# 146; from a new perspective.

=.= i just found out august had a 31st wtf. soblur soblur.
teachers day was epicfailed in general.
we saw chuanhui [yearoneSF] on stage singing with his band. got girl guitarist hahaha. i admire her so much. right now i'm still like in development. yamahaguitarcourse please saveme. =.=
spurting crap now wth haha.

jingpei was giving this like, glassy-eyed look of pure adoration while nicole was up there singing "hero".
lol the classes up until 2H there were all looking around and going: "HAHAHA LOOK AT JINGPEI'S EXPRESSION WTH LOL"

the concert was okay la.
and it reminded me of a song that i wanted to learn for ages but threw aside in frustration because it was drop-d tuning =.=
but now i have a tuner.
hahaha thunder-boyslikegirls. (:
i can play it now.
stacy's mom on the other hand, requires an electric.
AREN'T YOU JUST DISAPPOINTED I CANT SERENADE YOUR MOM NOW HMM.
-.-

went to visit taonan today with weiqiang.
chityee so conveniently had cca zzz.
the rest didnt recognize me.
and claire said i look more filipino. i take it as a compliment yeahh. cos i'm more tanned. -.-
i was wearing my double-layered harrypotter outfit [cos it has a tie and its a dhs identification]
did i mention it was a sweltering hot day.
in the end we only saw qls [he busted me for speaking english at dunman high and not using chinese to speak like he told me to for like 2 years :P] and went rampaging around the school in disappointment cos the teachers dao-ed us. we arrived at the hall and, to our dismay and shock, a bunch of girls were dancing to "nobody" o.o

got together with the old gang from taonan today haha (:
brought back loads of memories.
i suddenly feel like going back for tns anniversary this year.

watched scare tactics just now hahaha.
i think its very funny.
zzz stupid playlist.com la -.-



off to learn some pro pro song that involves a capo (:
T.T see la rongying, your yupi candy made me so high.
at least i got motivation.
[if only i had yupi candy during exams. =.=]

i think nobody comes here anyway sighhh.
its like posting is pointless.
I HAVE NO FRIENDS LA SEE.

I wanna be praised from a new perspective, but leaving now would be a good idea so catch me up on getting out of here.

# 145;

blogger seems fixed again.
for now.
blogger is like a "teenager who lives his/her life according to feelings; one moment they're up, one moment they're down".
there are three kinds of love lol. eros, agape, and philia. [eros has something to do with physical, 100% physical; hence, erotic. philia is brotherly love, hence philadelphia = the city of brotherly love. agape is godly love. self-sacrifical, and how you should love your spouse/parents.]
look how much i learnt from cathecism yesterday rofl.
if my cathecist sees this i will die from publicizing.

went to visit xy-bastian after cathecism yesterday.
spent 4 hours there haha.
took random photos of him smiling. he's damn cute.
and very happy.

i got a capo. it was 22bucks and is very shiny. my dad surprised me by bringing it up yesterday halfway through worldstagemalaysia.
it was boyslikegirls, if i remember correctly.
he looked at the tv, and pointed at the capo on what i think should be martin's guitar. then he randomly said "what's that called? you don't have that, right?"
then i said: "that bar thing? its called a capo. and no, we don't have it."
so he said: "capo? to change the tone right? okay sure. tomorrow you remind me, we'll go eat at tampines mall, then we'll go get one for you."
and so i got a capo for 22bucks.

my dad is so random haha.
halfway through mass, during collection, when he was giving us money, he suddenly took a US onedollar bill and put it in my hand.
"here. take it."
then me and trysha were all o.o
then he started grinning then he said: "so that your wallet will never be empty. its money, but you cant use it."
i love my dad.

and thanks to him and my mom's spotting of several yamaha brochures, i'm gonna be taking guitar courses at yamaha should our budget be enough.
no more misguided self-dependent learning.
i want the electric and steel acoustic course. [but steel acoustic requires your own instru and is more ex]
its 9months each level for indiv.
and is on friday/saturday.
should i go for it.

not really much to post.
tomorrow's teachers day celebration.
alr prepared and settled what i'm gonna wear. pretty standardized =.=
[lol my sister has just offered over her previous harrypotter-ish specs for me to borrow. she alr gave me her drumsticks -.-]
and yeah will take spastic photos for the enjoyment and general mental torture of happy innocent blog-readers.

and you. stfu, please. your disappointed tone one more time, and i will explode.
its like the world is against me.
but who am i to complain about this.
most of the shit that happens to me is 100% my fault, if not more. i cause the problems and then i complain, and more problems happen.
damn it.
shouldnt talk to anyone at all then.

need to make my teachers day cards zzz
we have so many teachers, [i think rongying mentioned 15] and a limited supply of paper.
will make them, need to thank them for actually putting up with me.
people rarely do.
in fact, i rarely do.

stop there and let me correct it, i wanna live life from a new perspective.

# 144;

aren't i just the most reliable, trustable, awesome-est friend out there.
[YEAH RIGHT. (you mean i still have friends?! :O) <- that was taking it too far btw xD]

i found merchant of venice on youtube (:
wanted to watch the whole thing after today's excerpt.
at part 2/12 antonio and bassanio kiss on the lips lollll. gay.
and the movie has subtle porn DDD:
[no wonder ms chan never let us watch everything. i mean for goodness sake, the ladies their dress is like SUPER lowcut. until can see that. it freaked me out like shit. ITS A SHAKESPEARE MOVIE LA SICKOS WHY YOU PUT PORN ZZZ]
i think the movie the shylock is very cool. and very well portrayed yeahhh.
and bassanio is played by joseph fiennes, ralph fiennes' (voldemort) brother omg.

i got into main band :D
we found out our SLs and ASLs today. that part was not shocking, anyway.
i know i'm not near pro enough to be an SL or an ASL.
and... yeah.
carmen felt very reminiscent-ish.
keep imagining myself on that stage in that super big blazer looking out a the dark audience and trying not to play a wrong note.
i will work harder than everyone else so i can overcome my braces and become PRO!
[i'll have to prac for months and months and months first.] i'm already starting to get my tone back. jiayouuuu. [man i sound spastic =.=]
sp every wednesday and thursday yeahhh.
i love bandd (:

today we had tingxie and i epicphailed everything.
like xizi was for nothing cos i forgot and was careless.
at least i passed yeah.
the test however, is a hopeless case.
[sigh today during recess jingpei hijacked my facebook and made my take the "what body part are you?" (dick), "what kind of B!TCH are you?" (trashy b!tch - jingpei's influence), and "how will you die?" (car accident T.T) how depressing.]

this weekeend i will start my eoy revision.
and chem test.
i will also learn at least two new songs.
i'm determined.
and i will also rip up my jeans so i can wear them on monday. xD
haha i'm a sucker for ripped-up jeans.
they make me look like a rock-star. didn't you know harrypotter decided to become a rockstar recently.
(thats why i'm bringing zildjian drumsticks haha.)
[are we allowed to wear our own shoes o.o jeans looks weird with white adidas =.=]

[edit] there's also the scary fact that this saturday's cathecism lesson is supposed to be on that disturbing topic. T.T i have a feeling the teachers will have no mercy on us and bombard us with disturbing terms and stuff. i'm scared. [/edit]

while i recall all the words you spoke to me, can't help but with that i was there back where i'd love to be.

# 143; [sign language for iloveyou;my unit number]

ohman i forgot the greetings.
AHEM.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHINGYING/JELLYBEAN-O!
darn coding in html SUCKS.
i think blogger has like, h1n1 or something.
I MEAN. ITS ALL PALE. AND PURPLE AND BLUE.
=.=

i know that no matter what i do now,
i've failed chinese.
yet another expectation, failed too.
what do i tell my parents.
i studied like shit, but i studied the wrong thing.
i focused on the give-marks part and paid no attention to the rest.
if i get a 20-30, how can i face them.
how can i even face zhenglaoshi tomorrow when i take the paper from her.
i wanted to make a drastic improvement so that i can make all of them proud.
but what if i cant.
what if EOYs go the same way.
and i have to drop HCL.
i know it'll be easier.
but so many people will be disappointed in me.
the feeling will just crush all my insides.

I AM GOING TO DO THAT OTHER THING.
I HAVE TO TRY.
OR IT'LL EAT ME ALIVE.
YEAH SO WHAT DO I DO AGAIN.
ZZZ.
I'M PISSING MYSELF OFF WTFFFF D:
SO TOTALLY HOPELESS.
- leaps out the window -

TODAY.
i went home really early because a)today is day 6, b)i was supposed to go home early =.=.
assembly was msp.
sengjoe's voice was superfunny.
and retarded.
like: this stupid spastic voice.
and then he walked back across the stage with the microphone looking damn spastic.
and he brought the "hamburger" when he was being awarded wth.
i think all the band people were laughing when he talked.
i gotta feeling. (:

and i remember walking into the toilet today to iris's voice going:
-screams high-pitchedly- "OMG THERE'S BLOOD IN THE TOILET! -screams- "SOMEONE DIED!" -screams- "D: SOMEONE DIED IN THE TOILET!" -runs out of the cubicle and into the next one- "DD: SOMEONE DIED IN THE TOILETTTTT" -screams- "SOMEONE DIED IN THE TOILETTTTT DD:", etc.
i'm not revealing the reason for the blood.
guess it yourself.
but i advise you to stop eating before you guess.

sighhhh.
tomorrow my dad is coming back home.
:]
and on saturday i'm going to watch the SJ-ers doing stuff in my neighbourhood on the way home from church.
xD
OHNO NEXT WEEK IS THE NEXT DENTAL.
nevermind.
maybe i'll get used to it.

cuz i hate what you do, and i hate your whole crew, so please don't stay in touch.

# 142;

YES YANTING THE HERMIONE-MALFOY IS NICE. :D
"ouch"

took 12 home today (:
instead of 158.
12 is faster, and i didn't need to meet my mom on the way home. :DD
and i get to see interesting sites like my old house at siglap, my big bungalow used-to-be-house near rongying's [T.T], my old church [holyfamily!] and the pasta fresca that used to be under my old house at siglap.
OH and the pizza hut i ate at after my kindergarten graduation concert which happened to be during a heavy thunderstorm and all the lights went off halfway through eating and i screamed.
i should take 12 more often. :D

after today's PC lesson, i have confirmed that i am indeed under stress. -.-
BUT THANKS TO AN EXTREMELY EDUCATIONAL VIDEO, I KNOW HOW TO MANAGE IT! [do i get the nobel prize now o.o]
"take deep breaths, and relax your muscles"
i love the discovery channel song. "boom de ah dah." :D
it's just AWESOME.
chinese shuomingwen killed me.
halfway through doing, i realized i completely swerved off course.
so must think over da gang [THE GANG. =.= what lameness is this!] again.

sighhh.
i have exhibited some really stalkerish behaviour. yesterday.
and i discovered that we used to have a lot in common.
=.= why is puberty so screwed omg.
[why do i keep thinking back to that disturbing cathecism lesson in that disturbing room where we talked about disturbing things that had to do with sexual maturity. WHO KNEW YOU COULD LEARN THAT AT CHURCH! actually i did, but i never thought i was actually right.]

I AM GOING MAD.
ITS A MAD MAD WORLD. [YAY LAMBERT I STILL REMEMBER YOU! :D]
lol singapore idol tonight.
i am exhibiting signs of spasticism worthy of rongying [see class blog] and so i shall go bump into a wall and emo.
just like in Art.
who knew art was so painful.

♥HARRYPOTTER!
[just saying. xD]

i love the the mountains, i love the clear blue skies; i love big bridges, i love when great whites fly; i love the whole world, and all its sights and sounds. :D

#141;

changed it again =.=
i was getting tired of the "Upgrade to Pro Today!"
i don't need advertising on my blog, thankyouverymuch. (:

tuesday is a very tiring day.
[muttons have proclaimed it tarratarratuesday! how the heck do you spell that.]
I think that too many people are covering Heartless; Kris Allen, the Fray. o.o It's cool, though.
yes, yanting, heartless rocks. :]

P.E. was cool.
jogged/ran three rounds. lost track of number halfway yeah.
like, okay, follow belinda. xD
then we played frisbee. the first time i just ran around like some spastic hobos. [no offence is intended to spastic people or hobos.]
the second time was against melvin. :/
no time to relax. when i was goalkeeper was like the scariest part of the whole game. =.=
like: OHSHIT IT'S GONNA HIT ME!
that kind of thing.
in the end i turned out kind of pro. xD
KIDDING.

the LA/History combo which would have otherwise killed us all actually boosted all our morales.
we talked about love...
and then... yeah. THERE ARE DIFFERENT TYPES OF LOOOVE.
and then during history we graded tests... then.
jingpei just HAD to ask: "mr zein, are you romantic?"
so mr zein produced this epic quote:

It is said that all the love in history can be found in a rose, but all my love
for you is more than that of a rose.

