napfa was suckish, as i thought it would be.
the only up-sides were that i improved on situps [36], sitandreach [44, last week i had thirtyfour], pullups [9, last year = 6], sbj [C! 153.].
shuttle run was an absolute nightmare. mr kwok shouted GO! and i was standing there like some kindof idiot for like, two seconds. sure fail one.
i'm gonna spam train 2.4 this week so i can pass next week.
not aiming too high.

mayflower was cute and lame.
all the little kiddies make me feel so tall and high.
iris befriended a p3. they're calling each other everynight now. o_o
iris says she's random too.
ate the food there. i miss primary school food.
took random photos there.
post them up tomorrow.

rongying, patrick, iris and i took a cab to moelc after mayflower.
rongying was moving and commenting on a spastic song.
the usual.
we arrived there waaaay earlier, and as usual they wanted to rush up to the classroom waaay too early.
and we ended up hobo-ing in the corridor for about 10 minutes.
jap test was horrible.
i think i'll fail it too.
no confidence? -.-
but then again, HOW IMPORTANT ARE GRADES. -.-

i'll post more tmr.
i need rescuing from this pile of homework i've lost myself in.

...

had an okay day today.
i found my shirt, without the imagined assembly scene mentioned before. -.-
celebrated international friendship day today.
some concert, and stuff. yeah, i was just listening to the music.
but thats not important.

band was okay. got cut for speech day. yay.
its a holiday then. i need a holiday.
went to sp with the year ones for an hour while the parade ppl prac-ed.
the year ones were auditioned. -.-
reminded me of american idol. i just hope i'm not simon cowell. that was a lame analogy. nevermind.
a certain junior was being veh irritating again. i wont mention the details.
i think this junior is very rude. even spoke to us like he was better than us last time: oh i find it very easy to compose songs on the trombone, youknow.
get real, dude.
played saga again today. it was easier, now that i know most of it.
and it sounds very nice in a group.
my playing of carmen was suckish. i dont even know how to play properly. i never even practiced before.
because i like saga better.
haha.
somehow, i want to play the parade thingys again.
they sound very cool. maybe i'll use them to practice. :D

acc was bleh, watched a vid as usual. some weird thing i didnt understand at all.
math was suckish.
yeah, and thats all.
i dont think anyone cares enough to visit this blog anyway.
oh well.

Don't be blinded by the lies in your eyes.

watched 17 again today. quite a good movie, hilarious, sick and sad all at the same time.
you should all watch it. but not with me, cos i watched it already.
talks mainly about regret, love, sexuality and bullying [copied off wikipedia. xD].
and there are random irrelevant parts about lotr. -.-

spent the day at the mall, sorta. went to church in the morning, mass about the divine mercy. then went to eat chicken rice at kopitiam. then we bought our movie tickets and randomly roamed around TM for an hour or so.
caught eye of a nice little jacket in 77th street my mom promised to buy me if my gpa is good.
almost bought david cook's album and folie a deux, but my mom wanted to buy it the next time we came back.

super bored today. apart from the movie, have absolutely nothing to do.
my sister's put off the jog again, so my 2.4 will most probably suck.
thanks to her.
that sucks.
oh well. go find another way to train then.
dammit. for five items too. two days left.

You're my inspiration as I stand alone against the world.

i feel really stupid right now.
firstly, left my stupid blouse in school. i mean, how dumb can that get. its a shirt.
i can just picture it, on monday: "will whoever owns this shirt come claim it please?"
in other words: will the idiot who left her shirt in sch come get it and show everyone who you are?
that's so cool.

had a talk during band today.
i think i was pinpointed, when parents complaints were mentioned.
but i didnt ask my dad to complain that i was late. he asked himself to.
it was a put-down sortof thing, but it gave me more motivation. its over, time to move on, that kinda thing.
be more mature, be less individualistic [been avoiding going down in the morning. i think that was selfish on my part.], have better attitude.
felt depressed shortly after that, due to the fact that my dad apologized for scolding me with the same reason as was used in the talk too. that just means he cares.
I just want you to think not of yourself, thats all. Don't be like, I'm sorry today and do it again next week.

played second ever full band experience today. i was waay out of tune though. mr ng happened to notice that too.
my stupid tuning slide wont move. have to find someway to loosen it. somehow.
and i need to practice more. i could somehow follow today, which is the high point, but i still sound like crap, which is the low point.
how balanced can this day get.

i completely tuned out during lessons today.
know something about a hcl debate, a math thing with some weird group game and speed-time graphs, history test [which i crapped a lot about, used some nice-sounding complicated words to make it sound professional. -.-].
i think thats a bad thing to do. but who cares. leaving earth once in a while isnt that bad.
that sounds so weird when i say it. whatever.

just learnt three new songs on the guitar recently. took me that long.
know some random intro riffs from other songs: qingtian [jaychou - dont ask me why. it sounded nice], gives you hell [AAR], your call [secondhand serenade].
i know pink panther man. that's cool. irritate my sister everyday by playing it for her non-stop.
i think she threw a pillow at me yesterday.
i dont remember these things.
dad's going overseas next week. i have the whole week to myself. dont need to worry about being late after band.
he wont call from where he is. i think.
heck with it.
need to finish up my la artifact. mschan was being nice and extended it one week.
so need to make it extra good. or else i die.

