see i told you he'd fall off."
suddenly SS501 appeared on the screen and weiting started screaming.
then yanting fell out of the sky (no joke) and started screaming too.
then i heard another highpitched scream, i turned around, and isaac fell out of his chair -.-
and then i woke up.
i officially need imh T.T
the mountain part is something he said near the start of the year i think -.-
this is the product of talking abt my section on msn ._.
classchalet:D was awesome. we spent the whole time gaying. gaying like the horny gays we are. and lots of tricks like the bottle game, black magic, "yesterday i... today i... then tmr i do what?", the string trick and stuff. we figured out all of them :D and fel raped me in my box. and the screams of "HARDIZEIN HARDIZEINNN!" when hady mirza popped up on the screen xD
i pitched that high G today(: but it has to be louder. i blasted through march during the last 4 minutes. damn fun.
lystra is so awesome :D
BELIEVERS NEVER DIE. (is an awesome album :D i got it today so dont need bday present alr k)
#185; supersianday. wasted my freaking time at the philippine embassy applying for my stupidass passport. it takes like 6 weeks to renew damn it. and 1 hour to wait for "your number to be called" cannot go hk anymore sigh. my parents are booking yet another chalet instead. there's class chalet, the chalet on my birthday, and afterxmas to-make-up-for-hk chalet. my holidays are so cool right-.-
could have gone for combinedsp -.- and i took alicia's scores so she couldn't play anything. so paiseh. have to work extra hard to get my awesomeness back. must be the awesomest in the whole section yay :D
i want believers never die(: FOB is awesome. just like me. [wow i just gave the bloglurkers a birthday present idea -.-]
your time has passed they say never means never, so the fast dance wont last but never means forever.
# 184;SP today was supercool -.- i think we improved? all i know is that before i put on braces my tone and volume was okay. after i put on braces my tone basically kenna destroyed :D
i think we were super fail at lowerbrassescombined lunch at kfc -.- totally didnt talk ahaha. so the lesson is: you must talk more if you're in lowerbrass.
two days to class chalet(: cant help feeling excited.
just came back from bedok reservoir. my attempt to become dark failed miserably. i'll forever be known as the one who's so white it looks unhealthy. we rollerbladed today(: my gear was way too small so i didnt wear it. and somehow i left the reservoir unscathed. my mom took loads of picts with her nikon d5000 O: if only someone could find out how to hook it up to a comp T.T
i woke up this morning and realized that i shouldn't sleep at all for class chalet. if i do i'd end up unknowingly hurting people. [i woke up and my handphone - originally on my bedside table - was on the floor, and i was stuck inside my blanket.] or i might end up a long way from our chalet and be found lying in the middle of nowhere. thank goodness its only 4 hours of sleep. i might not even sleep at all. i can survive :D
i have a feeling that the holidays are going to be really boring after class chalet. [i think my ninja playlist is really cute xD]
build your house brick by boring brick or the wolf's gonna blow it down.
screwed up bullshit[blueshades] today. it was really awesome! FMLFMLFML.
went out to macs at tampines for lunch today with valerietanweiting and emelynteoyanting. it was raining like hell. we got really wet. got all wet and had to sit in a bloody cold bus until aljunied. valerie and emelyn decided to go resto-hopping =.= i ate EVM at macs [and got another marina bay and and instant win fries -.-] then we went over to kfc to eat cheese fries, and back to macs again for ice cream. it was awesome. we talked abt loads of stuff :D
class chaletttttt(: spammage of snacks, board games(?!), movies, games, and crazy high people. i think i might actually be scared for my safety/virginity.
hello(: i woke up at 12noon today on the sofa. =.= [just when i thought i'd stopped sleepwalking sigh.]