(c) Hardi Zein 2009
:D
[speaking of which, he plays FARMVILLE. omg.]

jap was average.
we did some boring stuff. and then we did some spastic stuff.
on the bus cass and i related to rongying our EPICPHAIL experience with 2hour drills.
MARCHING FAIL! xD
then we practiced oral and learnt some stuff.
time actually flew past come to think of it.
rongying kept talking about chicken. [what do you call a donkey that can close one eye, fart very loudly, play the guitar, tell - "CHICKEN!"]

my dad's off overseas yet again.
i need to revise acc as a last ditch effort.
nahhhhh.
i don't care.
i have nothing to do with chinese culture.
how is tea going to help with my daily life? :/
so...
last ditch effort=cram nonsense books; i feel another novel idea coming on. =.=
must learn how to char develop and all that crap.
and then...
yeah.
these ideas are very rare.
so must develop!
[yeah i suck in LA. xD]

in the night i hear them talk, coldest story ever told.

omg.
everything about blogger is so screwed.
look at my blogskin D:
wtfffff.

i shall leave it there and let people enjoy: "Upgrade to Pro Today!" =.=
HECK.

Monday has been uh.
Okay.
so far, i've discovered a super-shocking red painful thing on my knee.
which hurts like shit.
and.
we did drills for 2 hours.
hahaha.
i think this is how UG feels like. xD
turn, check, left right left, up. D:
lollll.
2hours straight!
and then i greased my slide in the classroom. :/
i feel so guilty. the condition of my trombone is like shit and i don't take care of it even if i do know how.
and then i give the impression that i don't.
i think T.T
must maintain more often.

awaiting indoor results.
D: did i get in.
even if i didn't, i'm just gonna treat it as downtime to work on getting used to playing with braces and getting my tone (and range D: ) back.
OPTIMISTICISM. [there is no such word. :D]
IT WON'T KILL YOU. :D

[i just discovered that a certain kohrongying has facebook omgggg!]
=.=

who am i kidding. i can't do anything that i said i would. all words, no action, huh. DRAG YOUR STUPID PROCRASTINATING LAZY ASS UP THERE AND DO SOMETHING YOU STUPID IDIOT.

i'm currently bursting with pent up emotion yeah. D:
i dont wanna let it out here cos it will reveal some obvious things and i dont wanna sound like some lovesick angsty teenager. [small bits? T.T]
and lately, i don't have anyone to let it out to.
maybe i'll go for counseling when i'm free.
or i'll talk to my mom.
yeah talking to my mom is good.
walking that long visible pathway to the counselor's office is scary.
and i give the impression that i'm "needy" and i "should be pitied because she's going to the counselor!"
i need an outlet.
WAIT SHIT I ALREADY HAVE ONE.
=.=

cass taught me how to play a scale on the piano today. i feel accomplished.
piano feels very hard compared to the guitar.
like, pluck pluck pluck strum strum is easier than piano hahaha.
but the superhard riffs won't be. D:
I HAVE LONG FINGERS! =.=
guitar piano also can la. long fingers are good for both. :]

sighhh.
i need to sleep.
i'm going to fail chinese!
isn't that just GRAND.
happy birthday zhimin. =.=
damn, i, the birthday rep, owe someone a complementary qbread cake. T.T

i just wanna be alone tonight, i just wanna take a little breather, 'cause really all we do is fight, and everytime it cuts me deeper

WARNING: BECAUSE OF RANDOM EEP CONTENT AND IRIS'S HOSTILE TAKEOVER, BELOW POST MAY PROVE TO BE TOO RANDOM FOR THOSE WHO HAVE UNSTABLE MINDS OR WEAK HEARTS [or stomachs. or chickens. WHATEVER.] THOSE OF UNSURE MENTAL STABILITY, and for your own safety those of normal mental stability, PLEASE SKIP BELOW POST AND SCROLL DOWN TO A HAPPIER PLACE. THANK YOU FOR YOUR COOPERATION.
and in the words of iris, eep you.

HEYYO.
I shall now (since I'm being forced to) dedicate a post to IRIS.
[which i am sure, is perfectly appropriate during recess time in a classroom during school hours. please note: I AM BEING FORCED :D]

eep.

There you go.
WASN'T THAT EDUCATIONAL? -cheesy grin-

=.=
bye.

[edit] iris wants to type something. hello world, this is iris the eep here. EEPS SHALL RULE THE WORLD ONE DAY. rongying says that she will be proud of me and my eep when we rule the world. Hence, un-rongyings shall be screened in the upcoming untest. Please note the time and venue of the untest will be specified via ******** at a later date. CONFIDENTIAL[/edit]

OMG IRIS IS HIJACKING MY BLOGGER D:
please ignore above random edit.
thankyouverymuch.
Oh, and for the preservation of the sanity of those under 12 and those above 35, please skip this post completely.
we thank you for your cooperation.
PLEASE TAG. xD

family day today was awesome. (:
i relived my childhood like 20 times.
we practically ran around the whole of explorerkids at E!hub taking care of the special kids.
but it was fun, and it was a workout. xD
we had to squeeze through the kiddie maze and watch (enviously?) as the kids played around in the ballpit.
had lots of fun with day and trysh.
the food after that was awesome too.
and the mini-concert was ubercool.
(i.heart.brownies.and.punch.)
yeahhh. will post up photos another time, yeah. :DD

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAN WEI TING OF 2G WHO PLAYS THE TROMBONE AND CARES SO MUCH ABOUT HER MATH TEST GRADE THAT SHE REPEATED IT OVER 80 TIMES!
that was practically the longest birthday greeting in "largest" "bold" font i've ever done.
there you go, weiting.
happy birthday. xD

had cathecism and rehearsal all in one shot after that.
spent 3 frikin hours in the church.
of which the first 30 minutes were spent hobo-ing in the corridor until i sweat like mad and felt like punching the teacher in the chest.
(that's an exaggeration. i do not, and will not ever, want to punch the teacher in the chest. :D)
and then cathecism was on a very awkwaaaard topic.
that statement alone leaves just one possibility, doesn't it. =.=

hahaha.
i'm super bored.
and playlist has that stupid license restriction shit again.
sighhhhhh.

BLACK DRESS, WITH THE TIGHTS UNDERNEATH.

hell.
i'm done.
i'm done with pretending that it doesn't bother me.
i'm done with looking happy-with-my-life and waiting ages for nothing.
i'm done with watching people's lives go on without me.
i'm done.
[so why don't you get off your lazy ass and do something.]
i will. i'm not going to care about the reaction to what i say. i'm not waiting any longer.
i'm done with living some life that's barely worth any freaking notice.
it's so freaking pathetic. ["what do you do in school?" "oh i don't know, just sit there."]
now i know why so many people are pissed with me.
ignore this part if you want. don't ignore it. flame it. complain about it. leave me alone and never talk to me again because of it. do whatever you want with it. post it on facebook.
i don't freaking care.
[though it is recommended that kiddies below 13, and those who don't give a damn skip abovementioned part. thankyouverymuch for your cooperation. (OHNO IS IT TOO LATE?!) :D]

i am angry. D:
with myself, mostly. =.=

TODAY WAS INDOOR TEST DD:
i don't know what to say, really.
scary, nervous, screwed-up high notes, some mess-ups, hope i did well.
now i look back at it, i dont know what's there to be scared of o.o
but then again. thats the big question everyone's asking.
if i wasn't nervous, i would have done better.
stress. it kills you.
[LOOK I'M DEAD!]

HOMEWORKKKKK!
i need to do homework. and then i'll have the rest of the weekend to slack and learn tingxie and chem.
i think every little part of the hcl grade is impt. :]
motivationnnnnn. [my parents just threw out the "if you do well at the end of the year, who knows what we may surprise you with" line at dinner today when trysh was offhandedly talking about "that drumset i want so much"]

i am going to learn new songs because i want to slack and that seems to be the best way to do it cos facebook is getting boring ><
and playing new songs is really cool [so i can join centerstage next year! DUH JOKING.]
sigh.
aren't i lame.

i stand by what i said yesterday.
I. Am. Smart. [what a random statement. Only smart people accept that i'm smart. :D ohcrap am i taking a leaf out of felicia's book. (am i actually using a figurative saying) o.o]
:D

dreaming, i was only dreaming, of another place and time, where my family's from.

changed blogskin.
and url.
i felt change in the air?
[OMGSOCORNYRIGHT.]

haha i leveled to apprentice and caught a diamond without knowing!
[if you're a genius you'll know what i'm talking about -.-]
if you're a genius you'll also know i'm quite noob. xD

i just spamtagged everyone with "HI PLS RELINK!"
=.=
just for fun: leave-thistown.blogspot.com = "Leave This Town" = Daughtry's 2nd album :D
i <3 daughtry.
and since it seems very accurate, i think i'll keep it there.

D: DAMMIT I JUST HELPED MY SISTER BEAT ME ON TYPING MANIAC.
and now i cant beat her high score.
[or my own. whatever.]
I AM ANGRY. D:
(damn my right index finger hurts like shit now.)

heck. here's my todo list for today: [-.-]
1. revise tingxie
2. fix math file
3. revise chem [acidalkali T.T]
4. do my exam study timetable :D
5. do the foodmate thing
6. YUEDUBUTIEEEEEE

sofarrrrr, i've already revised tingxie le. :]
so now i'm on my mathfile.
then i will revise chem and EST and foodmate should take a total of less than 30min to finish.
ydbt abt 1 hour plus bahh.

i am proud of my focusedness.

i just realized i just turned slack-day into studylikeshit day.
haha. i never noticed.
this just means that i am developing an interest for studying which means...
OHSHIT I HAVE TO SLAP MYSELF NOW.
kidding. i think its good. i've been trying to accomplish that for months.
my tests are my motivation.
:]
and i want my electric guitar real bad so must make my parents super happy with EOYs.
i'm really smart.
jiayou!

The last time we talked, the night that I walked, burns like an iron in the back of my mind, I must've been high to say you and I weren't meant to be and just wasting my time, oh, why did I ever doubt you?

my mind is so jumbled D:
i'm thinking about this, and i'm thinking about that, and yeah.
cannot think properly.
i think its a miracle i paid attention in class today.
so many nagging thoughts.
i'm really confused.
don't know what the hell i'm supposed to do.
its not like any of the things i think about are remotely possible. or some of them.
its actually no use thinking about them.
and yet they're still there.
confusedddd.

ANYWAY.
i'm super shocked over my grades recently.
i never studied, not that hard anyway.
as in. i was really disappointed with my effort for the tests.
and then comefrombehind pass pass pass highmark pass blah blah blah.
WTFFFF.
am i like super lucky. actually in this time of the year, i'm supposed to be emo-ing about how i screwd up my grades again.
then somemore i passed math.
and geog essay i got 9/10 omg.
i almost failed or failed the previous one.
i'm extremely shocked with myself.
but i still get to emo this year.
chinese is a lost cause.
if i pass it, i'll jump off a building in utter shock.
doesn't that sound fun? :D
[ooh lol some person just got A for chinese in O'levels after not passing chinese for 4 years. and now i know its possible. xD]

all those people who failed shouldn't be too sad though [ooh this is contradicting. xD]
its not the end of the world [AHEM. WEITING.]
it can still be made up for, if you have the motivation, and the DRIVE! [AHEM. WEITING.]
never give up and keep going! [AHEM. WEITING.]
cos everything is possible. (: [like passing chinese O levels after failing for 4 years even if you dont need to take O levels. xD]
yeah i have to admit, this part of my post is mostly for weiting, cos i'm damn tired of hearing her say: "i failed my math test!" over 80 times. xD
but yeah. its not the end yet. there's still like 2 years of chances left. and grades aren't that important [=.= la speech]. for now. yeah. college is important too! xD [ohshit what if i fail college. =.=]
i'm so easy to understand right. :D

tmr is a holiday.
i need to catch up on some slacking. srsly.
i'll slack the whole day and at the end study for tingxie.
-.-
i'll go enter the spasticrongyingphoto contest on the class blog tomorrow too.
[i think lystra-hater is hilarious btw. hate us still come to our blog and tag. adding to visitor count xD]

damn dont feel like watching singapore idol today.
i'll go do what i do best.

in my shoes just to see, what its like to be me, i'll be you, let's trade shoes, just to see what it'd be like to feel your pain, you feel mine, go inside each other's mind, just to see what we find, look at shit through each others' eyes.

went to lunch at 7107 flavors yesterday at marina square.
really nice place for filipino food yeah. (:
and very ex. :/

here are the photos i promised xD:

today was almost indoor test.
almost.
but on monday, i'm definitely going in there.
to fail.
to forget everything.
to screw up the high notes, and look like i'm thinking too hard.
i have to remember to bring my gel on monday.
then the braces can stop making disturbing lines of blood on my lip.

i wanted to go to centerstage today D:
but i couldn't.
think of the parent's reactions.
"Can i go to -"
"No."
[oddly enough, thats how i always imagine it to be, no matter what.]
"Can i use the -"
"No."
"Can i have the -"
"No."
xD that's twistedly hilarious.

i did pass math. confirmed by the returning of the math paper.
but mrs koh marked me wrongly.
bye, one mark.
18/30 is decent, considering i FAILED the other common test/s.
[weiting, your total is 57 times btw. =.=]

going early to school on monday!
to practice.
from 715 hopefully to 840.
good thing there's class assembly.
i'm damn scared i dropped my thermometer in the interchange.
i think i put it in my pocket.
and i heard the sound of something plastic dropping after i took my wallet out of my pocket.
[after checking, i have discovered that i indeed HAVE dropped it. D: can anyone save me by bringing an extra.]

i feel happy and defiant.
dont ask why.
[probably why i absentmindedly went: HI LYSTRA HATER! WANNA BE FRIENDS? I CAN ADD YOU ON FACEBOOK! on the class blog =.=]
what if its some kind of inside joke. like someone posted in response, within the class. =.=
what if the lystra hater comes here. xD
hello. :D
=.=

going to a filipino restaurant tmr. 7107 flavors. :D
will take lotsa photos if i rmb.
then aft that children's mass rehearsal at church.
sept children's mass.
=.=
2pm... must leave early.
D:
then aft that still got cathecism.
omg so sian.

