i feel really stupid right now.
firstly, left my stupid blouse in school. i mean, how dumb can that get. its a shirt.
i can just picture it, on monday: "will whoever owns this shirt come claim it please?"
in other words: will the idiot who left her shirt in sch come get it and show everyone who you are?
that's so cool.

had a talk during band today.
i think i was pinpointed, when parents complaints were mentioned.
but i didnt ask my dad to complain that i was late. he asked himself to.
it was a put-down sortof thing, but it gave me more motivation. its over, time to move on, that kinda thing.
be more mature, be less individualistic [been avoiding going down in the morning. i think that was selfish on my part.], have better attitude.
felt depressed shortly after that, due to the fact that my dad apologized for scolding me with the same reason as was used in the talk too. that just means he cares.
I just want you to think not of yourself, thats all. Don't be like, I'm sorry today and do it again next week.

played second ever full band experience today. i was waay out of tune though. mr ng happened to notice that too.
my stupid tuning slide wont move. have to find someway to loosen it. somehow.
and i need to practice more. i could somehow follow today, which is the high point, but i still sound like crap, which is the low point.
how balanced can this day get.

i completely tuned out during lessons today.
know something about a hcl debate, a math thing with some weird group game and speed-time graphs, history test [which i crapped a lot about, used some nice-sounding complicated words to make it sound professional. -.-].
i think thats a bad thing to do. but who cares. leaving earth once in a while isnt that bad.
that sounds so weird when i say it. whatever.

just learnt three new songs on the guitar recently. took me that long.
know some random intro riffs from other songs: qingtian [jaychou - dont ask me why. it sounded nice], gives you hell [AAR], your call [secondhand serenade].
i know pink panther man. that's cool. irritate my sister everyday by playing it for her non-stop.
i think she threw a pillow at me yesterday.
i dont remember these things.
dad's going overseas next week. i have the whole week to myself. dont need to worry about being late after band.
he wont call from where he is. i think.
heck with it.
need to finish up my la artifact. mschan was being nice and extended it one week.
so need to make it extra good. or else i die.

And are there any words to say that I would ever be enough
When the light runs from the day, will the darkness be too much
Will I ever be enough

i feel really stupid right now.
firstly, left my stupid blouse in school. i mean, how dumb can that get. its a shirt.
i can just picture it, on monday: "will whoever owns this shirt come claim it please?"
in other words: will the idiot who left her shirt in sch come get it and show everyone who you are?
that's so cool.

had a talk during band today.
i think i was pinpointed, when parents complaints were mentioned.
but i didnt ask my dad to complain that i was late. he asked himself to.
it was a put-down sortof thing, but it gave me more motivation. its over, time to move on, that kinda thing.
be more mature, be less individualistic [been avoiding going down in the morning. i think that was selfish on my part.], have better attitude.
felt depressed shortly after that, due to the fact that my dad apologized for scolding me with the same reason as was used in the talk too. that just means he cares.
I just want you to think not of yourself, thats all. Don't be like, I'm sorry today and do it again next week.

played second ever full band experience today. i was waay out of tune though. mr ng happened to notice that too.
my stupid tuning slide wont move. have to find someway to loosen it. somehow.
and i need to practice more. i could somehow follow today, which is the high point, but i still sound like crap, which is the low point.
how balanced can this day get.

i completely tuned out during lessons today.
know something about a hcl debate, a math thing with some weird group game and speed-time graphs, history test [which i crapped a lot about, used some nice-sounding complicated words to make it sound professional. -.-].
i think thats a bad thing to do. but who cares. leaving earth once in a while isnt that bad.
that sounds so weird when i say it. whatever.

just learnt three new songs on the guitar recently. took me that long.
know some random intro riffs from other songs: qingtian [jaychou - dont ask me why. it sounded nice], gives you hell [AAR], your call [secondhand serenade].
i know pink panther man. that's cool. irritate my sister everyday by playing it for her non-stop.
i think she threw a pillow at me yesterday.
i dont remember these things.
dad's going overseas next week. i have the whole week to myself. dont need to worry about being late after band.
he wont call from where he is. i think.
heck with it.
need to finish up my la artifact. mschan was being nice and extended it one week.
so need to make it extra good. or else i die.

And are there any words to say that I would ever be enough
When the light runs from the day, will the darkness be too much
Will I ever be enough