classchalet next week at downtown east(: apparently the date coincides with 2G's chalet too so maybe in the middle of the night we'll see freaky faces outside our window. everyone's deciding what movies to bring (and majority consists of chick flicks o.o) and board games, since our class is quite guai [i think :/] and probably wont sneak out past curfew to like vandalize everything in sight or sneak off to e-hub. really surprised that my dad let me go without adult supervision. he did say he might be popping by at 10.30 since he asked for our unit number =.= [stalker.] think i'll do the actual class cards/individual dedications for the chalet/once chalet finishes T.T
better start sorting through my dvd shelf(: [yeah there's a whole shelf by itself that contains my family's dvd collection o.o]
oh by the way since weiting's done a two year early dedication to me on her blog, here goes:
weiting is extremely weird and mood-swingy. she's rarely high and very fun to suan and bother on msn and make fun of because she rarely does anything about it(: she has a really abnormal taste for guys who look like girls and she absolutely adores SS501 and korean things like a bunch of other people i know. she's quite cool yeah... but i'm awesome :D
yup =.= hope you liked it. to think i'd be doing another dedication to you in 2 years when we're year 4 and we're leaving JH band-.- but thats really far away so this one's for pure entertainment and watching the look on your face :D
lol another countdown timer-.- LystraClassChalet whooo.
#180; band today. quite okay did stock taking instrument maintenance and one hour of full band where we played through concerto d'amore(:
whoo. i love concerto d'amore(:
wtf T.T my dad doesn't appreciate music at all lor -.- i close the door play very softly he also come and scold. "do you have to freaking practice now? why cant you do it on friday? its so loud!" yeah okay ask for permission during full band to practice by myself what a great idea! go and shout in my face.
then he thinks he's so smart. "when i was in university, i got top 10 in the level! all you need to do is pay attention in class! you don't really need to study" -.- yeah its that easy for you how bout for us. "why did you get wrong for this? you shouldn't be getting wrong!" go and take the chinese exam yourself la. freaking pissed. he doesn't get us at all -.- sit at his comp all day play wow grow fat =.=
bit my bit, my life is practically falling apart. maybe later on when i've figured out how, i'll pick up the pieces.
so that's it. the school year is officially over. no more walking into the classroom in the morning, greeting all the retards xD no more listening to iris argue with the teachers, no more laughing as a class about some wrong thing the teacher happened to say O: no more nama saya T.T no more laughing together while discussing some internal class couple or gossiping abt whatever girl melvina's picked up this time :DD when i walk into class next year, it will definitely be different. thanks for the memories [even though they weren't so great] :D
no use emo-ing though! we still have class chalet [SIGH WHEN THE HELL IS THIS T.T] and my parents have agreed to let me invite a bunch of classmates to my birthday celebration :D so yeah. LYSTRA FTW O:
anddddd! there's still band tmr, the 13th, the 20th, 14th - 17th december(:
haha bought a nikon d5000 today at funan :D its sort of a shareshare between my mom and i. damn cool. going to go playwith it. suddenly photography seems so awesome!
sighhh. i'm going to go jamlegend somemore because i found a TAB for canon rock and its shit hard so i might as well play the "easier" version [aka insane -.-]
i've got troubled thoughts and a self esteem to match.
#178; now here we are and i'm suddenly standing at the beginning with you.
1-2Lystra;
i've always been told that the friends you make in high school/secondary school are those that you'd carry throughout your life.
being the first 26 crazy people to be my friends, i'll be sure i'll never forget you. [yup be happy you're going to be haunting me for the next years of my life xD]
all the happy times we shared, all the crazy times, and even all the sad and angry times, they'll never be gone from my mind.
being a part of Lystra was a hell load of fun, and i never ever regretted being in a class with you people(:
i remember my first batch of friends, i remember rongying's million dollar star, i remember chashaobao, i remember the shuttle bus to tampines, i remember eating in the air-con classroom and having the teachers complain of the smell, i remember all those crazy high recesses we had, and the family tree we drew ourselves, i remember the very first clique that i was ever part of, i remember orienation, level camp, and everything else, i remember "quarelling" with vivian, i remember the original cookie seller, i remember everything because its really important to me. all of it.
