i think i slacked for the past morning.
i was spam-learning songs on the guitar.
and so i did nothing else.
but go to church.
my cousin and i are having a who-knows-how-to-play-more-songs war.
so i spammed. she's coming on wed and i have 2 days left.
i think i'll need to learn a few solos too.
and hunt for a new string for my classical.
one is almost broken.
i've kinda accepted the fact that i have to learn acoustic and classical before i get the dream electric.
maybe this december 3rd?

band tmr at 745. i have to give my dad whoever's-in-charge's number.
so that he can call, and i'll be able to go for the rest of band camp. -.-
turns out just nice i'm not going on the day weiting's going, so... good luck to her. just realized she'll be alone. o.o jiayou. xD dont often get a chance to see my relatives [tell me how we can yearly or even monthly save up for a trip to the phil when we're not that RICH], so i have to go and pick them up.
should be around the same as normal school days. and i thought i could sleep in.
i hope scales dont get tested, cos i cant do scales. only major. theres minor too. i've already got like, a shitload of stuff to do to catch up to everyone else.
6 days to concert. hope i do well.

i need to grow.
vertically and horizontally.
i'm like, 10kg underweight and i'm getting braces next week.
how am i gonna handle it.
i have to sleep more, so that when i come back to sch ppl will stop saying i'm short.
actually they dont, so...
still need to go. my mom said weight training helps. -.- add more muscle weight?
so i'll go borrow my mom's weights and train.

i have to read more of my chinese book.
its quite interesting. i think i should read more english translated to chinese books, cos i can search the story online easily, then i can focus on learning the vocab.
so smart right.
and nat geo. and la essay. so i can put LA behind and focus on math and chinese and geog.
i'm gonna study every single day during the hols and i dont care if my cousin is here.
i'm gonna read stuff. and then go online and read chinese news?!
so i can learn both the defs and the writing.
asking my mom to buy me math assessment books. -.-
though i dont think it will help. i need to check first which ones include algebra and the stupid stuff i failed in the first half.
either that or i'll redo all my worksheets and my workbook.
really have to buck up.
or else i'll be stuck in a loser class. and certain ppl will start making fun of me cos they always do.

i dont know if i'm going out today to the library.
8books = 4booksextra to be borrowed.
i'm gonna borrow those lamelame books. i need entertainment. when i'm not studying.
i'll take that chance to look for another cass's bday gift.
if not, i'll have to give her mine. o.o which is way too small. and is plain, so i dunno if she'll like it.
sigh.
what if overdue. o.o
cass'll kill me. oh well. i'll try my best.

this blog is seriously dead. nobody bothers to tag. screw them all. -.-

[edit] wow, super-caffeinated today. i didnt even drink any coffee. -.- this is a random edit lol.

Created by OnePlusYou
lol. thankyou chocolate? -.-
love green day's new song. 21 guns. heard it on "whats new" on 987. this just shows how little of a life i have that my sunday afternoon is spent looking out for new songs on the radio.
i got no life. [/edit]

One, 21 guns, lay down your arms, give up the fight.
Can we still be saved?

tags replied to blogs. i'm spamming my own tagboard. -.-

it's finally the holidays.
and my mood has finally lifted.
listened to some rock songs last night.
[DAVID COOK IS SO NOT BORING, WEITING. so unappreciative. -.- david cook pwns david archuleta idontcare.]
i found some meaningful lyrics and so i stopped brooding over my lost grades.
and have decided to look to the future.
and forget about the past.

on june 2 is my twin cousins' bday. turning seven. [supposed to be impt milestone.]
on june 3 my cousin and grandma are coming over. and its cass's bday. -.-
june 1, june 2, and june 4 i'm going for band camp.
june 5 is free.
june 6 is rhythm xxiii.
june 10 is the day i'm going to get referral for braces.
somewhere in june i'm getting my hair cut [and layered. -.-]
i cant cut my own hair, unlike SOMEONE. [not you, cass.]

dunno why i just posted my holiday sched online.
and i have to find time to buy cass a new gift. cos i realized there's smth wrong with it and so i returned it. sigh.
what if i dont give it to cass in time.
latest by sch reopens, cass. and if i do give it when school reopens, i'll add an extra thing.

posted more blackmail pics on the class blog as i said i would.
i'm not posting them here cos that person doesnt even COME here and when she does, never TAGS.
so i shall ignore her.

i dont know why, when i'm supporting/supported adam, that i'm obsessed with no boundaries. -.-
sigh. identity crisis?
the lyrics are quite meaningful for me?
just when you think the road is going nowhere, just when you almost gave up on your dreams, they take you by the hand and show you that you can.
yeah. quite meaningful. this does not mean that i think his singing is superior. ha.

i've been thinking alot about that person lately. and so i have decided to do mindnumbing stuff and chiong chinese book so that i forget.
but lately it has been to no avail.
spent the first half of the day reading the stupid book. and second half doing xizi for the next few ke. trying to be more hardworking.

whats wrong with 2L?
they're not bonded anymore, they're not supportive anymore.
there are VERY CLEAR UNBREAKABLE no-matter-what-people-do CLIQUES who seem to act superior and rarely acknowledge other ppl and would die if they were put in different groups which is why they're always together, [which pisses me off the MOST] and ppl keep fighting.
people, its 2LYSTRA, not "my-own-little-group".
think more of the class and less of yourselves PLEASE.
[i realize some ppl might be offended by this, but this is expressing my opinion. this is my space, and i have the right to express my opinion, so if you wanna complain, go ahead. if you wanna be pissed at me for it, then go ahead. if you wanna flame me at your blog, PLEASE DO.]

[this is most probably not related -.-]
when we asked if ppl can go band concert, nobody raised their hand.
and in the end only patrick and sarah and chityee are going.
and chityee wants to purposely fall asleep so we can refund her 10bucks.
walao. people who cannot appreciate music are noobs.
thats what me and sarah have concluded. and patrick said he was a noob right after. -.-

what is lystra becoming. from january 2008 to june 2009. i really hope our class was still the same as how we started. bonded, supportive, happy.
and not DIVIDED, IGNORANT.
6 months left, can we pick up the pieces?

with every step we climb another mountain, with every breath its harder to believe, you'll make it through the pain, weather the hurricanes, to get to that one thing.

i dont know why, but the best part of the day was when you talked to me.

Did well for trigo pop quiz.
Mrskoh said I got a few marks off full marks.
which is quite good.
I hope geometry saves me. Because my math sucks.
And i'm actually not that smart. how can i get 2 point something GPA in a class of pro-ers.
I think I'm one of the lowest standard in my class. Or THE lowest standard.

Stayed back for CIP ytd.
Quite fun yeah. Our class is supersick. Went to go draw a bikini-clad "sexy hawaiian lady".
I seriously think:
A) her shape is kinda screwed cos she looks fat and anorexic at the same time.
B) our design is waaay too inappropriate. tell me how to show this to primary kids.
haiz.
spamming blue was fun though.

Going to post more blackmail photos on the class blog.
I think a post-the-most-embarrassing-photo war has started.
and fel is losing.
by miles.

Tell me why they give us holiday homework when obviously holiday homework is an oxyMORON and makes no sense at all.
Sigh.
I'll be posting a lot more during the hols.
Esp pics of my cousin's trip to SG!
And rhythm XXIII. which is next week.
as i was reminded today, we still havent touched [or I] the other two songs [la storia and the anime medley?!].
i hope i dont screw it.
Class outing pics deserve to be posted too.
everyone's gonna be looking out for embarrassing photos of each other to post on their blogs.
Our class so wuliao. xD

I go post more another time.
My playlist is so dead.
Nvm.
<3 Carmen Suite. :P

The pain I endure, you're my cure, but my mistakes have led me far away from you.

spammage of david cook songs. -.-
oh no why is gen taking over muttons. o.o

really dont know what to feel today.
witnessed something shocking.
was almost alone in a weird situation.
somehow it felt so weird to finally be in school knowing i did all my work.
i need to get used to it.
prepared jap show and tell le.
its gonna suck.
i chionged daughtry cos someone else did david cook.
anyhow spam one.
i think i'll fail it.
oh well.

yeah. experienced this weird feeling sometime in the day that i didnt belong anywhere.
like i didnt fit in anywhere.
sometime today.
i dont know why suddenly feel like that, when obviously i have friends.
but still...
somehow.

lit circles was okay.
i chiong prepared. end up i got the same examples and had nothing to share.
seemed like i didnt do that day lor.
everyone was like, quiet. thinking: oh she didnt prepare.
i bet.
science openbook was okay. nothing special.
rs was normal. test ppl, be random. blahblahblah.

band was okay.
messed up a few parts, but it was okay.
going to try and leave earlier tmr so i can come sch earlier.
then can go down and prac with cass they all. yeah.

