i feel slightly less emo today.
but still emo. cos nothing to take my mind off how screwed up i am.
i bet nobody cares anyway. dont even know why the hell i mentioned it.
my dad bought new strings today. all gold and nylon. they were so hard to install. needed to use pliers to tune the stupid thing. my right thumb almost died.

rhythm xxiii tomorrow.
i'm extremely scared that i will hit the person-in-front-of-me's chair with my slide again.
when it happened yesterday i was in complete shock.
and i'm scared that i will mispitch the high and loud notes. and everyone will hear me and i will die on the spot.
and i'm scared that i'll go out of tune. especially the soft parts.
and i'm super scared of that part in saga where we're supposed to "drop" the mute as soon as we play. the floor is wooden, so everyone will hear it.
tried to simulate that mute action thing. it didnt work. -.-
i also must try to memorize a bit of the song so that i can watch the conductor and not be engrossed in the score.
you can probably say i'm nervous now.
i'll just try harder.

only like, three people from our class are going. and one of them wants to deliberately sabo dhssb.
wth. like: i'll fall asleep halfway and you refund me my ten dollars.
one of them doesnt appreciate music too.
so...
ah heck i dont care about our class people for now.
at least a lot of my family is going. :]

i finished my math today. took like 2 hours or something cos i was half distracted. -.-
i hate my blazer man. makes my shoulders looks super square while i'm super small.
i should grow fatter. yeah i know no girl ever says that.
my court shoes are weird. and i'm freaked out by the stockings.
i'll look extremely laughable tomorrow. and i bet right after the concert my cousin will be laughing at me for looking stupid.
and i bet i WILL hit someone with my slide.
nevermind. i still <3>
JIAYOU BAND. RHYTHM XXIII. WE CAN PULL IT OFF. :]

everything, it will surely change.

i feel slightly less emo today.
but still emo. cos nothing to take my mind off how screwed up i am.
i bet nobody cares anyway. dont even know why the hell i mentioned it.
my dad bought new strings today. all gold and nylon. they were so hard to install. needed to use pliers to tune the stupid thing. my right thumb almost died.

rhythm xxiii tomorrow.
i'm extremely scared that i will hit the person-in-front-of-me's chair with my slide again.
when it happened yesterday i was in complete shock.
and i'm scared that i will mispitch the high and loud notes. and everyone will hear me and i will die on the spot.
and i'm scared that i'll go out of tune. especially the soft parts.
and i'm super scared of that part in saga where we're supposed to "drop" the mute as soon as we play. the floor is wooden, so everyone will hear it.
tried to simulate that mute action thing. it didnt work. -.-
i also must try to memorize a bit of the song so that i can watch the conductor and not be engrossed in the score.
you can probably say i'm nervous now.
i'll just try harder.

only like, three people from our class are going. and one of them wants to deliberately sabo dhssb.
wth. like: i'll fall asleep halfway and you refund me my ten dollars.
one of them doesnt appreciate music too.
so...
ah heck i dont care about our class people for now.
at least a lot of my family is going. :]

i finished my math today. took like 2 hours or something cos i was half distracted. -.-
i hate my blazer man. makes my shoulders looks super square while i'm super small.
i should grow fatter. yeah i know no girl ever says that.
my court shoes are weird. and i'm freaked out by the stockings.
i'll look extremely laughable tomorrow. and i bet right after the concert my cousin will be laughing at me for looking stupid.
and i bet i WILL hit someone with my slide.
nevermind. i still <3>
JIAYOU BAND. RHYTHM XXIII. WE CAN PULL IT OFF. :]

everything, it will surely change.