Tonight's the night, let's live it up, I got my money, let's spend it up; Go out and smash it, like oh my god, jump of that sofa, let's kick it OFF.

i passed math omg.
19/30.
i dont believe it.
did i actually pass.
i had to like scan the list 4 times before i finally accepted it.
so unbelievable.

something that's impossible however, is passing the chinese test. -.-
it totally wiped out all my brain cells. actually, the only part i am confident i will pass is the chengyu yanyu suyu, ironically.
my suyu died, and i forgot one word bits, but... i am quite confident there.
i totally screwed up the rest.
the back i totally failed.
i'll be shocked if i pass.
super shocked.

D: my chinese endofyear results are confirmed bad. itll bring down my GPA and i'll end up in a class that all my classmates will make fun of me for being in. =.=
i'm gonna fix math file.
so i can bring up my math marks.
they're good right now. :]
i've improved.

sighhhh. i'm going to do science.
i stayed back for sp today. :]
i improved my tone during that 1h plus.
it sounds good, i figured out how. and i practiced scales.
i know how to do minor now :] can memorize.
but i will play slowly cos i will remember by: flatten 3rd and 6th note of major scales can le.
i tried it out on my guitar yesterday.
it works. so i memorize like that.
pentone can also.
so now wholetone is my main aim.
jiayoujiayou!

i need to sleep early today. sigh 9.30 T.T [i feel like such an IRIS. sleep at EIGHT, that one.]
my mom wants me to grow.
sideways and upways.
=.=

every step we climb another mountain.

its done.
i surefailed chinese.

oh well. at least there's eoys.

jiayou.
when all else fails, call your friends help you mug. =.=

TEEHEE. xD
[post more tmr. damn tired. braindead. =.=]

we're going out tonight, to kick out every light, to get anything we want to drink everything in sight, we're going till the world stops turning while we burn it to the ground tonight.

i practically died from set theory today.
"A is an element of S where S={x:x is blablabla whatever crap shit thing} and T is a proper subset of S which means that they are equal!"
=.=

everything sucks now. =.=
i wish i had 7day mc again. or maybe a school holiday.
even though being sick feels like crap, i feel like crap anyway. same difference.

and there's no way i can memorize all my chengyu yanyu suyu in time.
goodbye, marks.
i can practically see them flying away.
yeah can see zhenglaoshi handing out papers, giving me mine silently. saying nothing like she always does when i fail.
giving me that: "you need to try harder. don't give up." speech she gave me last time.
i'm going to chiong memorize, and i dont care if i have to stay up till 3AM. I'm getting them all done.

[on a lighter note, 3000 left to the mouse trebuchet :D (omg i sound like some nerd. =.=)]

i definitely failed math.
i knew it when mrs koh said: "all those usual people failed."
the way she said it seemed so degrading. i dont want to be part of the usual people anymore.
i need to try damn hard. i need to work on my concepts and everything.

thirdlang was mildly entertaining today next to iris.
she reads super fast and is super smart and helps me with my jap. xD
halfway through the lesson, iris stole zishan's domo-kun =.=
I <3>

DAMN IT WHY DO I KEEP LOSING EVERY SINGLE FREAKING THING THAT IS IMPORTANT.
shit.
stupid wallet. stupid golden village booking number.
stupid inability to organize.
why the shit am i so hopeless.
NO WONDER NOBODY TRUSTS ME.
not even my parents. nobody.
I DESERVE IT I GUESS. STUPID.
INORGANIZED.
UNTRUSTWORTHY.
i need a hole where i can bury all my shame.

sigh.
changed braces colour today. and tightened the wire. very pain D:
and now its red. i like red.
next appointment is september 5. and i bet the four weeks will pass by uneventfully, and i'll find myself wondering what colour to put next or to just go with red all the way.
i think i'll go with red the whole way.
its pain! D; but i can still eat.
damn. i wanted an excuse for friday.
JOKING. =.=

the format bar is back btw. -.-
its on and off.
so unpredictable. like everything else in my seriously suckish and noobish life.

i've been playing mousehunt. xD and becoming slightly less noobish each time.
but i'm still noob la.
only got the 500pound spiked crusher and the wooden base with target. and i'm novice and hunting at gnawnia with like 28 pieces of marble.
and my hunting has been bad. like, either go stale or escape with my cheese.
D: i'm so noob. 6912 points o.o
i'm aiming for the trebuchet. :]
and to become apprentice. lol noobish 18% xD
so far only catch white, grey, brown, steel, granite, dwarf and bionic.
-.- why am i posting about mousehunt. its addictive.
did i just answer my own question. o.o

today was interesting.
after braces we went to jalan-jalan at orchard there.
went to ion orchard. super nice(:
my sister fell in love with the crumpler store [who can blame her? xD] and almost fainted when she saw the price. [HAHAHA $163]
then we browsed stores and stuff and went to lucky plaza to eat lunch.
aft that we went into some fancy mall just to use the toilet -.-
and i became super bored at orchard tower while my mom and aunts shopping for bargain clothes omg. i read like 4 chapters of harrypotterandthedeathlyhallows. [was the only book available in trysh's bag.]
met my other aunts at tampines mall. they were buying iPhone 3GS.
trysh and i were super wuliao and bought two macs icecream during the wait.
i think i heard "what do you see" play like four times. -.- [lekuasimi xD]
singtel store has a superbig TV. watched some music show while waiting and played with the HTC Dream. facebooked hahaha.

sighhhh. i need to find those two stupidass things on top. -.-
so my parents wont scold me even more.
alr cannot trust me then now i lose two impt things i sure die.
help me, please? D:

o.o i havent tried guitar geek today. [no-lifer!]
i'm going to go play some. :]
[no-liferrrrrrr]

hola. [shit. thats hello.]
adios, amigos. :D

a wonderwall of stars.

happy national day!(:

i'm not singaporean, thankyouverymuch.
i barely know our (filipinos) national anthem D:
[bayang magiliw... okay whats next.]
and i know the independence day is june 12.
okay i searched google when mr zein asked.

today's celebration was okay.
everybody zi-highing at the parade square.
singing community songs and waving crazily at some person in the building across the road who was freaked out.
in the classroom was high too.
we won second for trivia game. 5-point qn is the hardest. -.-
then dont forget the lyrics we won second also.
got lollipop anw.
then face painting was fun. doodle everywhere.
draw harry potter scar on my forehead, draw white star on hand, write pwned! on my arm. and teehee on the other one.
watched lekuasimi and wash your hands too. -.- mrbrown parodies!
then we ate wonderful cake and i waited for one hour for sp to start.


hahaha LEKUASIMI :D

sp was damn fun today (:
we learnt whole tone scales. and everyone was high.
i remember the seniors playing with the makeup crayons. draw on hand then smudge on someone else's arm. then ambush.
lol weiting and i were laughing like mad. -.-
and we played scales and bach chorales.
then we went to the band room [to see snow white - senior high edition which was totally gay]
and briefed on the sectional cupboard, then sorted out some stuff. and ate two chocos.
i became insane after that.
found a lot of weird stuff in the cupboard.
"this is a random blazer. senior high, female."
"this is rumeng's plastic bag."
"this is a random wire. if you know whose it is, tell us."
-.- lol.
we learnt how to play stuff and i found out my low notes are better now.

haha yay i beat my guitar geek score.
up there with peishan and weiqiang le.
lol they two very pro.
i'm gonna go spam so i can beat their score. very close.
just no mistakes and i think i can beat them. combo score will be very high. :]
post again later.

i just wanna be alone tonight, i just wanna take a little breather; cos really all we do is fight, and everytime it cuts me deeper.
yes i finally learnt how to play this song after a twoweek delay. i'm gonna learn another one tonight

damn.
just when i was so happy about the format bar.
it goes away.
is my browser faulty?

while on the subject of sad stuff.
i am very worried about health check. [there is no injection right. i'm sick of those things.]
they said my eyes would be better and that the specs would make them better.
please get them off.
i dont wanna wear specs. [i shouldn't have read in the dark/lying all those years - i'm such a nerd =.=]
i hope they're better.
i've been fatefully wearing them... so.
PLEASE GET THESE STUPID GLASS THINGS OFF ME.
i dont wanna wear contacts either. contacts are uncomfortable, expensive, and are still second best next to no-glasses-at-all.
PLEASEPLEASEPLEASE.

haha i just saw a few signs that were hilarious lol.
there's one that goes: "no entering during menstrual periods" xD sick.
and another that goes: "to all who use our competitors' products; happy fathers day" [a durex (cond** brand) ad]
and one that goes: "ENJOY LIFE. EAT PORK."
HAHAHAHA.
jianchong will love the pork one.
cass will love the menstrual periods one. and if she gets it, the condom one. -.-

tmr is national day.
i'm going to be cca-patriotic and wear my rhythmxxiii shirt.
because all the band ppl in class are gonna wear it.
and i dont wanna be left out and yeah.
i still remember the stupid sneetches video today. and hcl was jiaoyouzhidao.

[which got me thinking about how valuable friendship is, and then i started pitying myself and thinking you should pity me too. but then i realized how stupid i was being. i dont deserve to be pitied. if they are including me cos of pity, i'd rather not be included at all. i'm not a plain-bellied sneetch (-.-). i'm a star-bellied sneetch, at least in the eyes of my family. even if i did wrong, at least i have a fallback. school may not last forever, but my family, and their love, does. so, for now, i'm just chilling. i'm not asking to be pitied. and i'm not asking people to pity me for my cowardliness. its who i am. when it comes down to crunch time, i'm a dirty little coward. i've gotta face that. at least my family's there for me, at least they dont care i'm a coward. i'm not blaming anyone, i'm not flaming anyone. if i flame anyone, it should be me. but please, just forget about me. i'm not worth thinking about right now, not worth taking up that valuable space in your brain. just ignore me. just leave it. i'm perfectly fine. when i'm done being a dirty coward, and when i get a suitable attitude adjustment, i'll come back to you. please hold yeah. hope you have enough patience for me, cos you'll need a lot of it. flame me if you will for this part of my post. i dont mind right now. i'm not letting social pressure hurt me. i'm being my own person. I DON'T CARE. (see i love falloutboy yay) i know you want to mend what used to be. i want it too. but yeah, i cant do anything right now. at least until i get that attitude adjustment, and that slap in the face i havent gotten. do you know where i can get one? :D]

so here's the jist of the sneetch movie:
"OH HI I'M A STAR-BELLIED SNEETCH I ROCK AND YOU DON'T!" and then they took off and put on their stars over and over again and wasted all their money.
retards.
sneetches are uber lame.
and i dont think they help.
unless you have a stupid star on your stomach. =.= or you're fat. cos the sneetches are really fat.
that holds no connection whatsoever btw.
YAY.


omg hilarious newmoon parody. xD "EDDIE!"

sigh. i think i wanna prac again.
i'm alone at home so i think i'll have a wild college dance party, and entertain everyone with my imba trombone skills. and my superior riffing skills. [which i don't have! :D]
yeah right.
i'm gonna quietly practice while drinking coke through the mouthpiece.
xD haha kidding.
post again later.
come back, format bar. =.=

edit;
OHDAMN ITS NOT BACK!
i have reflected (see above xD)
and i'm perfectly happy with who i am. (no i'm not)
so i'm looking for that attitude adjustment.
and i'll be really grateful to someone who can get me a mental hospital number.
tenjewberrymuds. :]
i'm gonna go write a song haha.

i wanna, i wanna, i wanna touch you, you wanna touch me too.