someone tell me how i should feel right now please. confused. for dunnowhat reason somemore.
my brain is so totally screwed.
dont even know how to explain. its no one's fault really.

i did it for you.

the new american idol 2009. -.-
so sad.
i was supporting adam.
this is because i believe that adam's singing is not just screaming, and that i believe that it took years of practice to perfect it and i am in awe.
and i dont care that he's too dramatic or gay.
"its like telling a cow not to moo." - simon cowell. -.-
wasnt obvious lol.

these past few days i tried to prac as much as i could.
came on wednesday. and thursday. and stayed supposedly 45 min later than i was supposed to.
luckily my dad didnt notice wahaha.
i just remembered that i was told to leave at 430 when i left. but maybe it was deliberate? xD
i dont care. i wanna prac as much as i can. cos my cousin is coming and she's damn hard to impress. so i must play awesomely.
that sounded gay.
oh oh oh. and i want to improve. [lol dont worry i didnt forget that. xD]
if only i didnt have thirdlang.

yesterday cass venus julia and i were laming about. we copied that rychittyfel way of saying hi indivually and then tgt in a gay voice.
it sickens me actually.
we were being so gay. the gayest i've ever seen venus and julia be.
which was actually very gay.
the bus was frikin late btw. like, 28 minutes after the first one.
thats insane.
they should organize chartered buses [158C xD] at that time for cca groups.
lol.

had a nice day out with my mom and sister today.
went to cathecism first ofcourse. learnt about that passage on when the 2 disciples didnt recognize jesus until he sat with them at the table and broke the bread which shows that you must have enough faith and that you only truly recognize jesus at mass and that the disciples were gundus. [quoted from my cathecist himself.]
then we went to tampines 1 to look at uniqlo. toobad we didnt buy anything.
after that we went to challenger and i stared at the hp pavillion notebook the whole time.
we got back super late, like seven.
so... yeah.

finished a bit of my part for history and computing.
i love my advantage on the immigrant bit. i can get like, 2 interviews in a day. [mom and dad. -.-]
computing is absolutely retarded. i'm doing it for cass and sarah's enjoyment i'm sure.
haha.
i'm gonna do xizi and hw and slack abit. :]

My open mind, feelings i cant reconcile.

1000 viewers!
lol. watch this:
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another nigahiga vid. -.-


american idol finale today.
kris allen vs adam lambert.
alot of ppl think adam lambert's gonna win.
but my mom he's not, cos he's gay. and americans dont like gays. -.-
an example would be clay aiken. o.o
finally got david cook's album a few days ago. :D
his songs rock. like avalanche, mr. sensitive, i did it for you, bar-ba-sol, come back to me, declaration. :]
i'm gonna listen to all the songs again and again cos i know its addictive.
i've already chucked them into my mp3 player so i can listen on the way to school. -.-

music tmr.
we randomly rehearsed today. using the tables.
i whacked until my hand bled.
then we went for band.
fullband was fun. listened to some nice stuff.
had langduke today for chinese. -.-
cass said my langdu improved.
but actually i cheated and anyhow wrote hanyupinyin so i wont screw EVERYTHING up.
i think trigo is quite easy. o.o
and mrskoh says boys find it easier.
somehow i find anything to do with geometry very easy.
like, sine, cosine and tangent are quite easy to master. [SOHCAHTOA. -.-]
i think this shall be the only part of math i can be good at.
cos algebra sucks.
but i think algebra will be put into trigo.
so i have to master algebra by then.
stupid algebra. -.-

going for sp again tmr.
and i got my full concert attire le.
even the court shoes and (stupid-looking) stockings slash pantyhose.
bring your cameras, people, i'll look really stupid.
managed to sell like, seven tix.
my family's quite big. and thats not even half of my family going. o.o
Random blogpost. -.-
i'm doing xizi.
its tiring. and i'm taking a break.
so... yeah.

class outing's 15 june at ECP.
hope its not boring [xD oh the irony]. at first it was on the 8th or something. but my cousin will be here, and my grandma. so... how to bring them. -.-

You turn away, from all the things that I've been trying to say.

the past few days were actually boring for once.
the class has sunk into an obsessed with restaurant city phase.
almost the whole class went to go get facebook just to play restaurant city. -.-

failed acc test as expected.
nothing much to worry about.
i have nothing to do with acc anyway.

went for band ytd at sevenfourtyfive.
came late, cos i missed the first bus.
i came running to the door, and i heard the seniors outside say i was blur.
actually i am, so...
came in late, nothing much happened.
i think full band is quite fun. i dont know if fun is the right word, but its more exciting then if i just stay in the classroom and prac while random stuff goes on.
going for fullband again tmr. from threethirty to six.

got my blazer today.
it looks big, but my mom keeps saying its perfect.
i dont know, its like, really long.
and my shoulders are huge. o.o
its shoulder padding, but still, very shocking.
i'm like, -puts on blazer and screams at the mirror-
-.-

played vball in pe today. -.-
our class is really screwed.
like, the ball flies into the air, quite high, and everyone screams and runs away.
then rongying is actually quite good at vball. its just... she keeps screaming, making weird faces, and refuses to touch the ball now. xD
haha. i suck too. got hit in the head three times, so i took off my specs. -.-
can see the same without them, just that further away is a bit more blur.
i dont need specs, see. just let me go lasik. -.-




-.- ChildrensBOP. yet another lame vid to keep this blog alive.

Take that sinking boat and point it home, we've still got time.

today's ptm went better than i thought.
[btw, if you're reading this, you're smart enough to scroll down.]
i've changed back to a scrolldown skin again.
so scroll down.
thankyou for your cooperation.


arrived at school abit late for me, but waay early for my mom.
so she had to wait cos school tour just closed when i reached. -.-
she registered with vivian.
took an idiot test on her phone. and passed on the first try.
super boring being an usher.
stand at the door, say: good morning, please sit in the middle column. thankyou.
at least can enjoy aircon. and watch patty do lame stuff like making his own soundeffects to belinda's hp games, and march on the spot going "left, left, left right left."
went to check on my mom and some SCs went up to her and were like:
oh do you want to join the school tour?
my mom just said: oh sure! in this happy voice. -.-

so my mom saw mrskoh, zhenglaoshi and mrtan.
mrskoh really told her some bad stuff. like:
why can sarah hand in and laura cannot?
and stuff like that. i dont know. she probably said something along the lines of:
she sucks at math. she's super lazy. she needs serious help. [at least she passed. but she still sucks, so yeah.]
she said something about i should really step up now, because i'm like one of the worst in class.
and she told my mom abt zongming.
said something about another "problem child".
sounds like i need mental institution.
actually i wouldnt mind going there cos my mind is like really screwed.

mrtan was like: oh she's very misunderstood cos she's very quiet.
wth. how do i seem quiet to him?!
i just sit there, talk to rongying, witness zhengjun and his horny boost, and listen to the teacher, or zone out. okay maybe i'm abit quiet.

zhenglaoshi told my mom i should get tuition cos i veh awkward at speaking chinese. and that i got a C. [hahaha yeeees i passed. -.- yeah right. as if i'm satisfied with myself.]
even when i told my mom why dont i eat a dictionary she still laughed.
when i speak chinese, everyone will laugh.
all the hanyupinyin will be wrong, and it will turn into another sentence alltogether.
i also must do all the yuedubuties even if not graded.
i need to improve.

i feel very pissed with myself.
my la was only "okay". cos ms chan wasnt around to collect our work most of the time.
how do i hand in.
i'm going to hand in everything when she comes back and hopefully, i'll get a good grade.
somemore i got THREE c's.
goodbye, good career.
jap is a waste of time. sit there for what, four hours, and get a B. if i get an A, i'll be totally surprised.
should have dropped thirdlang.
nevermind. i'll try and pull it up, then if one of my subjects happens to suck at the EOYs, i'll use jap as backup.

not in the mood to do anything.
i'm gonna go start on my history. and my science. and my math.
must file everything this semester.
so i get a good grade.
i'm gonna do it all
BY MYSELF.

i'll go off to listen to some angry rock music now. -.-
that's the only thing that calms me down nowadays.
and playing the guitar.
cos i get to whack the strings as loud as i can with the door closed playing some weird rock song and my mom and dad wont mind.

your subtleties, they strangle me, i can't explain myself at all. and all the wants, and all the needs, all i don't want to need at all.

can people reading this please do me a favour, and not mention the above word in front of me EVER.
i'm super depressed over my grades.
what makes it worse is that i hear ppl around me going: "OHSHIT I DIDNT GET AN APLUS. I'M GONNA MISS THREE POINT SIX."
i'm not pissed at them. but what they're saying demoralizes me even more.
i failed so many things, i dont get to say: "oh no! i missed out on aplus!"
instead i get to keep quiet while people talk about how they're only an a or b, while i'm stuck with f-ing C and Ds.
i can give up hope on that dream double science double humans third lang combo i've been hoping for.
i dont want physics. if i have to do physics, i will hang myself.
i'm dropping it. biochem is better. if all else fails i get to be a doctor. what do doctors need to know about physics.
i'm getting a job FAR away from math.
i'm gonna be a famous art-related person who makes something famous and gets rich.
huzzah,
if all else fails, i have my lame fallback.

