dammit why did i have to be hesitant.
everytime i try to do it, i freaking choke up.
i cant drag this on any longer.
what the hell, i need help.
why in the world do i have this stupidass problem.

tuesday sucked big time.
LA was okay i guess. changed to single row.
honestly, whats the diff.
PE sucked like crap. i ran 5 rounds, and started feeling short of breath and lightheaded.
damnit am i that out of shape?
then during frisbee i almost fainted/threw up.
so i sat down for the last bit.
cass sat next to me, yeah it was comforting, but the thing didnt get any better dang.
in class also felt like crap.
fel, ry and chitty confronted me abt stuff.
fel was stupid as always. "YOUR CHEST CONTRACTING MAH!!!"
ry and chitty didnt help.
but i didnt feel like actually whacking them. actually i slapped rongying, but yeah. she's rongying.
the rest of the day was a blur actually. just sit down there, trying to breathe properly.
then after a while it went away.
jap sucked too.
i almost fell asleep, then we doodled aimless stuff on rongying's textbook and my notebook.
"cookie haus of doom" =.=
i gone mad liao.

wednesday [today] kinda sucked too.
the day started with that same irritating feeling in my chest.
my mom thinks i'm not used to exercise le.
lsp was memorable. global warming is scary, and it will get scarier so must do something.
eh. during math i had another breath shortage damn.
sat there breathing deeply then when i stood up i almost fell over.
my dad suggested i'm hyperventilating. yeah maybe. i definitely have some things to hyperventilate about.
filming for computing was awkward and funny.
at dinner another shortage.
if it keeps happening i'm going to the doctor.

shit, why am i complaining.
nevermind.
yeah, i need to do xizi and study tingxie.
i need to do it. but i cant. what the hell is my problem.
obviously its my fault, but i got no frikin courage to solve it.
damn.
what if i have lung problems. i'm scared.

everybody knows, we know the ship's going down.

dammit why did i have to be hesitant.
everytime i try to do it, i freaking choke up.
i cant drag this on any longer.
what the hell, i need help.
why in the world do i have this stupidass problem.

tuesday sucked big time.
LA was okay i guess. changed to single row.
honestly, whats the diff.
PE sucked like crap. i ran 5 rounds, and started feeling short of breath and lightheaded.
damnit am i that out of shape?
then during frisbee i almost fainted/threw up.
so i sat down for the last bit.
cass sat next to me, yeah it was comforting, but the thing didnt get any better dang.
in class also felt like crap.
fel, ry and chitty confronted me abt stuff.
fel was stupid as always. "YOUR CHEST CONTRACTING MAH!!!"
ry and chitty didnt help.
but i didnt feel like actually whacking them. actually i slapped rongying, but yeah. she's rongying.
the rest of the day was a blur actually. just sit down there, trying to breathe properly.
then after a while it went away.
jap sucked too.
i almost fell asleep, then we doodled aimless stuff on rongying's textbook and my notebook.
"cookie haus of doom" =.=
i gone mad liao.

wednesday [today] kinda sucked too.
the day started with that same irritating feeling in my chest.
my mom thinks i'm not used to exercise le.
lsp was memorable. global warming is scary, and it will get scarier so must do something.
eh. during math i had another breath shortage damn.
sat there breathing deeply then when i stood up i almost fell over.
my dad suggested i'm hyperventilating. yeah maybe. i definitely have some things to hyperventilate about.
filming for computing was awkward and funny.
at dinner another shortage.
if it keeps happening i'm going to the doctor.

shit, why am i complaining.
nevermind.
yeah, i need to do xizi and study tingxie.
i need to do it. but i cant. what the hell is my problem.
obviously its my fault, but i got no frikin courage to solve it.
damn.
what if i have lung problems. i'm scared.

everybody knows, we know the ship's going down.