And are there any words to say that I would ever be enough
When the light runs from the day, will the darkness be too much
Will I ever be enough

managed to catch the green day world premiere event thing on 987.
i think green day rocks. though i havent heard from them in a long time. -.-
the song's called know your enemy.
from their new album 21st century breakdown.
i want that. cant wait for it to come out next month. birthday presents? :D
somehow it sounds darn familiar. heard it somewhere.
its cool though.
talkin about some thick weird metal thing with a timer. at first i didn't believe shan. but... its possible.
i think.

stayed back for sp today.
remarkably, weiting didnt go and isaac did.
thats so... flipside.
so we practiced saga. and tried this song called exordium.
and general salute.
it sounds cool. we're playing on speech day.
so unexpected and out of nowhere.
must prac like MAD.
or else i'll sound like crap in front of the whole school and the GoH. and i wouldnt want that, would i. o_o

history test tmr.
hope i pass. i always crap and pass at the last minute.
i think its okay though. its all reasoning. all you need to know is a few statements, then you add your point of view to it, and the facts.
i think. history was never really that difficult. except when we're made to write essays.
now that sucks.

i think there's full band again tmr too.
hope i can cope tmr. second full band experience everrrr.
nervous? i dontknow. maybe.
dontaskme.

Overthrow the effigy, the vast majority, burning down the foreman of control.

Dammit I just realized NAPFA is next week.
Too late for that, i guess.
Five items will suck.
And 2.4 will be like crap. Maybe if i jog and find out how to drastically improve my stamina in two weeks i will pass. But for now i can just...
Not think about it.
DARN YOU TWO POINT FOUR. GET OUT OF MY LIFE NOW.
Stupid timing. D:

Yay 987 comeswithmusic week.
i think dj wars rocks.
muttons got kicked out though. and soo and des. [soo like, cried. on the radio. o_o]
there's van and young [am mayhem] and shan and rozz.
Wonder what happens.
Speaking of 987, the new song: I can wait forever is like so long ago.
Remember listening to it last year, or before that.
So weird. Melvin sent me all the simple plan songs. :D

Today was average, i guess.
Got malay test back. Amazingly, for someone who chionged studied the last minute and completely did NOT understand the first part, i got seven.
That's amazing.
HCL compo was screwed. I think i crapped it all. -.-
ACC was okay. Watched some video on sanguoyanyi. Thiri they all say zhu-geliang very shuai.
So weird.
Math... i dont wanna think about math.
Geog... average.
Malay...average too. Talked about how some guy thought the teacher was an indian. And she found out that some of us were married. -.-

Stupid phone. I need a new phone. Sony Ericsson W902! <3
Its got walkman, 8GB memory, and a FIVE megapixel camera.
My mom might consider comeswithmusic 5800. :D I get the downloads!

Need to chiong revise history. Yay. History is one of the tolerable subjects for me.
Maybe because i'm some kindof freak.
But who cares.
Even if i do LOOK like some kind of freak.
-.-

What hurts the most, is being so close.

Crazy workload.
LA artifact is making progress. Then when i'm so stressed cos of LA artifact, BAM [i cant believe i just used that], there's an LA persuasive speech.
And science file and science test in the same week. What the heck.
And then there's chinese test and chinese yue du ka.
And history test, which i might flunk.
And stupid jap show and tell.
"See, you have to write down your speech first... and try not to have powerpoint slides...you are encouraged to use visual aids..." This sounds really FAMILIAR. -.-

I think my blog is really boring. I doubt anyone visits, since i'm not getting any TAGS.
Besides cass, who rocks for that.

Had very first full band experience on monday.
For some reason, i felt really blur and detached. When i was waved to, i didnt even know it was me.
Then when i was asked to sightread i got totally lost.
It was kinda average, okay-ish. I think i could follow. I think.
Like i said, detached. Blur.
Need to prac. D:

Can't focus. Post more another time.
D: stupid.

You're gonna miss me when I'm gone.

I got no picture to post. D:
and its bastian's 1 month birthday. haha. went to aunt's house. Had some food. watched the american idol replay, and on popular demand from my aunt herself: twilight. -.-
They were demanding for the vcd. They were like: can you leave it at our house? i'll pay you ten bucks. o.o

Oh well.
I dont even have sports day stuff to post.
As in... i wasn't camwhoring that day. Unlike two other people i know. xD
Though it would be nice to post pictures up sometime.

I think i'm watching fast and furious four tmr. My dad wants to. I dont even know if there's a theater at tampines one.
Going tomorrow. Hope its good. Been awaiting its opening since i got a sneak peek into the stores there.
Somehow, i cant wait to hit Uniqlo.
Maybe i'll buy a shirt there. i think its ex though.

Should take more photos with my camera.
Need to change phone soon. I think my dad's gonna see if i can trade-in.
Still dont know what phone to get.
Sigh.

My global position systems are vocally addressed.

See. Here to post about sports day.
Less boring than i imagined, thanks to cass and sarah [see its bigger. -.-] whacking my head with the clappers and messing up my hair.
Also realized my kindergarten friend yongxin or whatever his name was is in dhs and ran.
Remembered thinking he was shuai in kindergarten. -.- so young also think like that.
Came late. Missed the freaking train, the next one was in like, five minutes. Waste my time.
Had weird fun watching people warm up. Accidentally spotted some guy changing, and cass was all: 'why didnt i see him?' in a disappointed voice.
The clapper thingys absolutely suck. They mess up your hair and are noisy and they deflate. -.-
Dunman high did well i think. Won so many races i think i lost count.
The only thing i remember was singing along to all the spastic songs they were playing.
And the occasional touch-my-stomach from you-know-who.
Has more weird fun along the way to the mrt with jc and weiq.
Kept trying to overtake each other, than weiq and jc keep jumping in puddles and wet our shoes.
Didnt really care, near the weekend also can wash shoes.
Legs there can clean when i get home. -.-
Accidentally wet sarah's leg. Think she got quite pissed at me.
Imitating someone faking slipping to wet someone else is bad for people standing nearby.