GREEN DAY'S TWENTYFIRST CENTURY BREAKDOWN DROPPED TODAY.
i would buy it, but some ppl have said it has religion issues.
so i'll look for another buy-worthy album to spend my extra money on.

yearbook dropped yesterday.
stupid picture. i was blinking.
btw: overdue pictures i was supposed to post up:

vivian's pikachu cake. 3bucks.

embarrassing photo of fel. look at jc's face in the bg. -.-

RYJC. rongying is showing off her hubby. -.-

to be used for blackmaillll.

don't worry. all these will be posted on the class blog. -.-
i'm gonna go off to emo about my grades now.
and see if i can replace this blogskin.
i'm currently in the "changing blogskin" phase of the year.
it'll settle down soon.
here's warning ppl not to be shocked when they find that everytime they come here, the blogskin is different.
happy weekend. -how ironic-
STUPID PTM. GO AWAY.

sailing all alone i thought i made it home, but i threw it all away.

changed blogskin. -.-
found the other one too troublesome.
many people (yeah i'm talking about you rongying) found it troublesome to scroll down past the music thing.
so.... the posts are right on top.
its a plain thing.
but i like it.

so dont fault me for it.
i've successfully finished my chinese file and the dump of hw i owe zhenglaoshi. clean slate huh.
ohshit. now i have to bother about math.
stupid math.
all those freaking assignments. no wonder the short form is mathass.

this semester confirm low gpa.
D for math (for now), C for chinese and geog.
hooray.
i'll just try way harder next semester.
i'm gonna do everything without procrastinating lor.
except now. where i'm updating my blog.
it takes about 5 minutes only, so... why not.
i need a-pluses for the rest to pull something off. jap is bleh. at least an A please?

dammit.
i'm gonna go think of ways to improve my grades next semester.
so i get into a good class.
"do you want to get into 3A?" that was what zhenglaoshi said to me.
i dont. i want to try hard.
if only i'd thought of that in the first place.
why am i so stupid.

These scars we wear remind us, the more we change the more we stay the same.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VIVIAN.
You know your slave remembers you. -.-

i think this word is used playfully, but i think i am EPICFAIL.
stupid math. stupid chinese. stupid geog.
i'm never gonna get into a good class now.
stupid jap too. i deproved by ALOT ALOT. i used to be up there with rongying. but know i'm in the lower middle section. -.-
anyway, i dont care, cos i'm dropping out in college. -.-

today was darn retarded la.
took weird pictures, and iris took random vids of rongying the "retarded" species of animal, who is the only animal who walk backwards.
apparently this species of animal preys on jian chongs at night, in their bedroom, with counter strike blasting in the bg.
"FIRE IN THE HOLE." "FALL BACK, FALL BACK." "COVER ME, I'M GOING IN."
vandalized ry's jap textbook, like we always do.
the lame people in the jap class J2.14...

today is vernon's birthday. the dj on muttons.
lol. i was listening at midnight, when soo came in and they were like "happy birthday soo! bla bla bla, oh wait its midnight now, so now its vernon's birthday!" -.-
LAME.
so... yeah.

i'm gonna go chiong chinese file then interview my mom for hist.
hope my history can salvage good marks. :]
my gpa is screwed.
-PWNED- [btw, is it p-owned or pee-you-ned?! nigahiga says its powned, but cass says otherwise.]
OHWHATTHEHECK.
saw fel with a bunch of sec one kids walking out of sch today.
the whole bunch of 2L ppl, plus some sec ones in front of us [who also knew THIRI], were laughing abt it.
like, "omg is that fel?! what is she doing with all those guys?! is that her bf?!'
yeah. imagine it.
and we saw thiri and jianchong walk by too. jianchong saw us as the bus pulled away from sch. we were like, "ooh look jianchong!" and jianchong saw us and waved. o.o
i think he was mesmerized by rongying.
haha.
going to chiong chinese file, and NOT CARE about ACC, because it has NO FRIKIN RELATION TO ME WHATSOEVER, so whattheheck i can go fail it.

Laying low, holding on to what I don't want to know, till the daylight turns to ash and blows away.

Instructions:
Place your iTunes on shuffle and take the first 25 songs you get.
Post a lyric from each of the songs and get your friends to guess the song and artist/e.
No cheating with lyric searches.
Then tag others.

1. i've practised this for hours, gone round and round, and now i think that i've got it all down.
2. i dreamed i was missing, you were so scared.
3. take it back to the place where you know it all began, we could be anything we wanna be.
4. if you want me to wait, I will wait for you.
5. take a breath, i pull myself together, just another step until i reach the door.
6. you spin my head right round, right round. [COME ON, HOW OBVIOUS IS THIS.]
7. in the night i hear them talk, coldest story ever told.
8. i got that hit that beat the block, you can get that bass overload.
9. i bet you would've paid up or you'll cash down. (the first line's too obvious. -.-)
10. you could have knocked me out with a ... feather.
11. and i'd give up forever to touch you, cause i know that you feel the same now.
12. i'm gonna make you bend and break (it sent you to me without wings)
13. go ahead as you waste your days with thinking.
14. you say you gotta go and find yourself, you say that you're becoming someone else.
15. whatcha gonna do with all that junk, all that junk inside that trunk. (CASS LOL YOU KNOW THIS. xD)
16. let me know that i've done wrong, when i've known this all along.
17. they told him don't you ever come around here.
18. has it ever crossed your mind, something happened for the first time.
19. waiting for your... call i'm sick, call i'm angry.
20. when i woke up i could see, the daylight had already passed me.
21. i took a ride on a february morning, just getting over it and dealing with the morning.
22. soft kiss and wine what a pretty friend of mine.
23. am i more than you bargained for yet?
24. well if you wanted honesty thats all you had to say.
25. today is a winding road, its taken me to places that i didnt want to go.

YAY. have fun guessing man.
wahaha.

okay, on special request from cass, here's a list of nice stuff about her:
she's really funny, she's really happy, she's serious when i need her to be, she's so zilian i just have to love her for it, she's really helpful, she's a great friend, she's always there when i need her, she gives good advice when i need it, she's always look past my shortcomings no matter what, she gives good contributions in groups (but doesnt get credited for it), she's really fun to be around, without her i wouldn't have any (more than one? xD) real genuine friends in the class so i'm really thankful for that, she's got good work attitude too (and isnt credited for it), she's ALWAYS happy (i never see her angry without laughing about it after), she never holds a grudge (for long?), and she rocks.

i dont need to rack my brains to find these, why does everyone have to think so hard? i mean, its really obvious.
she's really awesome, and people should see that.
CASS SHOULD HAVE MORE CONFIDENCE IN HERSELF. :]
yay.

(there's enough lyrics on top, i dont need one at the bottom xD)
MUSIC FTW. :D

EDIT:
more nigahiga vids for you to enjoy. -.-



Word of the day - pwned



ShamWOOHOO!

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY! :D

had a mothers day blessing at church. :]
yeah. went to bakerzin with mom and family today.
then we roamed around tampines 1 looking for shoes xD
my sister told me about a freak "this-worker-fell-off-the-roof" accident, but i couldnt find a hole in the roof, so...
i got a shock when i saw david cook in skechers. as in the ad. -.-
my parents were busy shopping for mothers day, so i didnt bring up the fact that 21st century breakdown is in stores and i want it real bad. xD
i shall pester for the july 3 daughtry album release. their first song, no surprise, is already so darn nice.
went to converse and got another shock when i saw a blue electric guitar on display. i almost stole it. xD
joking.
i find it weird that my mom wants to watch house bunny. i was abit freaked out at first, but i figured it must be perfectly normal. i think. o.o
according to cass i made her cry last night again.
i should stop talking to her or else she cry somemore. -.-
nobody could think of nice things about her lor. and i made a list. so... :D

As I say it louder I love how it sounds, cos I'm not taking the easy way out.

friday was absolutely gay.
yeah. i dont remember exactly what happened.
we were spending science being lame, catching pondskaters, and observing the cute little worm thing chingying scooped up from the field.
it's name's fuply. (that's foo-plea) -.-
the rest of the day was gay too.
got back my math results.
the results were totally unexpected. 11/30.
you may hold your applause.
this all equals to: one damn lousy GPA.
again, hold your applause.

i'll try harder next semester. maybe the chance of getting into an SBGE class is close to zero.
oh well. for four years i've been in the GE thing. i think if i go into a non SBGE class, the stress is lesser?
but still try to get in. i mean, i want that doublescience doublehumans.
maybe i'll drop thirdlang.
hm. mrschu had a point in saying, "if you cant handle the main stuff, dont do the extra stuff."
i'm a total GE FAIL. -claps-

thursday was absolutely gay too, with cass's high-pitched "Hi!"
it turned out in the afternoon, when i wanted to sp, the band room was locked. -.-
so i had to waste my time in the classroom. surfed lame nigahiga stuff with sarah.