omg so the format bar actually works in the afternoon also.
[i'm so wuliao. talk about format bars when i should be blogging. sigh. no directive, no drive.]
what does that mean anyway. i heard it from wall-e. ["dirreecctivveeeee..." =.=]

i'm starting to doubt whether i'm a vampire or not.
i bust my lip today and when i licked the blood off the taste was really cool and i peeled off somemore. -.-
thats it.
i need counseling.
maybe i'll ring up the counseling room tomorrow.
i'm this close to either slitting myself or locking myself in my room forever. [unless of course i need the toilet and food.] maybe i'll bite myself and drink my own blood. o.o disturbing mental image.
counseling. -.- HELPME.
am i a vampire?
[i'm worried.]

today's geog test sucked.
i wrote crap and i barely finished my unnecessarily long essay when the bell rang. [there was no bell.]
cannot eat, as usual, thought of that disturbing thing, as usual. Slapped yanting for dao-ing me, as usual.
HOW COULD YOU DAO ME! CANT YOU SEE THE EMOTIONAL HARM ITS CAUSING! STOPIT OR I'LL SLAP YOU ALL ABOUT.
There. -.-

I missed the guitar ensemble performance today.
i wanted to see it and take pointers, but i missed it, so... D:
i want to be pro just like them!
but its near impossible. -.-
it'll take about 2 more years.
practice!
ohshit, my trombone. i'm gonna blow long notes and search up some scales and prac my tone cos the braces suck. and i'm gonna readjust them on sat have to get used to them all over again.

post later after i prac trombone. :D

its not a war, no its not a rapture, i'm just a person, but you cant take it.

i love you, trombone. :)

#125.
THE FORMAT BAR! THANK YOU BLOGGER.

yanting you dao me again you die okay.
i will whack you nonstop and let cass loose on you.
=.= okay the cass part is obviously a joke.
BUT STOP DAO-ING MEEEEE D:
I'm too worthy to be daoed! xD

today went horribly. (wait. i mean great.)
i almost (very close to) fainted this morning. i thank the cupboard for cushioning (making it much worse) my fall. i just stood up after falling asleep, wobbled around a while, then it went black and the next thing i knew: shoulder+cupboard door=loud and painful bang.
i ate breakfast today. i couldn't taste anything and my shoulder throbbed like hell.
misschan was half and hour late for la. so we slacked and i almost fell asleep.
pe sucked. i went to sit out because i felt awkward.
and then ran around with cass and sat down.
then got scolded by mrkwok.
-.- recess was normal. drink, rush up, change, lie down (on the table), wait for the next class.
CME was boringass shit. thats too harsh. it was a bucket of rainbows!
i almost fell asleep.
history was cool. we watched a nice vid.
and science lab was interesting.

jap sucked. I PWN YOU RONGYING.
PWNNNED. i loved it when rongying pwned julia.
like:
rongying taps julia, and julia turns the wrong way.
hahaha priceless.
i ate a waffle and some lunch today. because i am concerned about my body and i want to go fat.
rongying sulked abt not going to ri.
i failed my jap ca. (YAY REJOICE!) didn't revise. knew what to expect. epicfail!
boring jap stuff.
spoilt rongying's correction tape :/
played shootshangmarry on the train and told sick jokes.

There was a little boy whose parents took him to a bar. All around him, people were having sex. So the little boy asked his parents: "Mommy, daddy, what are they doing?"
And the father, thinking on his feet and not wanting to teach his kid the wrong thing, said: "Oh, they're baking a cake."
One fateful day, the parents decided to do it on the sofa. The little boy ran to them afterwards and asked: "Mommy, daddy, were you baking a cake on the sofa?"
And the father, confused, says: "Why, yes! How did you know?"
The boy said, "I was just licking the icing."

SUPERSICK MAN. it came from rongying.
yeah here's another one:

This super hot lady goes to the doctor. The doctor, unable to contain himself, does a "full body examination", of course, he gropes around everywhere and has sex with the woman over and over again.
At the end of the examination, the woman looks up and asks the doctor: "So, doc, how do I get rid of my AIDS?"

hahaha sick.
so awesome. xD
patrick was polluting zishan today with the first joke and the voodoo dick one.
sigh. stupid gay pedophile.

i'm going to mug geog lastminute and get started on lastminute muggingformemory chinese chengyu yanyu suyu.
wish me luck T.T

like the memories we used to share, you'll never come back to me.

AW YEAH THE FORMAT BARRRR.
-.- okay come to think of it, what time is it now.
9pm. So far, my previous theory was right...
short random post for you. -.- go read the lame convo below and watch the nigahiga vids if you're here for entertainment.
[lol this reminds me of some lame line from icarly. OHSHIT I SHOULDNT HAVE REVEALED THAT I WATCHED THAT. yes iris, embrace the vulgarities. you'll be seeing them alot. xD HAHAHA.]

heck.
today was shiok.
assembly was abit boring.
ARE YOU READY FOR A LIFE OF TESTS OR THE TEST OF LIFE.
Sounds like an ad campaign. xD
yeahhh.
then we released at 115.
cass was laming about in the canteen with julia, thiri and me.
cass kept touching me under the table omg.
band was cool.
we worked on bach chorale, scales and our tone, which mrng corrected.
weiting was once again, mistaken for a year one. hahaha.
her hair makes her look young.
AND YANTING DAO MEEE D:
How could you dao me after I loved you so much?
I'm joking. =.=
Weiting and i took cab to aljunied today. super shiok.
cab driver helped us load our trombones into the back, and then we drove off for aljunied and talked about crap like cass and the rudesecurityguard who shouted at her: "CAN YOU PLS STOP SHOUTING LIKE A CRAZY WOMAN?" walao call us crazy somemore. =.=
joking. actually we were being crazy.
So... :D

I think I'm high. [i just had two cups of raspberry ripple ice cream]
And I think I'm depressed. [my sister stole the deathly hallows from me!]
And I think I love my trombone. [i'm going to camwhore with it because i adore it so much]
And I think I hate my braces. [please change them red this sat. brace yourself for the pain. =.= was that a pun.]

Chiongstudying for geog.
Please let me remember what I crammed.
I'm gonna eat breakfast tomorrow after mr sng's disturbing poll. haha i only eat breakfast on tuesdays. =.=
my stamina sucks btw. awwwwdang.
and my farmville rocks. hahaha. i'm super lame. play lame farm games yeah.
facebookkkkk.
which my parents both have now. and they're spamposting baby photos. someone's gonna tag soon. =.=

Ahhh super stressed. I rarely get downtime during the weekdays. and on sunday i gotta study too.
shiiiiiit.
i'm going to listen to muttons.
they have nice names for the weekdays.
i didnt catch last friday D:
FKED UP FRIDAYYYYY! :D
-.-
that was gay. [like cass]
"I gotta feeling~" [tonight's gonna be a good good night xD]

But can you hear me say, don't throw me away; and there's no way out, I wanna hold you somehow.
Take everything that i know you'll break, and i give my life away.

OHMAN.
Is there some kind of time thing where you have to log on at a certain time to access blogger's awesome format bar.
Must log on at night and click: "edit post"!
Cool.

I didn't get to go band chalet yesterday. D:
Stupid.
My dad came back from Vietnam = stay at home and spend time with him.
This sucks. Will I never get to go on a band outing ever.
Will I get any freedom at all?
Or do I have to wait until I'm "old enough". Five years. Ten years. Fifteen years. How long?

Take a look at this lameass thingy I got by email from my mom. xD
It's kinda funny.
Note: read out loud so you understand what it says.[because that's the only way.]

The following is a telephone exchange between a hotel guest and room-service at a hotel in Asia , which was recorded and published in the Far East Economic Review:
Room Service (RS): "Morrin. Roon sirbees."
Guest (G): "Sorry, I thought I dialed room-service. "
RS: " Rye ..Roon sirbees..morrin! Jewish to oddor sunteen??"
G:"Uh..yes..I' d like some bacon and eggs."
RS: "Ow July den?"
G:"What??"
RS: "Ow July den?...pryed, boyud, poochd?"
G:"Oh, the eggs! How do I like them? Sorry, scrambled please."
RS: "Ow July dee baykem? Crease?"
G:"Crisp will be fine."
RS: "Hokay. An Sahn toes?"
G:"What?"
RS: "An toes. July Sahn toes?"
G:"I don't think so."
RS: "No? Judo wan sahn toes??"
G:"I feel really bad about this, but I don't know what 'judo wan sahn toes' means."
RS: "Toes! toes!...Why jew don juan toes? Ow bow Anglish moppin we bodder?"
G:"English muffin!! I've got it! You were saying 'Toast.' Fine. Yes, an English muffin will be fine."
RS: "We bodder?"
G:"No...just put the bodder on the side."
RS: "Wad?"
G:"I mean butter...just put it on the side."
RS: "Copy?"
G:"Excuse me?"
RS: "Copy...tea. ..meel?"
G:"Yes. Coffee, please, and that's all."
RS: "One Minnie. Scramah egg, crease baykem, Anglish moppin we bodder on sigh and copy....rye? ?"
G:"Whatever you say."
RS: "Tenjewberrymuds. "
G:"You're very welcome."

Lol bet you didnt get it the first time round. I didn't :/
It's lame and hilarious lol.
People actually talk like that.
My family went crazy over the email and started spam-posting it on FB.

FB games super addictive lol.
I spent like an hour on Guitar Geek ytd trying to beat my previous score.
I think I did. -.-
Then there's all those farm games my family keeps spamming me gifts with. Lol those are interesting to watch.
Then there's stupid PS. xD
And Restaurant City. Which is totally frustrating cos nobody wants to trade wimme/has anything I want.
I play MouseHunt occasionally lol. Same goes with Ghost Trappers and Mafia Wars.
All the games I play obviously suck. Except, ironically, those farm games cos my relatives keep spamming gifts on me.
And they're all super pro. So learn from them lor.
Mygosh. =.= [i never knew tom felton could sing. =.= or that he was imba at guitar.]
DID YOU KNOW TOM FELTON COULD SING?! I have newfound admiration for him now. And a lot of people think he's shuai so this is a plus. [refer to Facebook "My type of guy" quiz. xD kidding.]
that was really informative.

Yeah.
Um.
I'm going to go cry over spilt milk.
Because I spilt milk on the floor. And it seems pretty fitting. =.=
Shit, I really do have NO life.
xD
MUSIC HERE I COMEEEEE.

I'll keep you my dirty little secret.

Somehow, I've developed a newfound disturbing love for the F-word.
=.= omg whats happening to me.

Had filming just now in the morning.
Total retarded fun.
Arrived at school and found the SJ people doing POP.
Passing Out Parade, i think.
I remember the first time I heard that term from Rongying. I thought it was a fainting parade -.-
Met melvin at the canteen. my stupid handphone ran out of battery.
so we filmed. and took me in an overlarge jingpei school shirt reading a letter.
then we filmed in the boys' toilet ohmygosh.
really disturbing. the emo scene.
we were all squatting in a corner after breaking a plank of wood from the door. Now anyone can peep in wtf.
Rebecca and Vivian were commenting on how clean the boys' toilet was.
i found that hilarious.
Then we filmed the bumping scene.
Bump, bump, run, bump so many times.
Drop wallet, and all that useless crap. Okay, maybe not useless, but still.
Then Zhimin's emotional over-the-phone scene.
The whole time I thought someone was stalking us.
But I was wrong yeah.
It was a blazer container thingo.

OMG INDOOR TEST ON MONDAY! D:
I just discovered the expectations and I wanna kill myself.
Not really.
I had an urge to try that thing with the bottle and the rubber hose.
It seems fun. But I couldn't find a hose.
So... screw that.
Now I have to memorise the scales so that I stand a better chance.
And my breath and intonation and crap.
And my high notes because the braces f**k them up too much.

Sigh. I dont wanna go cathecism.
I wanna stay home and mope.
But I cannot!
So... I shall go and mope there.
Cathecism lol. Skipped like four weeks cos of "unforeseen circumstances" which included birthdays and falling sick. =.=
My attendance is so screwed.
But I kinda miss the taking notes and listening.
I wonder if I missed anything important.
Ohshit what if I did. O.o
I'm gonna go and find out. (That there's no cathecism and that I have to go home again.)
No one fking told me anything! D:
I feel so outcasted sigh.

I wanna continue ranting when I get home. right now i need to treasure my home time before i have to go to cathecism at holy trinity.
huzzah.

;edit

OHMYGOD BLOGGER'S BACK.
AWESOMEEEEEEE!
YESYESYES.
I'm on high now. -.-
After watching a bunch of random youtube vids, going to cathecism (which didn't suck at all contrary to popular belief; well mostly just mine =.=) and uh. falling asleep at the comp, I feel high.
But blogger's fcking format bar is back. and i can post photos!
if only i had photos.
how sad.
i'm gonna go emo.
that i have no photos.
ohshit, look how lame i am.
tmr i'll take loads of photos.
cos my relatives are coming over to celebrate trysh and mom's bday (one week late)
and i dont think i'm going to mass cos there'll be no time to prepare.
toldya i was gonna rant. =.=
heck. i'm gonna gorge myself on twisties
i remember the stupid webcam vid last year xD
YAY BLOGGER'S BACK HUZZAH.

All the promises we made, one by one they vanished just the same.