Yay. The second part of this post shall be dedicated to my awesome seniors.
I owe them a post i think.
Now I dunno what to type.
I think they're really nice.
[and not just because i want cheesecake. :P]
Yeah, they really care, cos they wanna study with us on wednesdays, and told us about the sectional report book and tests and stuff.
It was sorta overwhelming at first but then i realized it might be helpful.
See. Job done. I dont think we can get nicer seniors in band. :D
Had a minor argument with my dad that day over them making me stay back. Kept telling him its not their fault but he insisted on calling mrs wong about it.
I think its solved now though.
And I sorta apologize to whoever mrs wong called cos of my dad. -.-

Yay. Long post.
I'm really pissed with my holiday homework.
LA artifact just found out some other class have much more time than us.
Need to chiong my thingy and hope i get good marks. I think its a good idea, and nobody did it before. But still, its complicated and i need the whole weekend.
The only good school-related thing i'm looking forward to is the history battlefield trip.
[ownage. i got chosen. xD haha.]

The song adam lambert sang on american idol was awesome.
Simon gave him a freaking standing O.
Mad World by Tears for Fears.
Old song. But still. Its interesting. But still old.
AND SCOTT GOT VOTED OFF! D: i liked him.
But singing-wise i think adam and allison OWN. The two As in the final. Though how they look like freak me out sometimes. Like the spiky red hair from allison and the gay nailpolish from lambert. I think he looks like joe jonas too. xD

The one that wins will be the one that hits the hardest.

Regarding the emo post yesterday, all i can say is: thanks cass.
Maybe for once in her life, she rocks. [sarcasm. -.-]

Sports Day is tomorrow. And so is the opening of Tampines 1. I think we might be going during the weekend, maybe on Easter Sunday [after church of course. i've never got out of an easter mass since... ever. not that i wanted to. it was just, the chocolate eggs were too tempting to resist.]

Just realized my napfa this year might just suck out loud.
Sit and reach deproved. I think I never stretched. Pulled a hamstring. D:
My stamina... well lets just say it sucks out loud too. 2.4 is hardly a possibility.
SBJ is much worse.
Shuttle Run sucks too.
The only good stations I have are sit and reach, and if i work hard enough, pull-ups.
Pull ups is the only station i improved in.
This really sucks.
Oh well.
Gonna jog this weekend I think, depends on my mom. And my mom also has those handy hand weights that are quite useful. And I can do tuckjumps in my room, enough space. So all I need to do is uh. Run shuttle run and stretch like mad?

After PE that day cass was flashing her shirt to 2K.
I dont know whether or not they [or the teacher] saw it, because nobody screamed. xD
So pervert.
Whacked her twice walking past. She was like: 'OH OH OH LOOK AT MY SHIRT!'
So gay.

PC today was weird.
We had to play a game thing. Then get one picture and solve one big puzzle without showing anyone else your picture.
When mr tan left we all came together and showed each other the pictures, then solved within minutes.
Turns out to be some chicken head on a chicken in a house, in a mini-neighbourhood, on a table, in a magazine, in someone's hand, on a ship deck, on a ship, on a bus advertisement. -.-
So weird.
In the end we never learn anything cos everyone cheated.
What a valuable lesson.

Lit circles.. sigh. was bothered by an annoying wasp thing.
Kept flying around me. Stupid wasp.
the discussion went okay. Everyone did their part, they were so interested in the peeing part.
Page 57, para 1. I think patrick has the most fascination in that.
Kept pointing out to ms chan: 'hey! what about our pee point?!'

Stayed back for CME. had to waste money buy char siew bao for ppt.
In the end I gave it to cass and linmin. I think they owe me $$ now.
Took some really weird photos, cass thinks i'm not photographical enough. -.-
What does she know. xD

Friday no band, thursday no lessons, no time to practice before main band.
I'm so gonna die.

Think i'm gonna chiong study history and jap for tests next week, and do all my impending homework which will cause me doom if i leave them alone.
Holiday Homework is an OXYMORON, geddit. that means we deserve none of that.

There's always gonna be another mountain, I'm always gonna wanna make it move.

So darn stressed.
Shouldnt have put off filing.
Shouldnt have kept forgetting that stupid math workbook.
I seriously dont get math at all. Last diagnostic quiz: 1 mark.
I mean, how is that possible.
Used to be good at math. Ms ang is gonna be so disappointed if she sees me now.
The one who brought me to my a star, she's gonna be crushed if she sees my results.

Shouldnt have left my newspapers in school.
Promised zhenglaoshi already that I would improve.
And what does she get, more forgetfulness.
Which she doesnt deserve to get from her lousiest student.

Need to do lit circles, tidy it all up.

I think after everything, its finally falling apart.
Its finally come back to bite me in the butt.
Everything.

Why cant I just go back and fix it?

Cause where I am right now so unforgiving, its numbing everything.