LOL. i am greatly indebted to two wonderfully awesome people.
you know who you are. without your help, one of my subjects would be going downhill along with chinesemathgeog.
they stayed up so late with me just to ensure i finished what i was supposed to do.
wonderfully awesome.
thank you.

i've recently become obsessed with david cook songs all over again.
they're quite nice. and the lyrics are kindof meaningful.
for heroes.
and they kindof suit my mood. :D
i need his album lol. and to go for his concert which is in a week. -.- PHILIPPINES MALL OF ASIA CONCERT GROUNDS MAN. i was just there last december.
i need to buy a plane ticket there again. xD
obviously i'm joking. if my parents allow it i've gone crazy
i'll beg my cousins to go and help me get autograph. wahaha.
I'm not gonna come down, down off of these clouds. :D

dammit. life is so freaking boring nowadays.
there's nothing meaningful to post. somemore no level camp, sigh.
i think i'm crazy, but sparkC was really one of the most memorable camps ever. so i'm in love with adventure camps.
many ppl were complaining about level camp. at least its not at st johns island, like last year's.
i suddenly have a lot of admiration for last year's year twos. -.-
i want level camp back.
i just hope jap show and tell's not gonna be pushed forward cos of this. i'm happy with my show and tell being in a month. dont ruin it. xD

I feel sick, I feel nervous, I know just what I did to deserve this, though i know its not a dream.

Why Chris Brown beat up Rihanna. :D

didnt go to school today.
woke up, my ankle was all swollen, so my mom told me i should stay at home and rest.
had an okay day... spent it doing lit circles, revising math, and doing hotpots. -.-
i'm totally scared for my math. actually, no, i know how its gonna turn out. FAIL. yup, just like everything else so far. -.- how cliched.
oh well. try harder next time?
level camp is cancelled. at least thats what i heard. was kinda looking forward to it, considering how much i adored SparkC in p5. -.-

lol. american idol's enough excitement for me today.
going back to school tmr. i dont know if i'll be able to climb the stairs, but if the lift's not working, i'll try.
i actually wanted to go to school today, but considering how much pain went into putting my foot into my shoe, uh.
i have to go to sch tmr, to do lit circles? xD
haha. i think cass would go into depression if i didnt go tmr, so... yup.
i can walk, dont worry.

Sing it with me, sing for the year, sing for the laughter, sing for the tear. Dream on.

had a stupid day today.
worst day of the week really.
yeah, to start off with, we had a stupid math test. i'm gonna fail it. that stupid question everyone didnt know how to do, and the others where i completely screwed up.
played capt ball for pe. yeah i'm used to not playing [i know i suck :P], but what i really enjoyed was rongying's outbursts of "AAAAAAH!" and when she finally caught the ball, "BALL BALL BALL BALL."
yeah, then chinese sucked. got back test. i'm not gonna care about who knows my grades. 32half. worst ever.
geog also must get C, which really made up the worst day of this week.
i'm gonna take history, i'm not caring anymore.
you know, when ppl around you are all: "oh dammit, i missed a plus by a few stinkin marks!" and bury their head in their arms all depressed.
yeah, i would wish for just a B right now.
and a PASS for chinese, to just UNDERSTAND a bit of the tiankong.

then stupid thirdlang had to come along. listening was suckish. abit of it, of course listening is my strength [-.-], but then that time i also very blur.
i felt like sleeping. i missed the first time the qn was played cos i wasnt paying attention.
then i had to rely on one hearing. which is totally unreliable.
then on the way back the stupid step had to trip me.
twisted my freaking ankle, and had a bunch of nicenice ppl to stay and put ice on my foot. i love iris for that. it didnt hurt so much, i was just in shock for a while, short of breath.

worst day ever? i dont think so yet. there's plenty more stuff to fail.
and i think i'll find myself even more disappointed then. so, for now. i'm not caring about the past and just moving on.

yeah, just to reassure cass, who felt guilty for not staying behind, you still called, and that counts too. :D
and you said "GET WELL SOON!" at least eight times. along with "i'm in the lift."

NUMB - Linkin Park
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless
Lost under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow
Just caught in the undertow)

Every step that I take is
Another mistake to you
I've Become so numb
I can't feel you there
Become so tired
So much more awake
I'm becoming this
All I want to do
Is be more like me
And be less like you

Can't you see that you're smothering me
Holding too tightly
Afraid to lose control
'Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you
(Caught in the undertow
Just caught in the undertow)

Every step that I take is
Another mistake to you

(Caught in the undertow
Just caught in the undertow)

And every second I waste
Is more than I can take
But I know I may end up falling too
But I know You were just like me
With someone disappointed in you

yeah, its really numb. -.- i'm not emo, i'm just reflective.
and yeah, this song does describe the mood. i'm not emo.

finally posting again.
my blog's been dead for the past week.
long holiday. hope i accomplished enough.
who cares.
yeah. never posted about 2.4 i think.
improved a bunch from mock, but not enough to get C.
but even with C, my shuttle run and pullups still barely missed a C, so i'm settling for a silver this year.
don't really care for napfa as much, as long as my academics are okay, i'm happy.
i think.

speech day [aka cip at queenstown pri] was very very lame.
i reached late and had to listen to cass talking about linmin being pregnant. o_o
then we walked to queenstown pri, and cass [being blur, as she is] almost got us lost
i'm to blame for following her, anyway.
then we set up in a room of primary twos going "pop those, pop those, pop those bubbles"
and i was supposed to present a ppt along with cass, who was very lonely. xD
so we did our thing. [that sounds wrong, but who cares]
and we met a few outstanding people.
like some guy who kept falling off his chair. [i hope you're reading this, iris.]
and some guy who burped so darn loud. [same to you, rongying.]
and some girl named cass who was proclaimed to be exactly like the bigger cass in almost every way.
yeah. primarytwos are cute. and small. and fun.
they're so enthu.
i'm taken aback by it haha. you rarely see sectwos going, "I KNOW THE ANSWER PICK ME!" in an excited voice. [okay, maybe jianchong.]
i stole some candy at the end of it, then spent some time hobo-ing at seveneleven with cass and melvin and linmin and belinda. [when he said dont bully my "mei" i thought he said maid. -.-]
linmin and belinda were doing lame stuff like looking at FHM. -.-
and melvin cass and i were spamming mashed potato.
bought a stupid slurpee and had to hide it to go on the train in a plastic bag cos not allowed mah.
i owe melvin tenbucks. -.-

then labour day was fun too.

went to my aunt's SUPERBIG new house onefloor below her sch for special kids.
its superbig and fully aircon. spent a whole lot of time in my personal little corner playing with the internet and eating potato chips.
played with my baby cousin too. he's now two and a half months old i think, and yeah, very cute.
i'm gonna stay at my aunt's house one day.
and have my bday party there. and volunteer some class party there too.
lol. its really superbig.

hope this week is okay enough.
need to chiong book review. read the book, so i must chiong out some lame review thing.
yeah. i'm gonna slack a while more i think.
i never have enough motivation. -.-

And her diamonds bring me down, cos i can't help her now.

omg that name freaks me out so much when chingying says it.

havent posted in like, days. so i think a good way to start it is by posting about cass.
and then posting something else so her post gets pushed down. xD
so mean right. i'm joking. but i need to post sometime.








cass and me at queenstown primary. forgot my stupid hairband so i look like some freak.
[stole from cass's blog xD]
Okay, yeah.
Thanks cass, for all the retarded times we shared together. I remember thinking you were intimidating last year at the beginning of 08, i mean, how stupid was that. and discovering how sick you were and your love for balls. and you demanding me and rongying to come down during break every tuesday and thursday last year during third lang so you'll have some form of entertainment. and the gallery walks we had on the way to the mrt station lol. i remember that was the year people kept talking about twilight and i was in the corner being extra cos i didnt read yet. :D then in 2009 i dont know how i became your slave too, and i was suddenly a double-you and you named me after your crumpler, and we became best friends (?). and uh. you loved bullying me and touching my "stomach", and i'll forever treasure those lame times in the 158 bus where you'd laugh like some kind of idiot while telling me funny stuff. and buying you drinks after PE. yeah. you're a great friend who's always there when i need help, and you're always entertaining.
so THANKS. :D
and yeah, like i wrote for sarah:
you + me = ohmygoshabsolutenightmaregetawayfromme.
have fun reading that. :D