and yet, as 2009 finishes, i know i've left loose ends untied.
i've fought through this half a year bearing the brunt of my own stupid actions. and i've had to deal with myself for not doing anything about it, for not trying to regain what i had lost. who i had lost.
maybe its too late now, because i was never really strong enough.
it hurt, when i thought of this day, and the fact that i wont be able to hug you goodbye, after all the memories we shared.
it was cos of my own stupidity that it turned out that way.
and it's cos of me that i had to fight myself with thoughts like: "you're being extra, you're butting in. you're not part of them anymore. it was your choice."
it was like i was slashed in half.
but its my fault. maybe i'll see you again next year, but it hurt that i ended this year like this.
i'm so stupid.
we're all going to have to move on, and this day, these goodbyes, can't be put off forever(: its only now that most people [okay maybe me but i'm really slow so -.-] realize the significance of our level song.
it really feels as if i'm standing at the beginning with you.
but we have to be happy(:
and there's still class chalet. its not like we're separated forever, we're still one level, and there are still CCAs and 2L09 outings :D
we watched miracles today T.T it was quite boring -.- rongying was the sole highlight of the movie, with her weird sound effects, gay comments, her constant grabbing of my hand and gayness, and the whispers of "OMG ZAC EFRON'S GOING TO COME OUT!" "U-S-A! U-Zac-E[dward]! SIN-GA-PORE!"
then there was a performance by EDS which was considerably more interesting than the movie.
the TA guys are very zzz. poor chingying, run back and forth then find out that she return tablet tmr. we should bring them to america and sue them -.- shittt i want her candy so bad T.T]
working on a speical classsurprise for friday with rongying. its very spastic T.T
is it too far-fetched to want you to talk to me?
is it too desperate if i stop breathing every time you turn around and look in my direction? for the millionth time, i need help T.T i can't try and handle this on my own anymore. i'll break down soon enough.
i'm relaxing for awhile this week >< [i suddenly feel guilty. should i go tmr?] cos i finished indoor :/ i'm debating whether i should stay back for sp tmr. hmm. maybe i should, but nobody's going with me T.T now my uncle's coming once a week for like an hour to help with my guitarplaying(: ilovehimforit. maybe he'll learn canonrock then teach me. haha i officially have a newyears resolution. shit. inline skating tmr. damnit. i know how to rollerblade. but i forgot -.- i'm going to die and embarrass myself. yaytmr'sgonnabeahappyday(:
drama performance at PAC today-.- the first one was basically the story of my life. the second one was damn confusing. i'm going to go borrow the book from tampines library =.=
lol i love my cousin for introducing me to jamlegend[canonrockkk<3 i'm going to play this on the electric guitar someday xD]. damn cool(: 99% + highscore on skilled level, been playing ever since EOYs finished. everyday. :D
damn fun -.- piratesofthecarribean(rocktheme) is a really cool song too. i can barely scrape through on skilled and almost died when i clicked "legendary"
sigh. (nolifeah) tmr is movie. the year1s get to go AMKhub and watch coraline wtf D: the sch booked the whole theatre. went home with joycelyn ytd and she told me -.-
yeah returning tablet tmr. cleared all the files and browsing history ._.
and there's only 3 days left. 3 days with lystra. the first place where i felt i really belonged somewhere in dunman high -.- i'll never forget you guys, even if you hate me xD
and then there's year3. damn scared.
tell me why you talk me down where ever you go; you're a saint, you're a king, and i'm just another girl without a crown.
today was math trail. it was quite fun i guess -.- got picked on at the quadratic graph station, as usual. all the teachers seem to know that i suck at math la.
indoortest(: quite satisfied with all my hard work, seems to have paid off, he seemed quite happy with me.
everybody is dao-ing me today. the day started off like shit when i couldn't find a damn group. then after that i got dao-ed multiple times. its a damn sucky feeling T.T and weiting didn't come today so basically band was living hell. so overall, i had a wonderful day!