Just found out the SYF results.
Kind of a letdown at first, but then I realized I dont deserve to emo about it.
Because I wasnt in it, and i dont know the feeling.
Jiayou all my seniors, still.
I dont know if they're feeling discouraged, but i'm proud of them anyway. :D
They did their best, and thats all there is to it.
I think this SYF thing just gave me more drive to practice too.
Makes me want to practice so hard and earn back that GWH we deserved.
And even if the judges were all stuck up like Simon Cowell, I'm gonna make them get on their feet and clap for us.
Is that possible, by the way? xD
Still, ITS FULL SPEED AHEAD! :D
With twice as much fuel than before? -.-

Went to orchard with my mom this morning.
She had her eyebrows done.
Bought some traditional filipino food there, at Lucky Plaza.
Felt so good to eat traditionally prepared food like that again.
Nostalgic. :D
Had to go to cathecism after.
Learnt something very important.
Shall bring it up on Good Friday, when its appropriate.

Spamming facebook quizzes. -.-
Thats kinda dumb actually. Nothing better to do.
This is showing that i need to get a freaking life.
I'll think I'll go surf random stuff and play with photoshop, like i always do.

Beat it, beat it, no one wants to be defeated.
Show them how funky strong is your fight, it doesn't matter who's wrong or right.

Stupid playlist.
Still ruined. I need my music man.
Comeon, it needs to be fixed soon.

[edit] what the shit. http://www.playlist.com/forum/general/topic/142809348
They've banned us because licensing restrictions are causing several songs to be unavailable for playing in our country. SAY WHAT.
They need to fix it. Cant imagine using something else. -.-
If it really cant be fixed, i might have to take the playlist off.
And what good would that be. This sucks. D:
[/edit]

Stayed back for fun today. Until about 4 plus-ish.
No band, due to syf. [still wondering how we did. anxiety is dangerous to small brains. -.-]
Waited for sarah after sch, lamed about in the classroom, cleaned it like mad to pass spot check.
Went down and bought happy chips. -.-
Then ate lunch. Saw weiting and yanting. Watched the band people pile into a bus for a while.
Speaking of band, we gave the seniors our cards this morning.
Spent two hours on them. Because American Idol and Heroes are really distracting. And I had a kaocha to study for.
Hope they liked it.
Talked to yanting and weiting, sarah and chingying left for EDS.
So me cass and yanting were left alone. And then while walking out Cass did the lamest thing possible.

So she suddenly remembered that she needed a flexi thing.
And walks towards the bookshop. Then she reached there, and then after a while ran out screaming, claiming: zhenglaoshi's in there!
So we went in together. Zhenglaoshi was in there. -.-
And for some reason she slapped haoyang, who happened to be in there, really loud.
Maybe zhenglaoshi was so freaked out she saw us and didnt say anything.
The bookstore auntie was laughing at her.

Weiting really "hated" cass for making her late.
[One can never take weiting too seriously.]
Cass was so high, singing songs in a high pitched voice, and taking turns leaning on me and weiting. In other words, she was being really gay.

Otherwise the day went pretty boring.
Sitting on my bed, reading TKAM, listening to 987.
So typical.
Cant my life be more interesting.
Cant I have band. -.-
I want band, and I also want no band, because I'm scared of going into main band.
I only JUST memorised major scales on monday. And now I've gotta know minor, wholetone, pentone.

Sigh.
Hope we did well for SYF. :D
Pretty confident in my seniors, yeah. They're all quite pro.
Especially compared to us. -.-
Thats kinda saddening. xD

Sometimes I wish I wasn't such a slacker. D:
And that I can actually FIND A GROUP during group-finding?
Recent issue brought it back up again.
I promised myself I would work harder, especially with groupwork.
And if I dont fulfill that, I deserve to DIE. [i think. -.-]

That was saddening too.
Must go spam youtube and spastic videos.
And chocolate. I need chocolate. CADBURY HERE I COME.

Stupid girl, you should have known, you should have known.

Lol.
Back to the lyric-inspired post titles then. [that's an old song, Unwell by Matchbox Twenty. xD
Ahh my playlist is ruined.
Most of the songs unavailable.
D:
Must go and check if anything is wrong. Come on, playlist.com, fix it soon. I need my music back.

Today was okay...
I think.
Yeah, it was pretty average.
We slacked for LA, with our geog worksheets mrs chin assigned.
Me and Linmin were playing around with the newspaper article title on photoshop.
No Grain Big Pain became No Grain DICK Pain somehow. o.o
Then PCCG we had a beauty talk.
Cass was experimenting with my specs.
She says she needed some, but I dont think its that bad yet.
Learnt about beauty and all that self esteem stuff, and eating disorders, and photoshop editing model pictures.
Cass was still playing with my specs when we were going home. -.-
So weird.
Somehow, she finds the whole "it's clear!" -takes off- "it's not clear!" thing pretty interesting.

I thought it was torture at first.
Getting used to wearing specs.
Not having the freedom to move your eyes up down left right and see everything the same.
I was supposed to put them on in june/july last year.
But I was so scared and shocked I put it off as long as I could.
Until they sent a letter to my house.
My mom found out and figured it must have been cos I read in the darkkk a lot.
So I had to wear specs. And somehow I think my eyesight worsened.
Let me take them off please.
I'm supposed to see the optometrist this year and see if taking them off will improve eyesight ornot.
I want them off. Now.
I'm not used to feeling restricted by a little box of clear vision while the rest is blur.
It IS torture.

Sigh.
Need to make good luck cards.
And do hw.
And study for cihuikaocha.
Sian.