When you see my face, hope it gives you hell, hope it gives you hell.
Cos seeing your face DOES give me hell. xD

i think i slacked for the past morning.
i was spam-learning songs on the guitar.
and so i did nothing else.
but go to church.
my cousin and i are having a who-knows-how-to-play-more-songs war.
so i spammed. she's coming on wed and i have 2 days left.
i think i'll need to learn a few solos too.
and hunt for a new string for my classical.
one is almost broken.
i've kinda accepted the fact that i have to learn acoustic and classical before i get the dream electric.
maybe this december 3rd?

band tmr at 745. i have to give my dad whoever's-in-charge's number.
so that he can call, and i'll be able to go for the rest of band camp. -.-
turns out just nice i'm not going on the day weiting's going, so... good luck to her. just realized she'll be alone. o.o jiayou. xD dont often get a chance to see my relatives [tell me how we can yearly or even monthly save up for a trip to the phil when we're not that RICH], so i have to go and pick them up.
should be around the same as normal school days. and i thought i could sleep in.
i hope scales dont get tested, cos i cant do scales. only major. theres minor too. i've already got like, a shitload of stuff to do to catch up to everyone else.
6 days to concert. hope i do well.

i need to grow.
vertically and horizontally.
i'm like, 10kg underweight and i'm getting braces next week.
how am i gonna handle it.
i have to sleep more, so that when i come back to sch ppl will stop saying i'm short.
actually they dont, so...
still need to go. my mom said weight training helps. -.- add more muscle weight?
so i'll go borrow my mom's weights and train.

i have to read more of my chinese book.
its quite interesting. i think i should read more english translated to chinese books, cos i can search the story online easily, then i can focus on learning the vocab.
so smart right.
and nat geo. and la essay. so i can put LA behind and focus on math and chinese and geog.
i'm gonna study every single day during the hols and i dont care if my cousin is here.
i'm gonna read stuff. and then go online and read chinese news?!
so i can learn both the defs and the writing.
asking my mom to buy me math assessment books. -.-
though i dont think it will help. i need to check first which ones include algebra and the stupid stuff i failed in the first half.
either that or i'll redo all my worksheets and my workbook.
really have to buck up.
or else i'll be stuck in a loser class. and certain ppl will start making fun of me cos they always do.

i dont know if i'm going out today to the library.
8books = 4booksextra to be borrowed.
i'm gonna borrow those lamelame books. i need entertainment. when i'm not studying.
i'll take that chance to look for another cass's bday gift.
if not, i'll have to give her mine. o.o which is way too small. and is plain, so i dunno if she'll like it.
sigh.
what if overdue. o.o
cass'll kill me. oh well. i'll try my best.

this blog is seriously dead. nobody bothers to tag. screw them all. -.-

[edit] wow, super-caffeinated today. i didnt even drink any coffee. -.- this is a random edit lol.

Created by OnePlusYou
lol. thankyou chocolate? -.-
love green day's new song. 21 guns. heard it on "whats new" on 987. this just shows how little of a life i have that my sunday afternoon is spent looking out for new songs on the radio.
i got no life. [/edit]

One, 21 guns, lay down your arms, give up the fight.
Can we still be saved?

tags replied to blogs. i'm spamming my own tagboard. -.-

it's finally the holidays.
and my mood has finally lifted.
listened to some rock songs last night.
[DAVID COOK IS SO NOT BORING, WEITING. so unappreciative. -.- david cook pwns david archuleta idontcare.]
i found some meaningful lyrics and so i stopped brooding over my lost grades.
and have decided to look to the future.
and forget about the past.

on june 2 is my twin cousins' bday. turning seven. [supposed to be impt milestone.]
on june 3 my cousin and grandma are coming over. and its cass's bday. -.-
june 1, june 2, and june 4 i'm going for band camp.
june 5 is free.
june 6 is rhythm xxiii.
june 10 is the day i'm going to get referral for braces.
somewhere in june i'm getting my hair cut [and layered. -.-]
i cant cut my own hair, unlike SOMEONE. [not you, cass.]

dunno why i just posted my holiday sched online.
and i have to find time to buy cass a new gift. cos i realized there's smth wrong with it and so i returned it. sigh.
what if i dont give it to cass in time.
latest by sch reopens, cass. and if i do give it when school reopens, i'll add an extra thing.

posted more blackmail pics on the class blog as i said i would.
i'm not posting them here cos that person doesnt even COME here and when she does, never TAGS.
so i shall ignore her.

i dont know why, when i'm supporting/supported adam, that i'm obsessed with no boundaries. -.-
sigh. identity crisis?
the lyrics are quite meaningful for me?
just when you think the road is going nowhere, just when you almost gave up on your dreams, they take you by the hand and show you that you can.
yeah. quite meaningful. this does not mean that i think his singing is superior. ha.

i've been thinking alot about that person lately. and so i have decided to do mindnumbing stuff and chiong chinese book so that i forget.
but lately it has been to no avail.
spent the first half of the day reading the stupid book. and second half doing xizi for the next few ke. trying to be more hardworking.

whats wrong with 2L?
they're not bonded anymore, they're not supportive anymore.
there are VERY CLEAR UNBREAKABLE no-matter-what-people-do CLIQUES who seem to act superior and rarely acknowledge other ppl and would die if they were put in different groups which is why they're always together, [which pisses me off the MOST] and ppl keep fighting.
people, its 2LYSTRA, not "my-own-little-group".
think more of the class and less of yourselves PLEASE.
[i realize some ppl might be offended by this, but this is expressing my opinion. this is my space, and i have the right to express my opinion, so if you wanna complain, go ahead. if you wanna be pissed at me for it, then go ahead. if you wanna flame me at your blog, PLEASE DO.]

[this is most probably not related -.-]
when we asked if ppl can go band concert, nobody raised their hand.
and in the end only patrick and sarah and chityee are going.
and chityee wants to purposely fall asleep so we can refund her 10bucks.
walao. people who cannot appreciate music are noobs.
thats what me and sarah have concluded. and patrick said he was a noob right after. -.-

what is lystra becoming. from january 2008 to june 2009. i really hope our class was still the same as how we started. bonded, supportive, happy.
and not DIVIDED, IGNORANT.
6 months left, can we pick up the pieces?

with every step we climb another mountain, with every breath its harder to believe, you'll make it through the pain, weather the hurricanes, to get to that one thing.

i dont know why, but the best part of the day was when you talked to me.

Did well for trigo pop quiz.
Mrskoh said I got a few marks off full marks.
which is quite good.
I hope geometry saves me. Because my math sucks.
And i'm actually not that smart. how can i get 2 point something GPA in a class of pro-ers.
I think I'm one of the lowest standard in my class. Or THE lowest standard.

Stayed back for CIP ytd.
Quite fun yeah. Our class is supersick. Went to go draw a bikini-clad "sexy hawaiian lady".
I seriously think:
A) her shape is kinda screwed cos she looks fat and anorexic at the same time.
B) our design is waaay too inappropriate. tell me how to show this to primary kids.
haiz.
spamming blue was fun though.

Going to post more blackmail photos on the class blog.
I think a post-the-most-embarrassing-photo war has started.
and fel is losing.
by miles.

Tell me why they give us holiday homework when obviously holiday homework is an oxyMORON and makes no sense at all.
Sigh.
I'll be posting a lot more during the hols.
Esp pics of my cousin's trip to SG!
And rhythm XXIII. which is next week.
as i was reminded today, we still havent touched [or I] the other two songs [la storia and the anime medley?!].
i hope i dont screw it.
Class outing pics deserve to be posted too.
everyone's gonna be looking out for embarrassing photos of each other to post on their blogs.
Our class so wuliao. xD

I go post more another time.
My playlist is so dead.
Nvm.
<3 Carmen Suite. :P

The pain I endure, you're my cure, but my mistakes have led me far away from you.

spammage of david cook songs. -.-
oh no why is gen taking over muttons. o.o

really dont know what to feel today.
witnessed something shocking.
was almost alone in a weird situation.
somehow it felt so weird to finally be in school knowing i did all my work.
i need to get used to it.
prepared jap show and tell le.
its gonna suck.
i chionged daughtry cos someone else did david cook.
anyhow spam one.
i think i'll fail it.
oh well.

yeah. experienced this weird feeling sometime in the day that i didnt belong anywhere.
like i didnt fit in anywhere.
sometime today.
i dont know why suddenly feel like that, when obviously i have friends.
but still...
somehow.

lit circles was okay.
i chiong prepared. end up i got the same examples and had nothing to share.
seemed like i didnt do that day lor.
everyone was like, quiet. thinking: oh she didnt prepare.
i bet.
science openbook was okay. nothing special.
rs was normal. test ppl, be random. blahblahblah.

band was okay.
messed up a few parts, but it was okay.
going to try and leave earlier tmr so i can come sch earlier.
then can go down and prac with cass they all. yeah.