# 146; from a new perspective.

=.= i just found out august had a 31st wtf. soblur soblur.
teachers day was epicfailed in general.
we saw chuanhui [yearoneSF] on stage singing with his band. got girl guitarist hahaha. i admire her so much. right now i'm still like in development. yamahaguitarcourse please saveme. =.=
spurting crap now wth haha.

jingpei was giving this like, glassy-eyed look of pure adoration while nicole was up there singing "hero".
lol the classes up until 2H there were all looking around and going: "HAHAHA LOOK AT JINGPEI'S EXPRESSION WTH LOL"

the concert was okay la.
and it reminded me of a song that i wanted to learn for ages but threw aside in frustration because it was drop-d tuning =.=
but now i have a tuner.
hahaha thunder-boyslikegirls. (:
i can play it now.
stacy's mom on the other hand, requires an electric.
AREN'T YOU JUST DISAPPOINTED I CANT SERENADE YOUR MOM NOW HMM.
-.-

went to visit taonan today with weiqiang.
chityee so conveniently had cca zzz.
the rest didnt recognize me.
and claire said i look more filipino. i take it as a compliment yeahh. cos i'm more tanned. -.-
i was wearing my double-layered harrypotter outfit [cos it has a tie and its a dhs identification]
did i mention it was a sweltering hot day.
in the end we only saw qls [he busted me for speaking english at dunman high and not using chinese to speak like he told me to for like 2 years :P] and went rampaging around the school in disappointment cos the teachers dao-ed us. we arrived at the hall and, to our dismay and shock, a bunch of girls were dancing to "nobody" o.o

got together with the old gang from taonan today haha (:
brought back loads of memories.
i suddenly feel like going back for tns anniversary this year.

watched scare tactics just now hahaha.
i think its very funny.
zzz stupid playlist.com la -.-



off to learn some pro pro song that involves a capo (:
T.T see la rongying, your yupi candy made me so high.
at least i got motivation.
[if only i had yupi candy during exams. =.=]

i think nobody comes here anyway sighhh.
its like posting is pointless.
I HAVE NO FRIENDS LA SEE.

I wanna be praised from a new perspective, but leaving now would be a good idea so catch me up on getting out of here.

# 145;

blogger seems fixed again.
for now.
blogger is like a "teenager who lives his/her life according to feelings; one moment they're up, one moment they're down".
there are three kinds of love lol. eros, agape, and philia. [eros has something to do with physical, 100% physical; hence, erotic. philia is brotherly love, hence philadelphia = the city of brotherly love. agape is godly love. self-sacrifical, and how you should love your spouse/parents.]
look how much i learnt from cathecism yesterday rofl.
if my cathecist sees this i will die from publicizing.

went to visit xy-bastian after cathecism yesterday.
spent 4 hours there haha.
took random photos of him smiling. he's damn cute.
and very happy.

i got a capo. it was 22bucks and is very shiny. my dad surprised me by bringing it up yesterday halfway through worldstagemalaysia.
it was boyslikegirls, if i remember correctly.
he looked at the tv, and pointed at the capo on what i think should be martin's guitar. then he randomly said "what's that called? you don't have that, right?"
then i said: "that bar thing? its called a capo. and no, we don't have it."
so he said: "capo? to change the tone right? okay sure. tomorrow you remind me, we'll go eat at tampines mall, then we'll go get one for you."
and so i got a capo for 22bucks.

my dad is so random haha.
halfway through mass, during collection, when he was giving us money, he suddenly took a US onedollar bill and put it in my hand.
"here. take it."
then me and trysha were all o.o
then he started grinning then he said: "so that your wallet will never be empty. its money, but you cant use it."
i love my dad.

and thanks to him and my mom's spotting of several yamaha brochures, i'm gonna be taking guitar courses at yamaha should our budget be enough.
no more misguided self-dependent learning.
i want the electric and steel acoustic course. [but steel acoustic requires your own instru and is more ex]
its 9months each level for indiv.
and is on friday/saturday.
should i go for it.

not really much to post.
tomorrow's teachers day celebration.
alr prepared and settled what i'm gonna wear. pretty standardized =.=
[lol my sister has just offered over her previous harrypotter-ish specs for me to borrow. she alr gave me her drumsticks -.-]
and yeah will take spastic photos for the enjoyment and general mental torture of happy innocent blog-readers.

and you. stfu, please. your disappointed tone one more time, and i will explode.
its like the world is against me.
but who am i to complain about this.
most of the shit that happens to me is 100% my fault, if not more. i cause the problems and then i complain, and more problems happen.
damn it.
shouldnt talk to anyone at all then.

need to make my teachers day cards zzz
we have so many teachers, [i think rongying mentioned 15] and a limited supply of paper.
will make them, need to thank them for actually putting up with me.
people rarely do.
in fact, i rarely do.

stop there and let me correct it, i wanna live life from a new perspective.

# 144;

aren't i just the most reliable, trustable, awesome-est friend out there.
[YEAH RIGHT. (you mean i still have friends?! :O) <- that was taking it too far btw xD]

i found merchant of venice on youtube (:
wanted to watch the whole thing after today's excerpt.
at part 2/12 antonio and bassanio kiss on the lips lollll. gay.
and the movie has subtle porn DDD:
[no wonder ms chan never let us watch everything. i mean for goodness sake, the ladies their dress is like SUPER lowcut. until can see that. it freaked me out like shit. ITS A SHAKESPEARE MOVIE LA SICKOS WHY YOU PUT PORN ZZZ]
i think the movie the shylock is very cool. and very well portrayed yeahhh.
and bassanio is played by joseph fiennes, ralph fiennes' (voldemort) brother omg.

i got into main band :D
we found out our SLs and ASLs today. that part was not shocking, anyway.
i know i'm not near pro enough to be an SL or an ASL.
and... yeah.
carmen felt very reminiscent-ish.
keep imagining myself on that stage in that super big blazer looking out a the dark audience and trying not to play a wrong note.
i will work harder than everyone else so i can overcome my braces and become PRO!
[i'll have to prac for months and months and months first.] i'm already starting to get my tone back. jiayouuuu. [man i sound spastic =.=]
sp every wednesday and thursday yeahhh.
i love bandd (:

today we had tingxie and i epicphailed everything.
like xizi was for nothing cos i forgot and was careless.
at least i passed yeah.
the test however, is a hopeless case.
[sigh today during recess jingpei hijacked my facebook and made my take the "what body part are you?" (dick), "what kind of B!TCH are you?" (trashy b!tch - jingpei's influence), and "how will you die?" (car accident T.T) how depressing.]

this weekeend i will start my eoy revision.
and chem test.
i will also learn at least two new songs.
i'm determined.
and i will also rip up my jeans so i can wear them on monday. xD
haha i'm a sucker for ripped-up jeans.
they make me look like a rock-star. didn't you know harrypotter decided to become a rockstar recently.
(thats why i'm bringing zildjian drumsticks haha.)
[are we allowed to wear our own shoes o.o jeans looks weird with white adidas =.=]

[edit] there's also the scary fact that this saturday's cathecism lesson is supposed to be on that disturbing topic. T.T i have a feeling the teachers will have no mercy on us and bombard us with disturbing terms and stuff. i'm scared. [/edit]

while i recall all the words you spoke to me, can't help but with that i was there back where i'd love to be.

# 143; [sign language for iloveyou;my unit number]

ohman i forgot the greetings.
AHEM.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHINGYING/JELLYBEAN-O!
darn coding in html SUCKS.
i think blogger has like, h1n1 or something.
I MEAN. ITS ALL PALE. AND PURPLE AND BLUE.
=.=

i know that no matter what i do now,
i've failed chinese.
yet another expectation, failed too.
what do i tell my parents.
i studied like shit, but i studied the wrong thing.
i focused on the give-marks part and paid no attention to the rest.
if i get a 20-30, how can i face them.
how can i even face zhenglaoshi tomorrow when i take the paper from her.
i wanted to make a drastic improvement so that i can make all of them proud.
but what if i cant.
what if EOYs go the same way.
and i have to drop HCL.
i know it'll be easier.
but so many people will be disappointed in me.
the feeling will just crush all my insides.

I AM GOING TO DO THAT OTHER THING.
I HAVE TO TRY.
OR IT'LL EAT ME ALIVE.
YEAH SO WHAT DO I DO AGAIN.
ZZZ.
I'M PISSING MYSELF OFF WTFFFF D:
SO TOTALLY HOPELESS.
- leaps out the window -

TODAY.
i went home really early because a)today is day 6, b)i was supposed to go home early =.=.
assembly was msp.
sengjoe's voice was superfunny.
and retarded.
like: this stupid spastic voice.
and then he walked back across the stage with the microphone looking damn spastic.
and he brought the "hamburger" when he was being awarded wth.
i think all the band people were laughing when he talked.
i gotta feeling. (:

and i remember walking into the toilet today to iris's voice going:
-screams high-pitchedly- "OMG THERE'S BLOOD IN THE TOILET! -screams- "SOMEONE DIED!" -screams- "D: SOMEONE DIED IN THE TOILET!" -runs out of the cubicle and into the next one- "DD: SOMEONE DIED IN THE TOILETTTTT" -screams- "SOMEONE DIED IN THE TOILETTTTT DD:", etc.
i'm not revealing the reason for the blood.
guess it yourself.
but i advise you to stop eating before you guess.

sighhhh.
tomorrow my dad is coming back home.
:]
and on saturday i'm going to watch the SJ-ers doing stuff in my neighbourhood on the way home from church.
xD
OHNO NEXT WEEK IS THE NEXT DENTAL.
nevermind.
maybe i'll get used to it.

cuz i hate what you do, and i hate your whole crew, so please don't stay in touch.

# 142;

YES YANTING THE HERMIONE-MALFOY IS NICE. :D
"ouch"

took 12 home today (:
instead of 158.
12 is faster, and i didn't need to meet my mom on the way home. :DD
and i get to see interesting sites like my old house at siglap, my big bungalow used-to-be-house near rongying's [T.T], my old church [holyfamily!] and the pasta fresca that used to be under my old house at siglap.
OH and the pizza hut i ate at after my kindergarten graduation concert which happened to be during a heavy thunderstorm and all the lights went off halfway through eating and i screamed.
i should take 12 more often. :D

after today's PC lesson, i have confirmed that i am indeed under stress. -.-
BUT THANKS TO AN EXTREMELY EDUCATIONAL VIDEO, I KNOW HOW TO MANAGE IT! [do i get the nobel prize now o.o]
"take deep breaths, and relax your muscles"
i love the discovery channel song. "boom de ah dah." :D
it's just AWESOME.
chinese shuomingwen killed me.
halfway through doing, i realized i completely swerved off course.
so must think over da gang [THE GANG. =.= what lameness is this!] again.

sighhh.
i have exhibited some really stalkerish behaviour. yesterday.
and i discovered that we used to have a lot in common.
=.= why is puberty so screwed omg.
[why do i keep thinking back to that disturbing cathecism lesson in that disturbing room where we talked about disturbing things that had to do with sexual maturity. WHO KNEW YOU COULD LEARN THAT AT CHURCH! actually i did, but i never thought i was actually right.]

I AM GOING MAD.
ITS A MAD MAD WORLD. [YAY LAMBERT I STILL REMEMBER YOU! :D]
lol singapore idol tonight.
i am exhibiting signs of spasticism worthy of rongying [see class blog] and so i shall go bump into a wall and emo.
just like in Art.
who knew art was so painful.

♥HARRYPOTTER!
[just saying. xD]

i love the the mountains, i love the clear blue skies; i love big bridges, i love when great whites fly; i love the whole world, and all its sights and sounds. :D

#141;

changed it again =.=
i was getting tired of the "Upgrade to Pro Today!"
i don't need advertising on my blog, thankyouverymuch. (:

tuesday is a very tiring day.
[muttons have proclaimed it tarratarratuesday! how the heck do you spell that.]
I think that too many people are covering Heartless; Kris Allen, the Fray. o.o It's cool, though.
yes, yanting, heartless rocks. :]

P.E. was cool.
jogged/ran three rounds. lost track of number halfway yeah.
like, okay, follow belinda. xD
then we played frisbee. the first time i just ran around like some spastic hobos. [no offence is intended to spastic people or hobos.]
the second time was against melvin. :/
no time to relax. when i was goalkeeper was like the scariest part of the whole game. =.=
like: OHSHIT IT'S GONNA HIT ME!
that kind of thing.
in the end i turned out kind of pro. xD
KIDDING.

the LA/History combo which would have otherwise killed us all actually boosted all our morales.
we talked about love...
and then... yeah. THERE ARE DIFFERENT TYPES OF LOOOVE.
and then during history we graded tests... then.
jingpei just HAD to ask: "mr zein, are you romantic?"
so mr zein produced this epic quote:

It is said that all the love in history can be found in a rose, but all my love
for you is more than that of a rose.