When you find you, come back to me.

napfa was suckish, as i thought it would be.
the only up-sides were that i improved on situps [36], sitandreach [44, last week i had thirtyfour], pullups [9, last year = 6], sbj [C! 153.].
shuttle run was an absolute nightmare. mr kwok shouted GO! and i was standing there like some kindof idiot for like, two seconds. sure fail one.
i'm gonna spam train 2.4 this week so i can pass next week.
not aiming too high.

mayflower was cute and lame.
all the little kiddies make me feel so tall and high.
iris befriended a p3. they're calling each other everynight now. o_o
iris says she's random too.
ate the food there. i miss primary school food.
took random photos there.
post them up tomorrow.

rongying, patrick, iris and i took a cab to moelc after mayflower.
rongying was moving and commenting on a spastic song.
the usual.
we arrived there waaaay earlier, and as usual they wanted to rush up to the classroom waaay too early.
and we ended up hobo-ing in the corridor for about 10 minutes.
jap test was horrible.
i think i'll fail it too.
no confidence? -.-
but then again, HOW IMPORTANT ARE GRADES. -.-

i'll post more tmr.
i need rescuing from this pile of homework i've lost myself in.

...

had an okay day today.
i found my shirt, without the imagined assembly scene mentioned before. -.-
celebrated international friendship day today.
some concert, and stuff. yeah, i was just listening to the music.
but thats not important.

band was okay. got cut for speech day. yay.
its a holiday then. i need a holiday.
went to sp with the year ones for an hour while the parade ppl prac-ed.
the year ones were auditioned. -.-
reminded me of american idol. i just hope i'm not simon cowell. that was a lame analogy. nevermind.
a certain junior was being veh irritating again. i wont mention the details.
i think this junior is very rude. even spoke to us like he was better than us last time: oh i find it very easy to compose songs on the trombone, youknow.
get real, dude.
played saga again today. it was easier, now that i know most of it.
and it sounds very nice in a group.
my playing of carmen was suckish. i dont even know how to play properly. i never even practiced before.
because i like saga better.
haha.
somehow, i want to play the parade thingys again.
they sound very cool. maybe i'll use them to practice. :D

acc was bleh, watched a vid as usual. some weird thing i didnt understand at all.
math was suckish.
yeah, and thats all.
i dont think anyone cares enough to visit this blog anyway.
oh well.

Don't be blinded by the lies in your eyes.

watched 17 again today. quite a good movie, hilarious, sick and sad all at the same time.
you should all watch it. but not with me, cos i watched it already.
talks mainly about regret, love, sexuality and bullying [copied off wikipedia. xD].
and there are random irrelevant parts about lotr. -.-

spent the day at the mall, sorta. went to church in the morning, mass about the divine mercy. then went to eat chicken rice at kopitiam. then we bought our movie tickets and randomly roamed around TM for an hour or so.
caught eye of a nice little jacket in 77th street my mom promised to buy me if my gpa is good.
almost bought david cook's album and folie a deux, but my mom wanted to buy it the next time we came back.

super bored today. apart from the movie, have absolutely nothing to do.
my sister's put off the jog again, so my 2.4 will most probably suck.
thanks to her.
that sucks.
oh well. go find another way to train then.
dammit. for five items too. two days left.

You're my inspiration as I stand alone against the world.

i feel really stupid right now.
firstly, left my stupid blouse in school. i mean, how dumb can that get. its a shirt.
i can just picture it, on monday: "will whoever owns this shirt come claim it please?"
in other words: will the idiot who left her shirt in sch come get it and show everyone who you are?
that's so cool.

had a talk during band today.
i think i was pinpointed, when parents complaints were mentioned.
but i didnt ask my dad to complain that i was late. he asked himself to.
it was a put-down sortof thing, but it gave me more motivation. its over, time to move on, that kinda thing.
be more mature, be less individualistic [been avoiding going down in the morning. i think that was selfish on my part.], have better attitude.
felt depressed shortly after that, due to the fact that my dad apologized for scolding me with the same reason as was used in the talk too. that just means he cares.
I just want you to think not of yourself, thats all. Don't be like, I'm sorry today and do it again next week.

played second ever full band experience today. i was waay out of tune though. mr ng happened to notice that too.
my stupid tuning slide wont move. have to find someway to loosen it. somehow.
and i need to practice more. i could somehow follow today, which is the high point, but i still sound like crap, which is the low point.
how balanced can this day get.

i completely tuned out during lessons today.
know something about a hcl debate, a math thing with some weird group game and speed-time graphs, history test [which i crapped a lot about, used some nice-sounding complicated words to make it sound professional. -.-].
i think thats a bad thing to do. but who cares. leaving earth once in a while isnt that bad.
that sounds so weird when i say it. whatever.

just learnt three new songs on the guitar recently. took me that long.
know some random intro riffs from other songs: qingtian [jaychou - dont ask me why. it sounded nice], gives you hell [AAR], your call [secondhand serenade].
i know pink panther man. that's cool. irritate my sister everyday by playing it for her non-stop.
i think she threw a pillow at me yesterday.
i dont remember these things.
dad's going overseas next week. i have the whole week to myself. dont need to worry about being late after band.
he wont call from where he is. i think.
heck with it.
need to finish up my la artifact. mschan was being nice and extended it one week.
so need to make it extra good. or else i die.