someone tell me how i should feel right now please. confused. for dunnowhat reason somemore.
my brain is so totally screwed.
dont even know how to explain. its no one's fault really.

i did it for you.

the new american idol 2009. -.-
so sad.
i was supporting adam.
this is because i believe that adam's singing is not just screaming, and that i believe that it took years of practice to perfect it and i am in awe.
and i dont care that he's too dramatic or gay.
"its like telling a cow not to moo." - simon cowell. -.-
wasnt obvious lol.

these past few days i tried to prac as much as i could.
came on wednesday. and thursday. and stayed supposedly 45 min later than i was supposed to.
luckily my dad didnt notice wahaha.
i just remembered that i was told to leave at 430 when i left. but maybe it was deliberate? xD
i dont care. i wanna prac as much as i can. cos my cousin is coming and she's damn hard to impress. so i must play awesomely.
that sounded gay.
oh oh oh. and i want to improve. [lol dont worry i didnt forget that. xD]
if only i didnt have thirdlang.

yesterday cass venus julia and i were laming about. we copied that rychittyfel way of saying hi indivually and then tgt in a gay voice.
it sickens me actually.
we were being so gay. the gayest i've ever seen venus and julia be.
which was actually very gay.
the bus was frikin late btw. like, 28 minutes after the first one.
thats insane.
they should organize chartered buses [158C xD] at that time for cca groups.
lol.

had a nice day out with my mom and sister today.
went to cathecism first ofcourse. learnt about that passage on when the 2 disciples didnt recognize jesus until he sat with them at the table and broke the bread which shows that you must have enough faith and that you only truly recognize jesus at mass and that the disciples were gundus. [quoted from my cathecist himself.]
then we went to tampines 1 to look at uniqlo. toobad we didnt buy anything.
after that we went to challenger and i stared at the hp pavillion notebook the whole time.
we got back super late, like seven.
so... yeah.

finished a bit of my part for history and computing.
i love my advantage on the immigrant bit. i can get like, 2 interviews in a day. [mom and dad. -.-]
computing is absolutely retarded. i'm doing it for cass and sarah's enjoyment i'm sure.
haha.
i'm gonna do xizi and hw and slack abit. :]

My open mind, feelings i cant reconcile.

1000 viewers!
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another nigahiga vid. -.-


american idol finale today.
kris allen vs adam lambert.
alot of ppl think adam lambert's gonna win.
but my mom he's not, cos he's gay. and americans dont like gays. -.-
an example would be clay aiken. o.o
finally got david cook's album a few days ago. :D
his songs rock. like avalanche, mr. sensitive, i did it for you, bar-ba-sol, come back to me, declaration. :]
i'm gonna listen to all the songs again and again cos i know its addictive.
i've already chucked them into my mp3 player so i can listen on the way to school. -.-

music tmr.
we randomly rehearsed today. using the tables.
i whacked until my hand bled.
then we went for band.
fullband was fun. listened to some nice stuff.
had langduke today for chinese. -.-
cass said my langdu improved.
but actually i cheated and anyhow wrote hanyupinyin so i wont screw EVERYTHING up.
i think trigo is quite easy. o.o
and mrskoh says boys find it easier.
somehow i find anything to do with geometry very easy.
like, sine, cosine and tangent are quite easy to master. [SOHCAHTOA. -.-]
i think this shall be the only part of math i can be good at.
cos algebra sucks.
but i think algebra will be put into trigo.
so i have to master algebra by then.
stupid algebra. -.-

going for sp again tmr.
and i got my full concert attire le.
even the court shoes and (stupid-looking) stockings slash pantyhose.
bring your cameras, people, i'll look really stupid.
managed to sell like, seven tix.
my family's quite big. and thats not even half of my family going. o.o
Random blogpost. -.-
i'm doing xizi.
its tiring. and i'm taking a break.
so... yeah.

class outing's 15 june at ECP.
hope its not boring [xD oh the irony]. at first it was on the 8th or something. but my cousin will be here, and my grandma. so... how to bring them. -.-

You turn away, from all the things that I've been trying to say.

the past few days were actually boring for once.
the class has sunk into an obsessed with restaurant city phase.
almost the whole class went to go get facebook just to play restaurant city. -.-

failed acc test as expected.
nothing much to worry about.
i have nothing to do with acc anyway.

went for band ytd at sevenfourtyfive.
came late, cos i missed the first bus.
i came running to the door, and i heard the seniors outside say i was blur.
actually i am, so...
came in late, nothing much happened.
i think full band is quite fun. i dont know if fun is the right word, but its more exciting then if i just stay in the classroom and prac while random stuff goes on.
going for fullband again tmr. from threethirty to six.

got my blazer today.
it looks big, but my mom keeps saying its perfect.
i dont know, its like, really long.
and my shoulders are huge. o.o
its shoulder padding, but still, very shocking.
i'm like, -puts on blazer and screams at the mirror-
-.-

played vball in pe today. -.-
our class is really screwed.
like, the ball flies into the air, quite high, and everyone screams and runs away.
then rongying is actually quite good at vball. its just... she keeps screaming, making weird faces, and refuses to touch the ball now. xD
haha. i suck too. got hit in the head three times, so i took off my specs. -.-
can see the same without them, just that further away is a bit more blur.
i dont need specs, see. just let me go lasik. -.-




-.- ChildrensBOP. yet another lame vid to keep this blog alive.

Take that sinking boat and point it home, we've still got time.

today's ptm went better than i thought.
[btw, if you're reading this, you're smart enough to scroll down.]
i've changed back to a scrolldown skin again.
so scroll down.
thankyou for your cooperation.


arrived at school abit late for me, but waay early for my mom.
so she had to wait cos school tour just closed when i reached. -.-
she registered with vivian.
took an idiot test on her phone. and passed on the first try.
super boring being an usher.
stand at the door, say: good morning, please sit in the middle column. thankyou.
at least can enjoy aircon. and watch patty do lame stuff like making his own soundeffects to belinda's hp games, and march on the spot going "left, left, left right left."
went to check on my mom and some SCs went up to her and were like:
oh do you want to join the school tour?
my mom just said: oh sure! in this happy voice. -.-

so my mom saw mrskoh, zhenglaoshi and mrtan.
mrskoh really told her some bad stuff. like:
why can sarah hand in and laura cannot?
and stuff like that. i dont know. she probably said something along the lines of:
she sucks at math. she's super lazy. she needs serious help. [at least she passed. but she still sucks, so yeah.]
she said something about i should really step up now, because i'm like one of the worst in class.
and she told my mom abt zongming.
said something about another "problem child".
sounds like i need mental institution.
actually i wouldnt mind going there cos my mind is like really screwed.

mrtan was like: oh she's very misunderstood cos she's very quiet.
wth. how do i seem quiet to him?!
i just sit there, talk to rongying, witness zhengjun and his horny boost, and listen to the teacher, or zone out. okay maybe i'm abit quiet.

zhenglaoshi told my mom i should get tuition cos i veh awkward at speaking chinese. and that i got a C. [hahaha yeeees i passed. -.- yeah right. as if i'm satisfied with myself.]
even when i told my mom why dont i eat a dictionary she still laughed.
when i speak chinese, everyone will laugh.
all the hanyupinyin will be wrong, and it will turn into another sentence alltogether.
i also must do all the yuedubuties even if not graded.
i need to improve.

i feel very pissed with myself.
my la was only "okay". cos ms chan wasnt around to collect our work most of the time.
how do i hand in.
i'm going to hand in everything when she comes back and hopefully, i'll get a good grade.
somemore i got THREE c's.
goodbye, good career.
jap is a waste of time. sit there for what, four hours, and get a B. if i get an A, i'll be totally surprised.
should have dropped thirdlang.
nevermind. i'll try and pull it up, then if one of my subjects happens to suck at the EOYs, i'll use jap as backup.

not in the mood to do anything.
i'm gonna go start on my history. and my science. and my math.
must file everything this semester.
so i get a good grade.
i'm gonna do it all
BY MYSELF.

i'll go off to listen to some angry rock music now. -.-
that's the only thing that calms me down nowadays.
and playing the guitar.
cos i get to whack the strings as loud as i can with the door closed playing some weird rock song and my mom and dad wont mind.

your subtleties, they strangle me, i can't explain myself at all. and all the wants, and all the needs, all i don't want to need at all.

can people reading this please do me a favour, and not mention the above word in front of me EVER.
i'm super depressed over my grades.
what makes it worse is that i hear ppl around me going: "OHSHIT I DIDNT GET AN APLUS. I'M GONNA MISS THREE POINT SIX."
i'm not pissed at them. but what they're saying demoralizes me even more.
i failed so many things, i dont get to say: "oh no! i missed out on aplus!"
instead i get to keep quiet while people talk about how they're only an a or b, while i'm stuck with f-ing C and Ds.
i can give up hope on that dream double science double humans third lang combo i've been hoping for.
i dont want physics. if i have to do physics, i will hang myself.
i'm dropping it. biochem is better. if all else fails i get to be a doctor. what do doctors need to know about physics.
i'm getting a job FAR away from math.
i'm gonna be a famous art-related person who makes something famous and gets rich.
huzzah,
if all else fails, i have my lame fallback.