(c) Hardi Zein 2009
:D
[speaking of which, he plays FARMVILLE. omg.]

jap was average.
we did some boring stuff. and then we did some spastic stuff.
on the bus cass and i related to rongying our EPICPHAIL experience with 2hour drills.
MARCHING FAIL! xD
then we practiced oral and learnt some stuff.
time actually flew past come to think of it.
rongying kept talking about chicken. [what do you call a donkey that can close one eye, fart very loudly, play the guitar, tell - "CHICKEN!"]

my dad's off overseas yet again.
i need to revise acc as a last ditch effort.
nahhhhh.
i don't care.
i have nothing to do with chinese culture.
how is tea going to help with my daily life? :/
so...
last ditch effort=cram nonsense books; i feel another novel idea coming on. =.=
must learn how to char develop and all that crap.
and then...
yeah.
these ideas are very rare.
so must develop!
[yeah i suck in LA. xD]

in the night i hear them talk, coldest story ever told.

omg.
everything about blogger is so screwed.
look at my blogskin D:
wtfffff.

i shall leave it there and let people enjoy: "Upgrade to Pro Today!" =.=
HECK.

Monday has been uh.
Okay.
so far, i've discovered a super-shocking red painful thing on my knee.
which hurts like shit.
and.
we did drills for 2 hours.
hahaha.
i think this is how UG feels like. xD
turn, check, left right left, up. D:
lollll.
2hours straight!
and then i greased my slide in the classroom. :/
i feel so guilty. the condition of my trombone is like shit and i don't take care of it even if i do know how.
and then i give the impression that i don't.
i think T.T
must maintain more often.

awaiting indoor results.
D: did i get in.
even if i didn't, i'm just gonna treat it as downtime to work on getting used to playing with braces and getting my tone (and range D: ) back.
OPTIMISTICISM. [there is no such word. :D]
IT WON'T KILL YOU. :D

[i just discovered that a certain kohrongying has facebook omgggg!]
=.=

who am i kidding. i can't do anything that i said i would. all words, no action, huh. DRAG YOUR STUPID PROCRASTINATING LAZY ASS UP THERE AND DO SOMETHING YOU STUPID IDIOT.

i'm currently bursting with pent up emotion yeah. D:
i dont wanna let it out here cos it will reveal some obvious things and i dont wanna sound like some lovesick angsty teenager. [small bits? T.T]
and lately, i don't have anyone to let it out to.
maybe i'll go for counseling when i'm free.
or i'll talk to my mom.
yeah talking to my mom is good.
walking that long visible pathway to the counselor's office is scary.
and i give the impression that i'm "needy" and i "should be pitied because she's going to the counselor!"
i need an outlet.
WAIT SHIT I ALREADY HAVE ONE.
=.=

cass taught me how to play a scale on the piano today. i feel accomplished.
piano feels very hard compared to the guitar.
like, pluck pluck pluck strum strum is easier than piano hahaha.
but the superhard riffs won't be. D:
I HAVE LONG FINGERS! =.=
guitar piano also can la. long fingers are good for both. :]

sighhh.
i need to sleep.
i'm going to fail chinese!
isn't that just GRAND.
happy birthday zhimin. =.=
damn, i, the birthday rep, owe someone a complementary qbread cake. T.T

i just wanna be alone tonight, i just wanna take a little breather, 'cause really all we do is fight, and everytime it cuts me deeper

WARNING: BECAUSE OF RANDOM EEP CONTENT AND IRIS'S HOSTILE TAKEOVER, BELOW POST MAY PROVE TO BE TOO RANDOM FOR THOSE WHO HAVE UNSTABLE MINDS OR WEAK HEARTS [or stomachs. or chickens. WHATEVER.] THOSE OF UNSURE MENTAL STABILITY, and for your own safety those of normal mental stability, PLEASE SKIP BELOW POST AND SCROLL DOWN TO A HAPPIER PLACE. THANK YOU FOR YOUR COOPERATION.
and in the words of iris, eep you.

HEYYO.
I shall now (since I'm being forced to) dedicate a post to IRIS.
[which i am sure, is perfectly appropriate during recess time in a classroom during school hours. please note: I AM BEING FORCED :D]

eep.

There you go.
WASN'T THAT EDUCATIONAL? -cheesy grin-

=.=
bye.

[edit] iris wants to type something. hello world, this is iris the eep here. EEPS SHALL RULE THE WORLD ONE DAY. rongying says that she will be proud of me and my eep when we rule the world. Hence, un-rongyings shall be screened in the upcoming untest. Please note the time and venue of the untest will be specified via ******** at a later date. CONFIDENTIAL[/edit]

OMG IRIS IS HIJACKING MY BLOGGER D:
please ignore above random edit.
thankyouverymuch.
Oh, and for the preservation of the sanity of those under 12 and those above 35, please skip this post completely.
we thank you for your cooperation.
PLEASE TAG. xD

family day today was awesome. (:
i relived my childhood like 20 times.
we practically ran around the whole of explorerkids at E!hub taking care of the special kids.
but it was fun, and it was a workout. xD
we had to squeeze through the kiddie maze and watch (enviously?) as the kids played around in the ballpit.
had lots of fun with day and trysh.
the food after that was awesome too.
and the mini-concert was ubercool.
(i.heart.brownies.and.punch.)
yeahhh. will post up photos another time, yeah. :DD

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAN WEI TING OF 2G WHO PLAYS THE TROMBONE AND CARES SO MUCH ABOUT HER MATH TEST GRADE THAT SHE REPEATED IT OVER 80 TIMES!
that was practically the longest birthday greeting in "largest" "bold" font i've ever done.
there you go, weiting.
happy birthday. xD

had cathecism and rehearsal all in one shot after that.
spent 3 frikin hours in the church.
of which the first 30 minutes were spent hobo-ing in the corridor until i sweat like mad and felt like punching the teacher in the chest.
(that's an exaggeration. i do not, and will not ever, want to punch the teacher in the chest. :D)
and then cathecism was on a very awkwaaaard topic.
that statement alone leaves just one possibility, doesn't it. =.=

hahaha.
i'm super bored.
and playlist has that stupid license restriction shit again.
sighhhhhh.

BLACK DRESS, WITH THE TIGHTS UNDERNEATH.

hell.
i'm done.
i'm done with pretending that it doesn't bother me.
i'm done with looking happy-with-my-life and waiting ages for nothing.
i'm done with watching people's lives go on without me.
i'm done.
[so why don't you get off your lazy ass and do something.]
i will. i'm not going to care about the reaction to what i say. i'm not waiting any longer.
i'm done with living some life that's barely worth any freaking notice.
it's so freaking pathetic. ["what do you do in school?" "oh i don't know, just sit there."]
now i know why so many people are pissed with me.
ignore this part if you want. don't ignore it. flame it. complain about it. leave me alone and never talk to me again because of it. do whatever you want with it. post it on facebook.
i don't freaking care.
[though it is recommended that kiddies below 13, and those who don't give a damn skip abovementioned part. thankyouverymuch for your cooperation. (OHNO IS IT TOO LATE?!) :D]

i am angry. D:
with myself, mostly. =.=

TODAY WAS INDOOR TEST DD:
i don't know what to say, really.
scary, nervous, screwed-up high notes, some mess-ups, hope i did well.
now i look back at it, i dont know what's there to be scared of o.o
but then again. thats the big question everyone's asking.
if i wasn't nervous, i would have done better.
stress. it kills you.
[LOOK I'M DEAD!]

HOMEWORKKKKK!
i need to do homework. and then i'll have the rest of the weekend to slack and learn tingxie and chem.
i think every little part of the hcl grade is impt. :]
motivationnnnnn. [my parents just threw out the "if you do well at the end of the year, who knows what we may surprise you with" line at dinner today when trysh was offhandedly talking about "that drumset i want so much"]

i am going to learn new songs because i want to slack and that seems to be the best way to do it cos facebook is getting boring ><
and playing new songs is really cool [so i can join centerstage next year! DUH JOKING.]
sigh.
aren't i lame.

i stand by what i said yesterday.
I. Am. Smart. [what a random statement. Only smart people accept that i'm smart. :D ohcrap am i taking a leaf out of felicia's book. (am i actually using a figurative saying) o.o]
:D

dreaming, i was only dreaming, of another place and time, where my family's from.

changed blogskin.
and url.
i felt change in the air?
[OMGSOCORNYRIGHT.]

haha i leveled to apprentice and caught a diamond without knowing!
[if you're a genius you'll know what i'm talking about -.-]
if you're a genius you'll also know i'm quite noob. xD

i just spamtagged everyone with "HI PLS RELINK!"
=.=
just for fun: leave-thistown.blogspot.com = "Leave This Town" = Daughtry's 2nd album :D
i <3 daughtry.
and since it seems very accurate, i think i'll keep it there.

D: DAMMIT I JUST HELPED MY SISTER BEAT ME ON TYPING MANIAC.
and now i cant beat her high score.
[or my own. whatever.]
I AM ANGRY. D:
(damn my right index finger hurts like shit now.)

heck. here's my todo list for today: [-.-]
1. revise tingxie
2. fix math file
3. revise chem [acidalkali T.T]
4. do my exam study timetable :D
5. do the foodmate thing
6. YUEDUBUTIEEEEEE

sofarrrrr, i've already revised tingxie le. :]
so now i'm on my mathfile.
then i will revise chem and EST and foodmate should take a total of less than 30min to finish.
ydbt abt 1 hour plus bahh.

i am proud of my focusedness.

i just realized i just turned slack-day into studylikeshit day.
haha. i never noticed.
this just means that i am developing an interest for studying which means...
OHSHIT I HAVE TO SLAP MYSELF NOW.
kidding. i think its good. i've been trying to accomplish that for months.
my tests are my motivation.
:]
and i want my electric guitar real bad so must make my parents super happy with EOYs.
i'm really smart.
jiayou!

The last time we talked, the night that I walked, burns like an iron in the back of my mind, I must've been high to say you and I weren't meant to be and just wasting my time, oh, why did I ever doubt you?

my mind is so jumbled D:
i'm thinking about this, and i'm thinking about that, and yeah.
cannot think properly.
i think its a miracle i paid attention in class today.
so many nagging thoughts.
i'm really confused.
don't know what the hell i'm supposed to do.
its not like any of the things i think about are remotely possible. or some of them.
its actually no use thinking about them.
and yet they're still there.
confusedddd.

ANYWAY.
i'm super shocked over my grades recently.
i never studied, not that hard anyway.
as in. i was really disappointed with my effort for the tests.
and then comefrombehind pass pass pass highmark pass blah blah blah.
WTFFFF.
am i like super lucky. actually in this time of the year, i'm supposed to be emo-ing about how i screwd up my grades again.
then somemore i passed math.
and geog essay i got 9/10 omg.
i almost failed or failed the previous one.
i'm extremely shocked with myself.
but i still get to emo this year.
chinese is a lost cause.
if i pass it, i'll jump off a building in utter shock.
doesn't that sound fun? :D
[ooh lol some person just got A for chinese in O'levels after not passing chinese for 4 years. and now i know its possible. xD]

all those people who failed shouldn't be too sad though [ooh this is contradicting. xD]
its not the end of the world [AHEM. WEITING.]
it can still be made up for, if you have the motivation, and the DRIVE! [AHEM. WEITING.]
never give up and keep going! [AHEM. WEITING.]
cos everything is possible. (: [like passing chinese O levels after failing for 4 years even if you dont need to take O levels. xD]
yeah i have to admit, this part of my post is mostly for weiting, cos i'm damn tired of hearing her say: "i failed my math test!" over 80 times. xD
but yeah. its not the end yet. there's still like 2 years of chances left. and grades aren't that important [=.= la speech]. for now. yeah. college is important too! xD [ohshit what if i fail college. =.=]
i'm so easy to understand right. :D

tmr is a holiday.
i need to catch up on some slacking. srsly.
i'll slack the whole day and at the end study for tingxie.
-.-
i'll go enter the spasticrongyingphoto contest on the class blog tomorrow too.
[i think lystra-hater is hilarious btw. hate us still come to our blog and tag. adding to visitor count xD]

damn dont feel like watching singapore idol today.
i'll go do what i do best.

in my shoes just to see, what its like to be me, i'll be you, let's trade shoes, just to see what it'd be like to feel your pain, you feel mine, go inside each other's mind, just to see what we find, look at shit through each others' eyes.

went to lunch at 7107 flavors yesterday at marina square.
really nice place for filipino food yeah. (:
and very ex. :/

here are the photos i promised xD:

today was almost indoor test.
almost.
but on monday, i'm definitely going in there.
to fail.
to forget everything.
to screw up the high notes, and look like i'm thinking too hard.
i have to remember to bring my gel on monday.
then the braces can stop making disturbing lines of blood on my lip.

i wanted to go to centerstage today D:
but i couldn't.
think of the parent's reactions.
"Can i go to -"
"No."
[oddly enough, thats how i always imagine it to be, no matter what.]
"Can i use the -"
"No."
"Can i have the -"
"No."
xD that's twistedly hilarious.

i did pass math. confirmed by the returning of the math paper.
but mrs koh marked me wrongly.
bye, one mark.
18/30 is decent, considering i FAILED the other common test/s.
[weiting, your total is 57 times btw. =.=]

going early to school on monday!
to practice.
from 715 hopefully to 840.
good thing there's class assembly.
i'm damn scared i dropped my thermometer in the interchange.
i think i put it in my pocket.
and i heard the sound of something plastic dropping after i took my wallet out of my pocket.
[after checking, i have discovered that i indeed HAVE dropped it. D: can anyone save me by bringing an extra.]

i feel happy and defiant.
dont ask why.
[probably why i absentmindedly went: HI LYSTRA HATER! WANNA BE FRIENDS? I CAN ADD YOU ON FACEBOOK! on the class blog =.=]
what if its some kind of inside joke. like someone posted in response, within the class. =.=
what if the lystra hater comes here. xD
hello. :D
=.=

going to a filipino restaurant tmr. 7107 flavors. :D
will take lotsa photos if i rmb.
then aft that children's mass rehearsal at church.
sept children's mass.
=.=
2pm... must leave early.
D:
then aft that still got cathecism.
omg so sian.