And are there any words to say that I would ever be enough
When the light runs from the day, will the darkness be too much
Will I ever be enough

managed to catch the green day world premiere event thing on 987.
i think green day rocks. though i havent heard from them in a long time. -.-
the song's called know your enemy.
from their new album 21st century breakdown.
i want that. cant wait for it to come out next month. birthday presents? :D
somehow it sounds darn familiar. heard it somewhere.
its cool though.
talkin about some thick weird metal thing with a timer. at first i didn't believe shan. but... its possible.
i think.

stayed back for sp today.
remarkably, weiting didnt go and isaac did.
thats so... flipside.
so we practiced saga. and tried this song called exordium.
and general salute.
it sounds cool. we're playing on speech day.
so unexpected and out of nowhere.
must prac like MAD.
or else i'll sound like crap in front of the whole school and the GoH. and i wouldnt want that, would i. o_o

history test tmr.
hope i pass. i always crap and pass at the last minute.
i think its okay though. its all reasoning. all you need to know is a few statements, then you add your point of view to it, and the facts.
i think. history was never really that difficult. except when we're made to write essays.
now that sucks.

i think there's full band again tmr too.
hope i can cope tmr. second full band experience everrrr.
nervous? i dontknow. maybe.
dontaskme.

Overthrow the effigy, the vast majority, burning down the foreman of control.

Dammit I just realized NAPFA is next week.
Too late for that, i guess.
Five items will suck.
And 2.4 will be like crap. Maybe if i jog and find out how to drastically improve my stamina in two weeks i will pass. But for now i can just...
Not think about it.
DARN YOU TWO POINT FOUR. GET OUT OF MY LIFE NOW.
Stupid timing. D:

Yay 987 comeswithmusic week.
i think dj wars rocks.
muttons got kicked out though. and soo and des. [soo like, cried. on the radio. o_o]
there's van and young [am mayhem] and shan and rozz.
Wonder what happens.
Speaking of 987, the new song: I can wait forever is like so long ago.
Remember listening to it last year, or before that.
So weird. Melvin sent me all the simple plan songs. :D

Today was average, i guess.
Got malay test back. Amazingly, for someone who chionged studied the last minute and completely did NOT understand the first part, i got seven.
That's amazing.
HCL compo was screwed. I think i crapped it all. -.-
ACC was okay. Watched some video on sanguoyanyi. Thiri they all say zhu-geliang very shuai.
So weird.
Math... i dont wanna think about math.
Geog... average.
Malay...average too. Talked about how some guy thought the teacher was an indian. And she found out that some of us were married. -.-

Stupid phone. I need a new phone. Sony Ericsson W902! <3
Its got walkman, 8GB memory, and a FIVE megapixel camera.
My mom might consider comeswithmusic 5800. :D I get the downloads!

Need to chiong revise history. Yay. History is one of the tolerable subjects for me.
Maybe because i'm some kindof freak.
But who cares.
Even if i do LOOK like some kind of freak.
-.-

What hurts the most, is being so close.

Crazy workload.
LA artifact is making progress. Then when i'm so stressed cos of LA artifact, BAM [i cant believe i just used that], there's an LA persuasive speech.
And science file and science test in the same week. What the heck.
And then there's chinese test and chinese yue du ka.
And history test, which i might flunk.
And stupid jap show and tell.
"See, you have to write down your speech first... and try not to have powerpoint slides...you are encouraged to use visual aids..." This sounds really FAMILIAR. -.-

I think my blog is really boring. I doubt anyone visits, since i'm not getting any TAGS.
Besides cass, who rocks for that.

Had very first full band experience on monday.
For some reason, i felt really blur and detached. When i was waved to, i didnt even know it was me.
Then when i was asked to sightread i got totally lost.
It was kinda average, okay-ish. I think i could follow. I think.
Like i said, detached. Blur.
Need to prac. D:

Can't focus. Post more another time.
D: stupid.

You're gonna miss me when I'm gone.

I got no picture to post. D:
and its bastian's 1 month birthday. haha. went to aunt's house. Had some food. watched the american idol replay, and on popular demand from my aunt herself: twilight. -.-
They were demanding for the vcd. They were like: can you leave it at our house? i'll pay you ten bucks. o.o

Oh well.
I dont even have sports day stuff to post.
As in... i wasn't camwhoring that day. Unlike two other people i know. xD
Though it would be nice to post pictures up sometime.

I think i'm watching fast and furious four tmr. My dad wants to. I dont even know if there's a theater at tampines one.
Going tomorrow. Hope its good. Been awaiting its opening since i got a sneak peek into the stores there.
Somehow, i cant wait to hit Uniqlo.
Maybe i'll buy a shirt there. i think its ex though.

Should take more photos with my camera.
Need to change phone soon. I think my dad's gonna see if i can trade-in.
Still dont know what phone to get.
Sigh.

My global position systems are vocally addressed.

See. Here to post about sports day.
Less boring than i imagined, thanks to cass and sarah [see its bigger. -.-] whacking my head with the clappers and messing up my hair.
Also realized my kindergarten friend yongxin or whatever his name was is in dhs and ran.
Remembered thinking he was shuai in kindergarten. -.- so young also think like that.
Came late. Missed the freaking train, the next one was in like, five minutes. Waste my time.
Had weird fun watching people warm up. Accidentally spotted some guy changing, and cass was all: 'why didnt i see him?' in a disappointed voice.
The clapper thingys absolutely suck. They mess up your hair and are noisy and they deflate. -.-
Dunman high did well i think. Won so many races i think i lost count.
The only thing i remember was singing along to all the spastic songs they were playing.
And the occasional touch-my-stomach from you-know-who.
Has more weird fun along the way to the mrt with jc and weiq.
Kept trying to overtake each other, than weiq and jc keep jumping in puddles and wet our shoes.
Didnt really care, near the weekend also can wash shoes.
Legs there can clean when i get home. -.-
Accidentally wet sarah's leg. Think she got quite pissed at me.
Imitating someone faking slipping to wet someone else is bad for people standing nearby.