GREEN DAY'S TWENTYFIRST CENTURY BREAKDOWN DROPPED TODAY.
i would buy it, but some ppl have said it has religion issues.
so i'll look for another buy-worthy album to spend my extra money on.

yearbook dropped yesterday.
stupid picture. i was blinking.
btw: overdue pictures i was supposed to post up:

vivian's pikachu cake. 3bucks.

embarrassing photo of fel. look at jc's face in the bg. -.-

RYJC. rongying is showing off her hubby. -.-

to be used for blackmaillll.

don't worry. all these will be posted on the class blog. -.-
i'm gonna go off to emo about my grades now.
and see if i can replace this blogskin.
i'm currently in the "changing blogskin" phase of the year.
it'll settle down soon.
here's warning ppl not to be shocked when they find that everytime they come here, the blogskin is different.
happy weekend. -how ironic-
STUPID PTM. GO AWAY.

sailing all alone i thought i made it home, but i threw it all away.

changed blogskin. -.-
found the other one too troublesome.
many people (yeah i'm talking about you rongying) found it troublesome to scroll down past the music thing.
so.... the posts are right on top.
its a plain thing.
but i like it.

so dont fault me for it.
i've successfully finished my chinese file and the dump of hw i owe zhenglaoshi. clean slate huh.
ohshit. now i have to bother about math.
stupid math.
all those freaking assignments. no wonder the short form is mathass.

this semester confirm low gpa.
D for math (for now), C for chinese and geog.
hooray.
i'll just try way harder next semester.
i'm gonna do everything without procrastinating lor.
except now. where i'm updating my blog.
it takes about 5 minutes only, so... why not.
i need a-pluses for the rest to pull something off. jap is bleh. at least an A please?

dammit.
i'm gonna go think of ways to improve my grades next semester.
so i get into a good class.
"do you want to get into 3A?" that was what zhenglaoshi said to me.
i dont. i want to try hard.
if only i'd thought of that in the first place.
why am i so stupid.

These scars we wear remind us, the more we change the more we stay the same.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VIVIAN.
You know your slave remembers you. -.-

i think this word is used playfully, but i think i am EPICFAIL.
stupid math. stupid chinese. stupid geog.
i'm never gonna get into a good class now.
stupid jap too. i deproved by ALOT ALOT. i used to be up there with rongying. but know i'm in the lower middle section. -.-
anyway, i dont care, cos i'm dropping out in college. -.-

today was darn retarded la.
took weird pictures, and iris took random vids of rongying the "retarded" species of animal, who is the only animal who walk backwards.
apparently this species of animal preys on jian chongs at night, in their bedroom, with counter strike blasting in the bg.
"FIRE IN THE HOLE." "FALL BACK, FALL BACK." "COVER ME, I'M GOING IN."
vandalized ry's jap textbook, like we always do.
the lame people in the jap class J2.14...

today is vernon's birthday. the dj on muttons.
lol. i was listening at midnight, when soo came in and they were like "happy birthday soo! bla bla bla, oh wait its midnight now, so now its vernon's birthday!" -.-
LAME.
so... yeah.

i'm gonna go chiong chinese file then interview my mom for hist.
hope my history can salvage good marks. :]
my gpa is screwed.
-PWNED- [btw, is it p-owned or pee-you-ned?! nigahiga says its powned, but cass says otherwise.]
OHWHATTHEHECK.
saw fel with a bunch of sec one kids walking out of sch today.
the whole bunch of 2L ppl, plus some sec ones in front of us [who also knew THIRI], were laughing abt it.
like, "omg is that fel?! what is she doing with all those guys?! is that her bf?!'
yeah. imagine it.
and we saw thiri and jianchong walk by too. jianchong saw us as the bus pulled away from sch. we were like, "ooh look jianchong!" and jianchong saw us and waved. o.o
i think he was mesmerized by rongying.
haha.
going to chiong chinese file, and NOT CARE about ACC, because it has NO FRIKIN RELATION TO ME WHATSOEVER, so whattheheck i can go fail it.

Laying low, holding on to what I don't want to know, till the daylight turns to ash and blows away.

Instructions:
Place your iTunes on shuffle and take the first 25 songs you get.
Post a lyric from each of the songs and get your friends to guess the song and artist/e.
No cheating with lyric searches.
Then tag others.

1. i've practised this for hours, gone round and round, and now i think that i've got it all down.
2. i dreamed i was missing, you were so scared.
3. take it back to the place where you know it all began, we could be anything we wanna be.
4. if you want me to wait, I will wait for you.
5. take a breath, i pull myself together, just another step until i reach the door.
6. you spin my head right round, right round. [COME ON, HOW OBVIOUS IS THIS.]
7. in the night i hear them talk, coldest story ever told.
8. i got that hit that beat the block, you can get that bass overload.
9. i bet you would've paid up or you'll cash down. (the first line's too obvious. -.-)
10. you could have knocked me out with a ... feather.
11. and i'd give up forever to touch you, cause i know that you feel the same now.
12. i'm gonna make you bend and break (it sent you to me without wings)
13. go ahead as you waste your days with thinking.
14. you say you gotta go and find yourself, you say that you're becoming someone else.
15. whatcha gonna do with all that junk, all that junk inside that trunk. (CASS LOL YOU KNOW THIS. xD)
16. let me know that i've done wrong, when i've known this all along.
17. they told him don't you ever come around here.
18. has it ever crossed your mind, something happened for the first time.
19. waiting for your... call i'm sick, call i'm angry.
20. when i woke up i could see, the daylight had already passed me.
21. i took a ride on a february morning, just getting over it and dealing with the morning.
22. soft kiss and wine what a pretty friend of mine.
23. am i more than you bargained for yet?
24. well if you wanted honesty thats all you had to say.
25. today is a winding road, its taken me to places that i didnt want to go.

YAY. have fun guessing man.
wahaha.

okay, on special request from cass, here's a list of nice stuff about her:
she's really funny, she's really happy, she's serious when i need her to be, she's so zilian i just have to love her for it, she's really helpful, she's a great friend, she's always there when i need her, she gives good advice when i need it, she's always look past my shortcomings no matter what, she gives good contributions in groups (but doesnt get credited for it), she's really fun to be around, without her i wouldn't have any (more than one? xD) real genuine friends in the class so i'm really thankful for that, she's got good work attitude too (and isnt credited for it), she's ALWAYS happy (i never see her angry without laughing about it after), she never holds a grudge (for long?), and she rocks.

i dont need to rack my brains to find these, why does everyone have to think so hard? i mean, its really obvious.
she's really awesome, and people should see that.
CASS SHOULD HAVE MORE CONFIDENCE IN HERSELF. :]
yay.

(there's enough lyrics on top, i dont need one at the bottom xD)
MUSIC FTW. :D

EDIT:
more nigahiga vids for you to enjoy. -.-



Word of the day - pwned



ShamWOOHOO!

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY! :D

had a mothers day blessing at church. :]
yeah. went to bakerzin with mom and family today.
then we roamed around tampines 1 looking for shoes xD
my sister told me about a freak "this-worker-fell-off-the-roof" accident, but i couldnt find a hole in the roof, so...
i got a shock when i saw david cook in skechers. as in the ad. -.-
my parents were busy shopping for mothers day, so i didnt bring up the fact that 21st century breakdown is in stores and i want it real bad. xD
i shall pester for the july 3 daughtry album release. their first song, no surprise, is already so darn nice.
went to converse and got another shock when i saw a blue electric guitar on display. i almost stole it. xD
joking.
i find it weird that my mom wants to watch house bunny. i was abit freaked out at first, but i figured it must be perfectly normal. i think. o.o
according to cass i made her cry last night again.
i should stop talking to her or else she cry somemore. -.-
nobody could think of nice things about her lor. and i made a list. so... :D

As I say it louder I love how it sounds, cos I'm not taking the easy way out.

friday was absolutely gay.
yeah. i dont remember exactly what happened.
we were spending science being lame, catching pondskaters, and observing the cute little worm thing chingying scooped up from the field.
it's name's fuply. (that's foo-plea) -.-
the rest of the day was gay too.
got back my math results.
the results were totally unexpected. 11/30.
you may hold your applause.
this all equals to: one damn lousy GPA.
again, hold your applause.

i'll try harder next semester. maybe the chance of getting into an SBGE class is close to zero.
oh well. for four years i've been in the GE thing. i think if i go into a non SBGE class, the stress is lesser?
but still try to get in. i mean, i want that doublescience doublehumans.
maybe i'll drop thirdlang.
hm. mrschu had a point in saying, "if you cant handle the main stuff, dont do the extra stuff."
i'm a total GE FAIL. -claps-

thursday was absolutely gay too, with cass's high-pitched "Hi!"
it turned out in the afternoon, when i wanted to sp, the band room was locked. -.-
so i had to waste my time in the classroom. surfed lame nigahiga stuff with sarah.