There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life And you've already got me coming undone
#191; today i got one of the best birthday presents ever. i wanted to see if those mystery google missions were true so i typed in "what is my mission?" i got "you've been accepted to hogwarts school of witchcraft and wizardry. please contact albus dumbledore at 405*******" lol after 3 years of waiting and a tantrum on my 11th birthday i finally get my acceptance letter. in time for my 14th birthday too(: thank you, mystery google. MLIA. HAHA this is retarded-.- (http://www.mylifeisaverage.com/ awesome site for awesome people.)
oh and i was bored so i urbandictionary-ed my name.
1) The person with this name is the most amazing person you will ever meet. After you say hi to her, magic fairy dust will sprinkle on your head and then you'll be able to FLY! OMG! Who WOULDN'T want to fly?
2) Holding in a burp walking across the room to burp in someone else's face. (hold on, isnt this a rongying? o.o)
3)The 4th meal of the day - post tea time and before sleepy time. It can consist of anything you like - as long as it's a whole meal.
wow. entertaining :D i think reading MLIA will cover me being bored for the next few weeks xD oh yeah and http://iamawesome.com/ is an awesome website.
haha birthday party in 2 days(: going bowling. i'm gonna suck xD
hello(: i just wrote another song -.- third one since hols started. (what am i doing with my life.)
went out this morning at 6.30AM to catch the sunrise with my mom's D5000. did some photo-taking at the field near my house. quite fun haha. my mom takes a lot of unglam photos of us (on purpose) then we went to go pick up some food at my aunt's house and had waffles for breakfast. and pork. (haha i know someone who loves their pork xD)
i've gone insane. cos i'm even thinking of playing canon rock for ensemble. HAHAHA fat chance la -.- the notes so high, the skips so big. when i'm professional then i'll play it. when i finally learn it on the electric guitar :D T.T its so damn hard. (its easier on jamlegend k -.-)
sigh so fast another week is over. have to get used to 3C now, not 2L anymore. its sad. very sad. and at the end of my dream last night somehow there was that scene of sengjoe falling off the mountain -.-
next week i'll be 14. doesn't feel like anything cos its so late in the year alr. everyone else i 14 and i'm still 13. but last year it was superpro when escape let us in at childprice cos we were still 12 :D so a late bday is quite pro also la. but have to wait damn long. then if i dont get smth i want for my bday i can ask for it for xmas -.-
December babies are awesome :D (idc cass's opinion means nothing i am awesome la wth T.T)
haha guess whose birthday new moon is premiering on? :D i wish this meant free tickets -.-
should i spam learn songs on the guitar? spam learn songs on the trombone? should i practice scales the whole day tmr? movie marathon? should i find some minddestroying game that will kill my brain cells long enough for me to not noticed how bored i am? should i watch tv? youtube?
at least got sp on wednesday.
still pissed with the passport crap. everyone's off enjoying holiday and i'm stuck at home. zzz.
i walked into 3C, and for some absurd reason we were all wearing shorts -.-
suddenly the scene faded to a movie theater. we were having our batch sectional outing.
the movie suddenly switched to a scene with a mountain.
we (including sengjoe) were shown hanging off the edge of the mountain.
seng joe fell off and we climbed up to the top.
isaac turned to me and said: "see i told you he'd fall off."
suddenly SS501 appeared on the screen and weiting started screaming.
then yanting fell out of the sky (no joke) and started screaming too.
then i heard another highpitched scream, i turned around, and isaac fell out of his chair -.-
and then i woke up.
i officially need imh T.T
the mountain part is something he said near the start of the year i think -.-
this is the product of talking abt my section on msn ._.
classchalet:D was awesome. we spent the whole time gaying. gaying like the horny gays we are. and lots of tricks like the bottle game, black magic, "yesterday i... today i... then tmr i do what?", the string trick and stuff. we figured out all of them :D and fel raped me in my box. and the screams of "HARDIZEIN HARDIZEINNN!" when hady mirza popped up on the screen xD
i pitched that high G today(: but it has to be louder. i blasted through march during the last 4 minutes. damn fun.