Yay. The second part of this post shall be dedicated to my awesome seniors.
I owe them a post i think.
Now I dunno what to type.
I think they're really nice.
[and not just because i want cheesecake. :P]
Yeah, they really care, cos they wanna study with us on wednesdays, and told us about the sectional report book and tests and stuff.
It was sorta overwhelming at first but then i realized it might be helpful.
See. Job done. I dont think we can get nicer seniors in band. :D
Had a minor argument with my dad that day over them making me stay back. Kept telling him its not their fault but he insisted on calling mrs wong about it.
I think its solved now though.
And I sorta apologize to whoever mrs wong called cos of my dad. -.-

Yay. Long post.
I'm really pissed with my holiday homework.
LA artifact just found out some other class have much more time than us.
Need to chiong my thingy and hope i get good marks. I think its a good idea, and nobody did it before. But still, its complicated and i need the whole weekend.
The only good school-related thing i'm looking forward to is the history battlefield trip.
[ownage. i got chosen. xD haha.]

The song adam lambert sang on american idol was awesome.
Simon gave him a freaking standing O.
Mad World by Tears for Fears.
Old song. But still. Its interesting. But still old.
AND SCOTT GOT VOTED OFF! D: i liked him.
But singing-wise i think adam and allison OWN. The two As in the final. Though how they look like freak me out sometimes. Like the spiky red hair from allison and the gay nailpolish from lambert. I think he looks like joe jonas too. xD

The one that wins will be the one that hits the hardest.

Regarding the emo post yesterday, all i can say is: thanks cass.
Maybe for once in her life, she rocks. [sarcasm. -.-]

Sports Day is tomorrow. And so is the opening of Tampines 1. I think we might be going during the weekend, maybe on Easter Sunday [after church of course. i've never got out of an easter mass since... ever. not that i wanted to. it was just, the chocolate eggs were too tempting to resist.]

Just realized my napfa this year might just suck out loud.
Sit and reach deproved. I think I never stretched. Pulled a hamstring. D:
My stamina... well lets just say it sucks out loud too. 2.4 is hardly a possibility.
SBJ is much worse.
Shuttle Run sucks too.
The only good stations I have are sit and reach, and if i work hard enough, pull-ups.
Pull ups is the only station i improved in.
This really sucks.
Oh well.
Gonna jog this weekend I think, depends on my mom. And my mom also has those handy hand weights that are quite useful. And I can do tuckjumps in my room, enough space. So all I need to do is uh. Run shuttle run and stretch like mad?

After PE that day cass was flashing her shirt to 2K.
I dont know whether or not they [or the teacher] saw it, because nobody screamed. xD
So pervert.
Whacked her twice walking past. She was like: 'OH OH OH LOOK AT MY SHIRT!'
So gay.

PC today was weird.
We had to play a game thing. Then get one picture and solve one big puzzle without showing anyone else your picture.
When mr tan left we all came together and showed each other the pictures, then solved within minutes.
Turns out to be some chicken head on a chicken in a house, in a mini-neighbourhood, on a table, in a magazine, in someone's hand, on a ship deck, on a ship, on a bus advertisement. -.-
So weird.
In the end we never learn anything cos everyone cheated.
What a valuable lesson.

Lit circles.. sigh. was bothered by an annoying wasp thing.
Kept flying around me. Stupid wasp.
the discussion went okay. Everyone did their part, they were so interested in the peeing part.
Page 57, para 1. I think patrick has the most fascination in that.
Kept pointing out to ms chan: 'hey! what about our pee point?!'

Stayed back for CME. had to waste money buy char siew bao for ppt.
In the end I gave it to cass and linmin. I think they owe me $$ now.
Took some really weird photos, cass thinks i'm not photographical enough. -.-
What does she know. xD

Friday no band, thursday no lessons, no time to practice before main band.
I'm so gonna die.

Think i'm gonna chiong study history and jap for tests next week, and do all my impending homework which will cause me doom if i leave them alone.
Holiday Homework is an OXYMORON, geddit. that means we deserve none of that.

There's always gonna be another mountain, I'm always gonna wanna make it move.

So darn stressed.
Shouldnt have put off filing.
Shouldnt have kept forgetting that stupid math workbook.
I seriously dont get math at all. Last diagnostic quiz: 1 mark.
I mean, how is that possible.
Used to be good at math. Ms ang is gonna be so disappointed if she sees me now.
The one who brought me to my a star, she's gonna be crushed if she sees my results.

Shouldnt have left my newspapers in school.
Promised zhenglaoshi already that I would improve.
And what does she get, more forgetfulness.
Which she doesnt deserve to get from her lousiest student.

Need to do lit circles, tidy it all up.

I think after everything, its finally falling apart.
Its finally come back to bite me in the butt.
Everything.

Why cant I just go back and fix it?

Cause where I am right now so unforgiving, its numbing everything.