LOL. i am greatly indebted to two wonderfully awesome people.
you know who you are. without your help, one of my subjects would be going downhill along with chinesemathgeog.
they stayed up so late with me just to ensure i finished what i was supposed to do.
wonderfully awesome.
thank you.

i've recently become obsessed with david cook songs all over again.
they're quite nice. and the lyrics are kindof meaningful.
for heroes.
and they kindof suit my mood. :D
i need his album lol. and to go for his concert which is in a week. -.- PHILIPPINES MALL OF ASIA CONCERT GROUNDS MAN. i was just there last december.
i need to buy a plane ticket there again. xD
obviously i'm joking. if my parents allow it i've gone crazy
i'll beg my cousins to go and help me get autograph. wahaha.
I'm not gonna come down, down off of these clouds. :D

dammit. life is so freaking boring nowadays.
there's nothing meaningful to post. somemore no level camp, sigh.
i think i'm crazy, but sparkC was really one of the most memorable camps ever. so i'm in love with adventure camps.
many ppl were complaining about level camp. at least its not at st johns island, like last year's.
i suddenly have a lot of admiration for last year's year twos. -.-
i want level camp back.
i just hope jap show and tell's not gonna be pushed forward cos of this. i'm happy with my show and tell being in a month. dont ruin it. xD

I feel sick, I feel nervous, I know just what I did to deserve this, though i know its not a dream.

Why Chris Brown beat up Rihanna. :D

didnt go to school today.
woke up, my ankle was all swollen, so my mom told me i should stay at home and rest.
had an okay day... spent it doing lit circles, revising math, and doing hotpots. -.-
i'm totally scared for my math. actually, no, i know how its gonna turn out. FAIL. yup, just like everything else so far. -.- how cliched.
oh well. try harder next time?
level camp is cancelled. at least thats what i heard. was kinda looking forward to it, considering how much i adored SparkC in p5. -.-

lol. american idol's enough excitement for me today.
going back to school tmr. i dont know if i'll be able to climb the stairs, but if the lift's not working, i'll try.
i actually wanted to go to school today, but considering how much pain went into putting my foot into my shoe, uh.
i have to go to sch tmr, to do lit circles? xD
haha. i think cass would go into depression if i didnt go tmr, so... yup.
i can walk, dont worry.

Sing it with me, sing for the year, sing for the laughter, sing for the tear. Dream on.

had a stupid day today.
worst day of the week really.
yeah, to start off with, we had a stupid math test. i'm gonna fail it. that stupid question everyone didnt know how to do, and the others where i completely screwed up.
played capt ball for pe. yeah i'm used to not playing [i know i suck :P], but what i really enjoyed was rongying's outbursts of "AAAAAAH!" and when she finally caught the ball, "BALL BALL BALL BALL."
yeah, then chinese sucked. got back test. i'm not gonna care about who knows my grades. 32half. worst ever.
geog also must get C, which really made up the worst day of this week.
i'm gonna take history, i'm not caring anymore.
you know, when ppl around you are all: "oh dammit, i missed a plus by a few stinkin marks!" and bury their head in their arms all depressed.
yeah, i would wish for just a B right now.
and a PASS for chinese, to just UNDERSTAND a bit of the tiankong.

then stupid thirdlang had to come along. listening was suckish. abit of it, of course listening is my strength [-.-], but then that time i also very blur.
i felt like sleeping. i missed the first time the qn was played cos i wasnt paying attention.
then i had to rely on one hearing. which is totally unreliable.
then on the way back the stupid step had to trip me.
twisted my freaking ankle, and had a bunch of nicenice ppl to stay and put ice on my foot. i love iris for that. it didnt hurt so much, i was just in shock for a while, short of breath.

worst day ever? i dont think so yet. there's plenty more stuff to fail.
and i think i'll find myself even more disappointed then. so, for now. i'm not caring about the past and just moving on.

yeah, just to reassure cass, who felt guilty for not staying behind, you still called, and that counts too. :D
and you said "GET WELL SOON!" at least eight times. along with "i'm in the lift."

NUMB - Linkin Park
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless
Lost under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow
Just caught in the undertow)

Every step that I take is
Another mistake to you
I've Become so numb
I can't feel you there
Become so tired
So much more awake
I'm becoming this
All I want to do
Is be more like me
And be less like you

Can't you see that you're smothering me
Holding too tightly
Afraid to lose control
'Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you
(Caught in the undertow
Just caught in the undertow)

Every step that I take is
Another mistake to you

(Caught in the undertow
Just caught in the undertow)

And every second I waste
Is more than I can take
But I know I may end up falling too
But I know You were just like me
With someone disappointed in you

yeah, its really numb. -.- i'm not emo, i'm just reflective.
and yeah, this song does describe the mood. i'm not emo.

finally posting again.
my blog's been dead for the past week.
long holiday. hope i accomplished enough.
who cares.
yeah. never posted about 2.4 i think.
improved a bunch from mock, but not enough to get C.
but even with C, my shuttle run and pullups still barely missed a C, so i'm settling for a silver this year.
don't really care for napfa as much, as long as my academics are okay, i'm happy.
i think.

speech day [aka cip at queenstown pri] was very very lame.
i reached late and had to listen to cass talking about linmin being pregnant. o_o
then we walked to queenstown pri, and cass [being blur, as she is] almost got us lost
i'm to blame for following her, anyway.
then we set up in a room of primary twos going "pop those, pop those, pop those bubbles"
and i was supposed to present a ppt along with cass, who was very lonely. xD
so we did our thing. [that sounds wrong, but who cares]
and we met a few outstanding people.
like some guy who kept falling off his chair. [i hope you're reading this, iris.]
and some guy who burped so darn loud. [same to you, rongying.]
and some girl named cass who was proclaimed to be exactly like the bigger cass in almost every way.
yeah. primarytwos are cute. and small. and fun.
they're so enthu.
i'm taken aback by it haha. you rarely see sectwos going, "I KNOW THE ANSWER PICK ME!" in an excited voice. [okay, maybe jianchong.]
i stole some candy at the end of it, then spent some time hobo-ing at seveneleven with cass and melvin and linmin and belinda. [when he said dont bully my "mei" i thought he said maid. -.-]
linmin and belinda were doing lame stuff like looking at FHM. -.-
and melvin cass and i were spamming mashed potato.
bought a stupid slurpee and had to hide it to go on the train in a plastic bag cos not allowed mah.
i owe melvin tenbucks. -.-

then labour day was fun too.

went to my aunt's SUPERBIG new house onefloor below her sch for special kids.
its superbig and fully aircon. spent a whole lot of time in my personal little corner playing with the internet and eating potato chips.
played with my baby cousin too. he's now two and a half months old i think, and yeah, very cute.
i'm gonna stay at my aunt's house one day.
and have my bday party there. and volunteer some class party there too.
lol. its really superbig.

hope this week is okay enough.
need to chiong book review. read the book, so i must chiong out some lame review thing.
yeah. i'm gonna slack a while more i think.
i never have enough motivation. -.-

And her diamonds bring me down, cos i can't help her now.

omg that name freaks me out so much when chingying says it.

havent posted in like, days. so i think a good way to start it is by posting about cass.
and then posting something else so her post gets pushed down. xD
so mean right. i'm joking. but i need to post sometime.








cass and me at queenstown primary. forgot my stupid hairband so i look like some freak.
[stole from cass's blog xD]
Okay, yeah.
Thanks cass, for all the retarded times we shared together. I remember thinking you were intimidating last year at the beginning of 08, i mean, how stupid was that. and discovering how sick you were and your love for balls. and you demanding me and rongying to come down during break every tuesday and thursday last year during third lang so you'll have some form of entertainment. and the gallery walks we had on the way to the mrt station lol. i remember that was the year people kept talking about twilight and i was in the corner being extra cos i didnt read yet. :D then in 2009 i dont know how i became your slave too, and i was suddenly a double-you and you named me after your crumpler, and we became best friends (?). and uh. you loved bullying me and touching my "stomach", and i'll forever treasure those lame times in the 158 bus where you'd laugh like some kind of idiot while telling me funny stuff. and buying you drinks after PE. yeah. you're a great friend who's always there when i need help, and you're always entertaining.
so THANKS. :D
and yeah, like i wrote for sarah:
you + me = ohmygoshabsolutenightmaregetawayfromme.
have fun reading that. :D

When you see my face, hope it gives you hell, hope it gives you hell.
Cos seeing your face DOES give me hell. xD