lystra is so awesome :D
BELIEVERS NEVER DIE. (is an awesome album :D i got it today so dont need bday present alr k)
#185; supersianday. wasted my freaking time at the philippine embassy applying for my stupidass passport. it takes like 6 weeks to renew damn it. and 1 hour to wait for "your number to be called" cannot go hk anymore sigh. my parents are booking yet another chalet instead. there's class chalet, the chalet on my birthday, and afterxmas to-make-up-for-hk chalet. my holidays are so cool right-.-
could have gone for combinedsp -.- and i took alicia's scores so she couldn't play anything. so paiseh. have to work extra hard to get my awesomeness back. must be the awesomest in the whole section yay :D
i want believers never die(: FOB is awesome. just like me. [wow i just gave the bloglurkers a birthday present idea -.-]
your time has passed they say never means never, so the fast dance wont last but never means forever.
# 184;SP today was supercool -.- i think we improved? all i know is that before i put on braces my tone and volume was okay. after i put on braces my tone basically kenna destroyed :D
i think we were super fail at lowerbrassescombined lunch at kfc -.- totally didnt talk ahaha. so the lesson is: you must talk more if you're in lowerbrass.
two days to class chalet(: cant help feeling excited.
just came back from bedok reservoir. my attempt to become dark failed miserably. i'll forever be known as the one who's so white it looks unhealthy. we rollerbladed today(: my gear was way too small so i didnt wear it. and somehow i left the reservoir unscathed. my mom took loads of picts with her nikon d5000 O: if only someone could find out how to hook it up to a comp T.T
i woke up this morning and realized that i shouldn't sleep at all for class chalet. if i do i'd end up unknowingly hurting people. [i woke up and my handphone - originally on my bedside table - was on the floor, and i was stuck inside my blanket.] or i might end up a long way from our chalet and be found lying in the middle of nowhere. thank goodness its only 4 hours of sleep. i might not even sleep at all. i can survive :D
i have a feeling that the holidays are going to be really boring after class chalet. [i think my ninja playlist is really cute xD]
build your house brick by boring brick or the wolf's gonna blow it down.
screwed up bullshit[blueshades] today. it was really awesome! FMLFMLFML.
went out to macs at tampines for lunch today with valerietanweiting and emelynteoyanting. it was raining like hell. we got really wet. got all wet and had to sit in a bloody cold bus until aljunied. valerie and emelyn decided to go resto-hopping =.= i ate EVM at macs [and got another marina bay and and instant win fries -.-] then we went over to kfc to eat cheese fries, and back to macs again for ice cream. it was awesome. we talked abt loads of stuff :D
class chaletttttt(: spammage of snacks, board games(?!), movies, games, and crazy high people. i think i might actually be scared for my safety/virginity.
hello(: i woke up at 12noon today on the sofa. =.= [just when i thought i'd stopped sleepwalking sigh.]
classchalet next week at downtown east(: apparently the date coincides with 2G's chalet too so maybe in the middle of the night we'll see freaky faces outside our window. everyone's deciding what movies to bring (and majority consists of chick flicks o.o) and board games, since our class is quite guai [i think :/] and probably wont sneak out past curfew to like vandalize everything in sight or sneak off to e-hub. really surprised that my dad let me go without adult supervision. he did say he might be popping by at 10.30 since he asked for our unit number =.= [stalker.] think i'll do the actual class cards/individual dedications for the chalet/once chalet finishes T.T
better start sorting through my dvd shelf(: [yeah there's a whole shelf by itself that contains my family's dvd collection o.o]
oh by the way since weiting's done a two year early dedication to me on her blog, here goes:
weiting is extremely weird and mood-swingy. she's rarely high and very fun to suan and bother on msn and make fun of because she rarely does anything about it(: she has a really abnormal taste for guys who look like girls and she absolutely adores SS501 and korean things like a bunch of other people i know. she's quite cool yeah... but i'm awesome :D
yup =.= hope you liked it. to think i'd be doing another dedication to you in 2 years when we're year 4 and we're leaving JH band-.- but thats really far away so this one's for pure entertainment and watching the look on your face :D
lol another countdown timer-.- LystraClassChalet whooo.