Just found out the SYF results.
Kind of a letdown at first, but then I realized I dont deserve to emo about it.
Because I wasnt in it, and i dont know the feeling.
Jiayou all my seniors, still.
I dont know if they're feeling discouraged, but i'm proud of them anyway. :D
They did their best, and thats all there is to it.
I think this SYF thing just gave me more drive to practice too.
Makes me want to practice so hard and earn back that GWH we deserved.
And even if the judges were all stuck up like Simon Cowell, I'm gonna make them get on their feet and clap for us.
Is that possible, by the way? xD
Still, ITS FULL SPEED AHEAD! :D
With twice as much fuel than before? -.-

Went to orchard with my mom this morning.
She had her eyebrows done.
Bought some traditional filipino food there, at Lucky Plaza.
Felt so good to eat traditionally prepared food like that again.
Nostalgic. :D
Had to go to cathecism after.
Learnt something very important.
Shall bring it up on Good Friday, when its appropriate.

Spamming facebook quizzes. -.-
Thats kinda dumb actually. Nothing better to do.
This is showing that i need to get a freaking life.
I'll think I'll go surf random stuff and play with photoshop, like i always do.

Beat it, beat it, no one wants to be defeated.
Show them how funky strong is your fight, it doesn't matter who's wrong or right.

Stupid playlist.
Still ruined. I need my music man.
Comeon, it needs to be fixed soon.

[edit] what the shit. http://www.playlist.com/forum/general/topic/142809348
They've banned us because licensing restrictions are causing several songs to be unavailable for playing in our country. SAY WHAT.
They need to fix it. Cant imagine using something else. -.-
If it really cant be fixed, i might have to take the playlist off.
And what good would that be. This sucks. D:
[/edit]

Stayed back for fun today. Until about 4 plus-ish.
No band, due to syf. [still wondering how we did. anxiety is dangerous to small brains. -.-]
Waited for sarah after sch, lamed about in the classroom, cleaned it like mad to pass spot check.
Went down and bought happy chips. -.-
Then ate lunch. Saw weiting and yanting. Watched the band people pile into a bus for a while.
Speaking of band, we gave the seniors our cards this morning.
Spent two hours on them. Because American Idol and Heroes are really distracting. And I had a kaocha to study for.
Hope they liked it.
Talked to yanting and weiting, sarah and chingying left for EDS.
So me cass and yanting were left alone. And then while walking out Cass did the lamest thing possible.

So she suddenly remembered that she needed a flexi thing.
And walks towards the bookshop. Then she reached there, and then after a while ran out screaming, claiming: zhenglaoshi's in there!
So we went in together. Zhenglaoshi was in there. -.-
And for some reason she slapped haoyang, who happened to be in there, really loud.
Maybe zhenglaoshi was so freaked out she saw us and didnt say anything.
The bookstore auntie was laughing at her.

Weiting really "hated" cass for making her late.
[One can never take weiting too seriously.]
Cass was so high, singing songs in a high pitched voice, and taking turns leaning on me and weiting. In other words, she was being really gay.

Otherwise the day went pretty boring.
Sitting on my bed, reading TKAM, listening to 987.
So typical.
Cant my life be more interesting.
Cant I have band. -.-
I want band, and I also want no band, because I'm scared of going into main band.
I only JUST memorised major scales on monday. And now I've gotta know minor, wholetone, pentone.

Sigh.
Hope we did well for SYF. :D
Pretty confident in my seniors, yeah. They're all quite pro.
Especially compared to us. -.-
Thats kinda saddening. xD

Sometimes I wish I wasn't such a slacker. D:
And that I can actually FIND A GROUP during group-finding?
Recent issue brought it back up again.
I promised myself I would work harder, especially with groupwork.
And if I dont fulfill that, I deserve to DIE. [i think. -.-]

That was saddening too.
Must go spam youtube and spastic videos.
And chocolate. I need chocolate. CADBURY HERE I COME.

Stupid girl, you should have known, you should have known.

Lol.
Back to the lyric-inspired post titles then. [that's an old song, Unwell by Matchbox Twenty. xD
Ahh my playlist is ruined.
Most of the songs unavailable.
D:
Must go and check if anything is wrong. Come on, playlist.com, fix it soon. I need my music back.

Today was okay...
I think.
Yeah, it was pretty average.
We slacked for LA, with our geog worksheets mrs chin assigned.
Me and Linmin were playing around with the newspaper article title on photoshop.
No Grain Big Pain became No Grain DICK Pain somehow. o.o
Then PCCG we had a beauty talk.
Cass was experimenting with my specs.
She says she needed some, but I dont think its that bad yet.
Learnt about beauty and all that self esteem stuff, and eating disorders, and photoshop editing model pictures.
Cass was still playing with my specs when we were going home. -.-
So weird.
Somehow, she finds the whole "it's clear!" -takes off- "it's not clear!" thing pretty interesting.

I thought it was torture at first.
Getting used to wearing specs.
Not having the freedom to move your eyes up down left right and see everything the same.
I was supposed to put them on in june/july last year.
But I was so scared and shocked I put it off as long as I could.
Until they sent a letter to my house.
My mom found out and figured it must have been cos I read in the darkkk a lot.
So I had to wear specs. And somehow I think my eyesight worsened.
Let me take them off please.
I'm supposed to see the optometrist this year and see if taking them off will improve eyesight ornot.
I want them off. Now.
I'm not used to feeling restricted by a little box of clear vision while the rest is blur.
It IS torture.

Sigh.
Need to make good luck cards.
And do hw.
And study for cihuikaocha.
Sian.

When you find you, come back to me.