Tonight's the night, let's live it up, I got my money, let's spend it up; Go out and smash it, like oh my god, jump of that sofa, let's kick it OFF.

i passed math omg.
19/30.
i dont believe it.
did i actually pass.
i had to like scan the list 4 times before i finally accepted it.
so unbelievable.

something that's impossible however, is passing the chinese test. -.-
it totally wiped out all my brain cells. actually, the only part i am confident i will pass is the chengyu yanyu suyu, ironically.
my suyu died, and i forgot one word bits, but... i am quite confident there.
i totally screwed up the rest.
the back i totally failed.
i'll be shocked if i pass.
super shocked.

D: my chinese endofyear results are confirmed bad. itll bring down my GPA and i'll end up in a class that all my classmates will make fun of me for being in. =.=
i'm gonna fix math file.
so i can bring up my math marks.
they're good right now. :]
i've improved.

sighhhh. i'm going to do science.
i stayed back for sp today. :]
i improved my tone during that 1h plus.
it sounds good, i figured out how. and i practiced scales.
i know how to do minor now :] can memorize.
but i will play slowly cos i will remember by: flatten 3rd and 6th note of major scales can le.
i tried it out on my guitar yesterday.
it works. so i memorize like that.
pentone can also.
so now wholetone is my main aim.
jiayoujiayou!

i need to sleep early today. sigh 9.30 T.T [i feel like such an IRIS. sleep at EIGHT, that one.]
my mom wants me to grow.
sideways and upways.
=.=

every step we climb another mountain.

its done.
i surefailed chinese.

oh well. at least there's eoys.

jiayou.
when all else fails, call your friends help you mug. =.=

TEEHEE. xD
[post more tmr. damn tired. braindead. =.=]

we're going out tonight, to kick out every light, to get anything we want to drink everything in sight, we're going till the world stops turning while we burn it to the ground tonight.

i practically died from set theory today.
"A is an element of S where S={x:x is blablabla whatever crap shit thing} and T is a proper subset of S which means that they are equal!"
=.=

everything sucks now. =.=
i wish i had 7day mc again. or maybe a school holiday.
even though being sick feels like crap, i feel like crap anyway. same difference.

and there's no way i can memorize all my chengyu yanyu suyu in time.
goodbye, marks.
i can practically see them flying away.
yeah can see zhenglaoshi handing out papers, giving me mine silently. saying nothing like she always does when i fail.
giving me that: "you need to try harder. don't give up." speech she gave me last time.
i'm going to chiong memorize, and i dont care if i have to stay up till 3AM. I'm getting them all done.

[on a lighter note, 3000 left to the mouse trebuchet :D (omg i sound like some nerd. =.=)]

i definitely failed math.
i knew it when mrs koh said: "all those usual people failed."
the way she said it seemed so degrading. i dont want to be part of the usual people anymore.
i need to try damn hard. i need to work on my concepts and everything.

thirdlang was mildly entertaining today next to iris.
she reads super fast and is super smart and helps me with my jap. xD
halfway through the lesson, iris stole zishan's domo-kun =.=
I <3>

DAMN IT WHY DO I KEEP LOSING EVERY SINGLE FREAKING THING THAT IS IMPORTANT.
shit.
stupid wallet. stupid golden village booking number.
stupid inability to organize.
why the shit am i so hopeless.
NO WONDER NOBODY TRUSTS ME.
not even my parents. nobody.
I DESERVE IT I GUESS. STUPID.
INORGANIZED.
UNTRUSTWORTHY.
i need a hole where i can bury all my shame.

sigh.
changed braces colour today. and tightened the wire. very pain D:
and now its red. i like red.
next appointment is september 5. and i bet the four weeks will pass by uneventfully, and i'll find myself wondering what colour to put next or to just go with red all the way.
i think i'll go with red the whole way.
its pain! D; but i can still eat.
damn. i wanted an excuse for friday.
JOKING. =.=

the format bar is back btw. -.-
its on and off.
so unpredictable. like everything else in my seriously suckish and noobish life.

i've been playing mousehunt. xD and becoming slightly less noobish each time.
but i'm still noob la.
only got the 500pound spiked crusher and the wooden base with target. and i'm novice and hunting at gnawnia with like 28 pieces of marble.
and my hunting has been bad. like, either go stale or escape with my cheese.
D: i'm so noob. 6912 points o.o
i'm aiming for the trebuchet. :]
and to become apprentice. lol noobish 18% xD
so far only catch white, grey, brown, steel, granite, dwarf and bionic.
-.- why am i posting about mousehunt. its addictive.
did i just answer my own question. o.o

today was interesting.
after braces we went to jalan-jalan at orchard there.
went to ion orchard. super nice(:
my sister fell in love with the crumpler store [who can blame her? xD] and almost fainted when she saw the price. [HAHAHA $163]
then we browsed stores and stuff and went to lucky plaza to eat lunch.
aft that we went into some fancy mall just to use the toilet -.-
and i became super bored at orchard tower while my mom and aunts shopping for bargain clothes omg. i read like 4 chapters of harrypotterandthedeathlyhallows. [was the only book available in trysh's bag.]
met my other aunts at tampines mall. they were buying iPhone 3GS.
trysh and i were super wuliao and bought two macs icecream during the wait.
i think i heard "what do you see" play like four times. -.- [lekuasimi xD]
singtel store has a superbig TV. watched some music show while waiting and played with the HTC Dream. facebooked hahaha.

sighhhh. i need to find those two stupidass things on top. -.-
so my parents wont scold me even more.
alr cannot trust me then now i lose two impt things i sure die.
help me, please? D:

o.o i havent tried guitar geek today. [no-lifer!]
i'm going to go play some. :]
[no-liferrrrrrr]

hola. [shit. thats hello.]
adios, amigos. :D

a wonderwall of stars.

happy national day!(:

i'm not singaporean, thankyouverymuch.
i barely know our (filipinos) national anthem D:
[bayang magiliw... okay whats next.]
and i know the independence day is june 12.
okay i searched google when mr zein asked.

today's celebration was okay.
everybody zi-highing at the parade square.
singing community songs and waving crazily at some person in the building across the road who was freaked out.
in the classroom was high too.
we won second for trivia game. 5-point qn is the hardest. -.-
then dont forget the lyrics we won second also.
got lollipop anw.
then face painting was fun. doodle everywhere.
draw harry potter scar on my forehead, draw white star on hand, write pwned! on my arm. and teehee on the other one.
watched lekuasimi and wash your hands too. -.- mrbrown parodies!
then we ate wonderful cake and i waited for one hour for sp to start.


hahaha LEKUASIMI :D

sp was damn fun today (:
we learnt whole tone scales. and everyone was high.
i remember the seniors playing with the makeup crayons. draw on hand then smudge on someone else's arm. then ambush.
lol weiting and i were laughing like mad. -.-
and we played scales and bach chorales.
then we went to the band room [to see snow white - senior high edition which was totally gay]
and briefed on the sectional cupboard, then sorted out some stuff. and ate two chocos.
i became insane after that.
found a lot of weird stuff in the cupboard.
"this is a random blazer. senior high, female."
"this is rumeng's plastic bag."
"this is a random wire. if you know whose it is, tell us."
-.- lol.
we learnt how to play stuff and i found out my low notes are better now.

haha yay i beat my guitar geek score.
up there with peishan and weiqiang le.
lol they two very pro.
i'm gonna go spam so i can beat their score. very close.
just no mistakes and i think i can beat them. combo score will be very high. :]
post again later.

i just wanna be alone tonight, i just wanna take a little breather; cos really all we do is fight, and everytime it cuts me deeper.
yes i finally learnt how to play this song after a twoweek delay. i'm gonna learn another one tonight

damn.
just when i was so happy about the format bar.
it goes away.
is my browser faulty?

while on the subject of sad stuff.
i am very worried about health check. [there is no injection right. i'm sick of those things.]
they said my eyes would be better and that the specs would make them better.
please get them off.
i dont wanna wear specs. [i shouldn't have read in the dark/lying all those years - i'm such a nerd =.=]
i hope they're better.
i've been fatefully wearing them... so.
PLEASE GET THESE STUPID GLASS THINGS OFF ME.
i dont wanna wear contacts either. contacts are uncomfortable, expensive, and are still second best next to no-glasses-at-all.
PLEASEPLEASEPLEASE.

haha i just saw a few signs that were hilarious lol.
there's one that goes: "no entering during menstrual periods" xD sick.
and another that goes: "to all who use our competitors' products; happy fathers day" [a durex (cond** brand) ad]
and one that goes: "ENJOY LIFE. EAT PORK."
HAHAHAHA.
jianchong will love the pork one.
cass will love the menstrual periods one. and if she gets it, the condom one. -.-

tmr is national day.
i'm going to be cca-patriotic and wear my rhythmxxiii shirt.
because all the band ppl in class are gonna wear it.
and i dont wanna be left out and yeah.
i still remember the stupid sneetches video today. and hcl was jiaoyouzhidao.

[which got me thinking about how valuable friendship is, and then i started pitying myself and thinking you should pity me too. but then i realized how stupid i was being. i dont deserve to be pitied. if they are including me cos of pity, i'd rather not be included at all. i'm not a plain-bellied sneetch (-.-). i'm a star-bellied sneetch, at least in the eyes of my family. even if i did wrong, at least i have a fallback. school may not last forever, but my family, and their love, does. so, for now, i'm just chilling. i'm not asking to be pitied. and i'm not asking people to pity me for my cowardliness. its who i am. when it comes down to crunch time, i'm a dirty little coward. i've gotta face that. at least my family's there for me, at least they dont care i'm a coward. i'm not blaming anyone, i'm not flaming anyone. if i flame anyone, it should be me. but please, just forget about me. i'm not worth thinking about right now, not worth taking up that valuable space in your brain. just ignore me. just leave it. i'm perfectly fine. when i'm done being a dirty coward, and when i get a suitable attitude adjustment, i'll come back to you. please hold yeah. hope you have enough patience for me, cos you'll need a lot of it. flame me if you will for this part of my post. i dont mind right now. i'm not letting social pressure hurt me. i'm being my own person. I DON'T CARE. (see i love falloutboy yay) i know you want to mend what used to be. i want it too. but yeah, i cant do anything right now. at least until i get that attitude adjustment, and that slap in the face i havent gotten. do you know where i can get one? :D]

so here's the jist of the sneetch movie:
"OH HI I'M A STAR-BELLIED SNEETCH I ROCK AND YOU DON'T!" and then they took off and put on their stars over and over again and wasted all their money.
retards.
sneetches are uber lame.
and i dont think they help.
unless you have a stupid star on your stomach. =.= or you're fat. cos the sneetches are really fat.
that holds no connection whatsoever btw.
YAY.


omg hilarious newmoon parody. xD "EDDIE!"

sigh. i think i wanna prac again.
i'm alone at home so i think i'll have a wild college dance party, and entertain everyone with my imba trombone skills. and my superior riffing skills. [which i don't have! :D]
yeah right.
i'm gonna quietly practice while drinking coke through the mouthpiece.
xD haha kidding.
post again later.
come back, format bar. =.=

edit;
OHDAMN ITS NOT BACK!
i have reflected (see above xD)
and i'm perfectly happy with who i am. (no i'm not)
so i'm looking for that attitude adjustment.
and i'll be really grateful to someone who can get me a mental hospital number.
tenjewberrymuds. :]
i'm gonna go write a song haha.

i wanna, i wanna, i wanna touch you, you wanna touch me too.