#180; band today. quite okay did stock taking instrument maintenance and one hour of full band where we played through concerto d'amore(:
whoo. i love concerto d'amore(:
wtf T.T my dad doesn't appreciate music at all lor -.- i close the door play very softly he also come and scold. "do you have to freaking practice now? why cant you do it on friday? its so loud!" yeah okay ask for permission during full band to practice by myself what a great idea! go and shout in my face.
then he thinks he's so smart. "when i was in university, i got top 10 in the level! all you need to do is pay attention in class! you don't really need to study" -.- yeah its that easy for you how bout for us. "why did you get wrong for this? you shouldn't be getting wrong!" go and take the chinese exam yourself la. freaking pissed. he doesn't get us at all -.- sit at his comp all day play wow grow fat =.=
bit my bit, my life is practically falling apart. maybe later on when i've figured out how, i'll pick up the pieces.
so that's it. the school year is officially over. no more walking into the classroom in the morning, greeting all the retards xD no more listening to iris argue with the teachers, no more laughing as a class about some wrong thing the teacher happened to say O: no more nama saya T.T no more laughing together while discussing some internal class couple or gossiping abt whatever girl melvina's picked up this time :DD when i walk into class next year, it will definitely be different. thanks for the memories [even though they weren't so great] :D
no use emo-ing though! we still have class chalet [SIGH WHEN THE HELL IS THIS T.T] and my parents have agreed to let me invite a bunch of classmates to my birthday celebration :D so yeah. LYSTRA FTW O:
anddddd! there's still band tmr, the 13th, the 20th, 14th - 17th december(:
haha bought a nikon d5000 today at funan :D its sort of a shareshare between my mom and i. damn cool. going to go playwith it. suddenly photography seems so awesome!
sighhh. i'm going to go jamlegend somemore because i found a TAB for canon rock and its shit hard so i might as well play the "easier" version [aka insane -.-]
i've got troubled thoughts and a self esteem to match.
#178; now here we are and i'm suddenly standing at the beginning with you.
1-2Lystra;
i've always been told that the friends you make in high school/secondary school are those that you'd carry throughout your life.
being the first 26 crazy people to be my friends, i'll be sure i'll never forget you. [yup be happy you're going to be haunting me for the next years of my life xD]
all the happy times we shared, all the crazy times, and even all the sad and angry times, they'll never be gone from my mind.
being a part of Lystra was a hell load of fun, and i never ever regretted being in a class with you people(:
i remember my first batch of friends, i remember rongying's million dollar star, i remember chashaobao, i remember the shuttle bus to tampines, i remember eating in the air-con classroom and having the teachers complain of the smell, i remember all those crazy high recesses we had, and the family tree we drew ourselves, i remember the very first clique that i was ever part of, i remember orienation, level camp, and everything else, i remember "quarelling" with vivian, i remember the original cookie seller, i remember everything because its really important to me. all of it.
and yet, as 2009 finishes, i know i've left loose ends untied.
i've fought through this half a year bearing the brunt of my own stupid actions. and i've had to deal with myself for not doing anything about it, for not trying to regain what i had lost. who i had lost.
maybe its too late now, because i was never really strong enough.
it hurt, when i thought of this day, and the fact that i wont be able to hug you goodbye, after all the memories we shared.
it was cos of my own stupidity that it turned out that way.
and it's cos of me that i had to fight myself with thoughts like: "you're being extra, you're butting in. you're not part of them anymore. it was your choice."
it was like i was slashed in half.
but its my fault. maybe i'll see you again next year, but it hurt that i ended this year like this.
i'm so stupid.
we're all going to have to move on, and this day, these goodbyes, can't be put off forever(: its only now that most people [okay maybe me but i'm really slow so -.-] realize the significance of our level song.
it really feels as if i'm standing at the beginning with you.
but we have to be happy(:
and there's still class chalet. its not like we're separated forever, we're still one level, and there are still CCAs and 2L09 outings :D
we watched miracles today T.T it was quite boring -.- rongying was the sole highlight of the movie, with her weird sound effects, gay comments, her constant grabbing of my hand and gayness, and the whispers of "OMG ZAC EFRON'S GOING TO COME OUT!" "U-S-A! U-Zac-E[dward]! SIN-GA-PORE!"
then there was a performance by EDS which was considerably more interesting than the movie.
the TA guys are very zzz. poor chingying, run back and forth then find out that she return tablet tmr. we should bring them to america and sue them -.- shittt i want her candy so bad T.T]
working on a speical classsurprise for friday with rongying. its very spastic T.T
is it too far-fetched to want you to talk to me?
is it too desperate if i stop breathing every time you turn around and look in my direction? for the millionth time, i need help T.T i can't try and handle this on my own anymore. i'll break down soon enough.
i'm relaxing for awhile this week >< [i suddenly feel guilty. should i go tmr?] cos i finished indoor :/ i'm debating whether i should stay back for sp tmr. hmm. maybe i should, but nobody's going with me T.T now my uncle's coming once a week for like an hour to help with my guitarplaying(: ilovehimforit. maybe he'll learn canonrock then teach me. haha i officially have a newyears resolution. shit. inline skating tmr. damnit. i know how to rollerblade. but i forgot -.- i'm going to die and embarrass myself. yaytmr'sgonnabeahappyday(:
drama performance at PAC today-.- the first one was basically the story of my life. the second one was damn confusing. i'm going to go borrow the book from tampines library =.=
lol i love my cousin for introducing me to jamlegend[canonrockkk<3 i'm going to play this on the electric guitar someday xD]. damn cool(: 99% + highscore on skilled level, been playing ever since EOYs finished. everyday. :D
damn fun -.- piratesofthecarribean(rocktheme) is a really cool song too. i can barely scrape through on skilled and almost died when i clicked "legendary"
sigh. (nolifeah) tmr is movie. the year1s get to go AMKhub and watch coraline wtf D: the sch booked the whole theatre. went home with joycelyn ytd and she told me -.-
yeah returning tablet tmr. cleared all the files and browsing history ._.
and there's only 3 days left. 3 days with lystra. the first place where i felt i really belonged somewhere in dunman high -.- i'll never forget you guys, even if you hate me xD
and then there's year3. damn scared.
tell me why you talk me down where ever you go; you're a saint, you're a king, and i'm just another girl without a crown.
today was math trail. it was quite fun i guess -.- got picked on at the quadratic graph station, as usual. all the teachers seem to know that i suck at math la.
indoortest(: quite satisfied with all my hard work, seems to have paid off, he seemed quite happy with me.
everybody is dao-ing me today. the day started off like shit when i couldn't find a damn group. then after that i got dao-ed multiple times. its a damn sucky feeling T.T and weiting didn't come today so basically band was living hell. so overall, i had a wonderful day!
There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life And you've already got me coming undone
today i got one of the best birthday presents ever.
our room number(:
unglam -.-
the fight for venus.
:D
e epic battle for julia.
rongying's fake height =.=
bored people.
twister xD
BBQ
peishan ultra-unglam.
ponyo zi-highing xD
pillowfight-.-
rapist.
fel's failed zipai #1
playing either tai ti or bridge o.o
fel's failed zipai #2
fel cullen >< 
fel's failed zipai #3
"you feel hot ah, its just me, dont worry." - felicia goh
supersianday.
SP today was supercool -.-
band today.
hello(:
There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
lauraysettaMENDOZAraquepo