omg so the format bar actually works in the afternoon also.
[i'm so wuliao. talk about format bars when i should be blogging. sigh. no directive, no drive.]
what does that mean anyway. i heard it from wall-e. ["dirreecctivveeeee..." =.=]

i'm starting to doubt whether i'm a vampire or not.
i bust my lip today and when i licked the blood off the taste was really cool and i peeled off somemore. -.-
thats it.
i need counseling.
maybe i'll ring up the counseling room tomorrow.
i'm this close to either slitting myself or locking myself in my room forever. [unless of course i need the toilet and food.] maybe i'll bite myself and drink my own blood. o.o disturbing mental image.
counseling. -.- HELPME.
am i a vampire?
[i'm worried.]

today's geog test sucked.
i wrote crap and i barely finished my unnecessarily long essay when the bell rang. [there was no bell.]
cannot eat, as usual, thought of that disturbing thing, as usual. Slapped yanting for dao-ing me, as usual.
HOW COULD YOU DAO ME! CANT YOU SEE THE EMOTIONAL HARM ITS CAUSING! STOPIT OR I'LL SLAP YOU ALL ABOUT.
There. -.-

I missed the guitar ensemble performance today.
i wanted to see it and take pointers, but i missed it, so... D:
i want to be pro just like them!
but its near impossible. -.-
it'll take about 2 more years.
practice!
ohshit, my trombone. i'm gonna blow long notes and search up some scales and prac my tone cos the braces suck. and i'm gonna readjust them on sat have to get used to them all over again.

post later after i prac trombone. :D

its not a war, no its not a rapture, i'm just a person, but you cant take it.

i love you, trombone. :)

#125.
THE FORMAT BAR! THANK YOU BLOGGER.

yanting you dao me again you die okay.
i will whack you nonstop and let cass loose on you.
=.= okay the cass part is obviously a joke.
BUT STOP DAO-ING MEEEEE D:
I'm too worthy to be daoed! xD

today went horribly. (wait. i mean great.)
i almost (very close to) fainted this morning. i thank the cupboard for cushioning (making it much worse) my fall. i just stood up after falling asleep, wobbled around a while, then it went black and the next thing i knew: shoulder+cupboard door=loud and painful bang.
i ate breakfast today. i couldn't taste anything and my shoulder throbbed like hell.
misschan was half and hour late for la. so we slacked and i almost fell asleep.
pe sucked. i went to sit out because i felt awkward.
and then ran around with cass and sat down.
then got scolded by mrkwok.
-.- recess was normal. drink, rush up, change, lie down (on the table), wait for the next class.
CME was boringass shit. thats too harsh. it was a bucket of rainbows!
i almost fell asleep.
history was cool. we watched a nice vid.
and science lab was interesting.

jap sucked. I PWN YOU RONGYING.
PWNNNED. i loved it when rongying pwned julia.
like:
rongying taps julia, and julia turns the wrong way.
hahaha priceless.
i ate a waffle and some lunch today. because i am concerned about my body and i want to go fat.
rongying sulked abt not going to ri.
i failed my jap ca. (YAY REJOICE!) didn't revise. knew what to expect. epicfail!
boring jap stuff.
spoilt rongying's correction tape :/
played shootshangmarry on the train and told sick jokes.

There was a little boy whose parents took him to a bar. All around him, people were having sex. So the little boy asked his parents: "Mommy, daddy, what are they doing?"
And the father, thinking on his feet and not wanting to teach his kid the wrong thing, said: "Oh, they're baking a cake."
One fateful day, the parents decided to do it on the sofa. The little boy ran to them afterwards and asked: "Mommy, daddy, were you baking a cake on the sofa?"
And the father, confused, says: "Why, yes! How did you know?"
The boy said, "I was just licking the icing."

SUPERSICK MAN. it came from rongying.
yeah here's another one:

This super hot lady goes to the doctor. The doctor, unable to contain himself, does a "full body examination", of course, he gropes around everywhere and has sex with the woman over and over again.
At the end of the examination, the woman looks up and asks the doctor: "So, doc, how do I get rid of my AIDS?"

hahaha sick.
so awesome. xD
patrick was polluting zishan today with the first joke and the voodoo dick one.
sigh. stupid gay pedophile.

i'm going to mug geog lastminute and get started on lastminute muggingformemory chinese chengyu yanyu suyu.
wish me luck T.T

like the memories we used to share, you'll never come back to me.

AW YEAH THE FORMAT BARRRR.
-.- okay come to think of it, what time is it now.
9pm. So far, my previous theory was right...
short random post for you. -.- go read the lame convo below and watch the nigahiga vids if you're here for entertainment.
[lol this reminds me of some lame line from icarly. OHSHIT I SHOULDNT HAVE REVEALED THAT I WATCHED THAT. yes iris, embrace the vulgarities. you'll be seeing them alot. xD HAHAHA.]

heck.
today was shiok.
assembly was abit boring.
ARE YOU READY FOR A LIFE OF TESTS OR THE TEST OF LIFE.
Sounds like an ad campaign. xD
yeahhh.
then we released at 115.
cass was laming about in the canteen with julia, thiri and me.
cass kept touching me under the table omg.
band was cool.
we worked on bach chorale, scales and our tone, which mrng corrected.
weiting was once again, mistaken for a year one. hahaha.
her hair makes her look young.
AND YANTING DAO MEEE D:
How could you dao me after I loved you so much?
I'm joking. =.=
Weiting and i took cab to aljunied today. super shiok.
cab driver helped us load our trombones into the back, and then we drove off for aljunied and talked about crap like cass and the rudesecurityguard who shouted at her: "CAN YOU PLS STOP SHOUTING LIKE A CRAZY WOMAN?" walao call us crazy somemore. =.=
joking. actually we were being crazy.
So... :D

I think I'm high. [i just had two cups of raspberry ripple ice cream]
And I think I'm depressed. [my sister stole the deathly hallows from me!]
And I think I love my trombone. [i'm going to camwhore with it because i adore it so much]
And I think I hate my braces. [please change them red this sat. brace yourself for the pain. =.= was that a pun.]

Chiongstudying for geog.
Please let me remember what I crammed.
I'm gonna eat breakfast tomorrow after mr sng's disturbing poll. haha i only eat breakfast on tuesdays. =.=
my stamina sucks btw. awwwwdang.
and my farmville rocks. hahaha. i'm super lame. play lame farm games yeah.
facebookkkkk.
which my parents both have now. and they're spamposting baby photos. someone's gonna tag soon. =.=

Ahhh super stressed. I rarely get downtime during the weekdays. and on sunday i gotta study too.
shiiiiiit.
i'm going to listen to muttons.
they have nice names for the weekdays.
i didnt catch last friday D:
FKED UP FRIDAYYYYY! :D
-.-
that was gay. [like cass]
"I gotta feeling~" [tonight's gonna be a good good night xD]

But can you hear me say, don't throw me away; and there's no way out, I wanna hold you somehow.
Take everything that i know you'll break, and i give my life away.

OHMAN.
Is there some kind of time thing where you have to log on at a certain time to access blogger's awesome format bar.
Must log on at night and click: "edit post"!
Cool.

I didn't get to go band chalet yesterday. D:
Stupid.
My dad came back from Vietnam = stay at home and spend time with him.
This sucks. Will I never get to go on a band outing ever.
Will I get any freedom at all?
Or do I have to wait until I'm "old enough". Five years. Ten years. Fifteen years. How long?

Take a look at this lameass thingy I got by email from my mom. xD
It's kinda funny.
Note: read out loud so you understand what it says.[because that's the only way.]

The following is a telephone exchange between a hotel guest and room-service at a hotel in Asia , which was recorded and published in the Far East Economic Review:
Room Service (RS): "Morrin. Roon sirbees."
Guest (G): "Sorry, I thought I dialed room-service. "
RS: " Rye ..Roon sirbees..morrin! Jewish to oddor sunteen??"
G:"Uh..yes..I' d like some bacon and eggs."
RS: "Ow July den?"
G:"What??"
RS: "Ow July den?...pryed, boyud, poochd?"
G:"Oh, the eggs! How do I like them? Sorry, scrambled please."
RS: "Ow July dee baykem? Crease?"
G:"Crisp will be fine."
RS: "Hokay. An Sahn toes?"
G:"What?"
RS: "An toes. July Sahn toes?"
G:"I don't think so."
RS: "No? Judo wan sahn toes??"
G:"I feel really bad about this, but I don't know what 'judo wan sahn toes' means."
RS: "Toes! toes!...Why jew don juan toes? Ow bow Anglish moppin we bodder?"
G:"English muffin!! I've got it! You were saying 'Toast.' Fine. Yes, an English muffin will be fine."
RS: "We bodder?"
G:"No...just put the bodder on the side."
RS: "Wad?"
G:"I mean butter...just put it on the side."
RS: "Copy?"
G:"Excuse me?"
RS: "Copy...tea. ..meel?"
G:"Yes. Coffee, please, and that's all."
RS: "One Minnie. Scramah egg, crease baykem, Anglish moppin we bodder on sigh and copy....rye? ?"
G:"Whatever you say."
RS: "Tenjewberrymuds. "
G:"You're very welcome."

Lol bet you didnt get it the first time round. I didn't :/
It's lame and hilarious lol.
People actually talk like that.
My family went crazy over the email and started spam-posting it on FB.

FB games super addictive lol.
I spent like an hour on Guitar Geek ytd trying to beat my previous score.
I think I did. -.-
Then there's all those farm games my family keeps spamming me gifts with. Lol those are interesting to watch.
Then there's stupid PS. xD
And Restaurant City. Which is totally frustrating cos nobody wants to trade wimme/has anything I want.
I play MouseHunt occasionally lol. Same goes with Ghost Trappers and Mafia Wars.
All the games I play obviously suck. Except, ironically, those farm games cos my relatives keep spamming gifts on me.
And they're all super pro. So learn from them lor.
Mygosh. =.= [i never knew tom felton could sing. =.= or that he was imba at guitar.]
DID YOU KNOW TOM FELTON COULD SING?! I have newfound admiration for him now. And a lot of people think he's shuai so this is a plus. [refer to Facebook "My type of guy" quiz. xD kidding.]
that was really informative.

Yeah.
Um.
I'm going to go cry over spilt milk.
Because I spilt milk on the floor. And it seems pretty fitting. =.=
Shit, I really do have NO life.
xD
MUSIC HERE I COMEEEEE.

I'll keep you my dirty little secret.

Somehow, I've developed a newfound disturbing love for the F-word.
=.= omg whats happening to me.

Had filming just now in the morning.
Total retarded fun.
Arrived at school and found the SJ people doing POP.
Passing Out Parade, i think.
I remember the first time I heard that term from Rongying. I thought it was a fainting parade -.-
Met melvin at the canteen. my stupid handphone ran out of battery.
so we filmed. and took me in an overlarge jingpei school shirt reading a letter.
then we filmed in the boys' toilet ohmygosh.
really disturbing. the emo scene.
we were all squatting in a corner after breaking a plank of wood from the door. Now anyone can peep in wtf.
Rebecca and Vivian were commenting on how clean the boys' toilet was.
i found that hilarious.
Then we filmed the bumping scene.
Bump, bump, run, bump so many times.
Drop wallet, and all that useless crap. Okay, maybe not useless, but still.
Then Zhimin's emotional over-the-phone scene.
The whole time I thought someone was stalking us.
But I was wrong yeah.
It was a blazer container thingo.

OMG INDOOR TEST ON MONDAY! D:
I just discovered the expectations and I wanna kill myself.
Not really.
I had an urge to try that thing with the bottle and the rubber hose.
It seems fun. But I couldn't find a hose.
So... screw that.
Now I have to memorise the scales so that I stand a better chance.
And my breath and intonation and crap.
And my high notes because the braces f**k them up too much.

Sigh. I dont wanna go cathecism.
I wanna stay home and mope.
But I cannot!
So... I shall go and mope there.
Cathecism lol. Skipped like four weeks cos of "unforeseen circumstances" which included birthdays and falling sick. =.=
My attendance is so screwed.
But I kinda miss the taking notes and listening.
I wonder if I missed anything important.
Ohshit what if I did. O.o
I'm gonna go and find out. (That there's no cathecism and that I have to go home again.)
No one fking told me anything! D:
I feel so outcasted sigh.

I wanna continue ranting when I get home. right now i need to treasure my home time before i have to go to cathecism at holy trinity.
huzzah.

;edit

OHMYGOD BLOGGER'S BACK.
AWESOMEEEEEEE!
YESYESYES.
I'm on high now. -.-
After watching a bunch of random youtube vids, going to cathecism (which didn't suck at all contrary to popular belief; well mostly just mine =.=) and uh. falling asleep at the comp, I feel high.
But blogger's fcking format bar is back. and i can post photos!
if only i had photos.
how sad.
i'm gonna go emo.
that i have no photos.
ohshit, look how lame i am.
tmr i'll take loads of photos.
cos my relatives are coming over to celebrate trysh and mom's bday (one week late)
and i dont think i'm going to mass cos there'll be no time to prepare.
toldya i was gonna rant. =.=
heck. i'm gonna gorge myself on twisties
i remember the stupid webcam vid last year xD
YAY BLOGGER'S BACK HUZZAH.

All the promises we made, one by one they vanished just the same.