hell.
i'm done.
i'm done with pretending that it doesn't bother me.
i'm done with looking happy-with-my-life and waiting ages for nothing.
i'm done with watching people's lives go on without me.
i'm done.
[so why don't you get off your lazy ass and do something.]
i will. i'm not going to care about the reaction to what i say. i'm not waiting any longer.
i'm done with living some life that's barely worth any freaking notice.
it's so freaking pathetic. ["what do you do in school?" "oh i don't know, just sit there."]
now i know why so many people are pissed with me.
ignore this part if you want. don't ignore it. flame it. complain about it. leave me alone and never talk to me again because of it. do whatever you want with it. post it on facebook.
i don't freaking care.
[though it is recommended that kiddies below 13, and those who don't give a damn skip abovementioned part. thankyouverymuch for your cooperation. (OHNO IS IT TOO LATE?!) :D]

i am angry. D:
with myself, mostly. =.=

TODAY WAS INDOOR TEST DD:
i don't know what to say, really.
scary, nervous, screwed-up high notes, some mess-ups, hope i did well.
now i look back at it, i dont know what's there to be scared of o.o
but then again. thats the big question everyone's asking.
if i wasn't nervous, i would have done better.
stress. it kills you.
[LOOK I'M DEAD!]

HOMEWORKKKKK!
i need to do homework. and then i'll have the rest of the weekend to slack and learn tingxie and chem.
i think every little part of the hcl grade is impt. :]
motivationnnnnn. [my parents just threw out the "if you do well at the end of the year, who knows what we may surprise you with" line at dinner today when trysh was offhandedly talking about "that drumset i want so much"]

i am going to learn new songs because i want to slack and that seems to be the best way to do it cos facebook is getting boring ><
and playing new songs is really cool [so i can join centerstage next year! DUH JOKING.]
sigh.
aren't i lame.

i stand by what i said yesterday.
I. Am. Smart. [what a random statement. Only smart people accept that i'm smart. :D ohcrap am i taking a leaf out of felicia's book. (am i actually using a figurative saying) o.o]
:D

dreaming, i was only dreaming, of another place and time, where my family's from.

hell.
i'm done.
i'm done with pretending that it doesn't bother me.
i'm done with looking happy-with-my-life and waiting ages for nothing.
i'm done with watching people's lives go on without me.
i'm done.
[so why don't you get off your lazy ass and do something.]
i will. i'm not going to care about the reaction to what i say. i'm not waiting any longer.
i'm done with living some life that's barely worth any freaking notice.
it's so freaking pathetic. ["what do you do in school?" "oh i don't know, just sit there."]
now i know why so many people are pissed with me.
ignore this part if you want. don't ignore it. flame it. complain about it. leave me alone and never talk to me again because of it. do whatever you want with it. post it on facebook.
i don't freaking care.
[though it is recommended that kiddies below 13, and those who don't give a damn skip abovementioned part. thankyouverymuch for your cooperation. (OHNO IS IT TOO LATE?!) :D]

i am angry. D:
with myself, mostly. =.=

TODAY WAS INDOOR TEST DD:
i don't know what to say, really.
scary, nervous, screwed-up high notes, some mess-ups, hope i did well.
now i look back at it, i dont know what's there to be scared of o.o
but then again. thats the big question everyone's asking.
if i wasn't nervous, i would have done better.
stress. it kills you.
[LOOK I'M DEAD!]

HOMEWORKKKKK!
i need to do homework. and then i'll have the rest of the weekend to slack and learn tingxie and chem.
i think every little part of the hcl grade is impt. :]
motivationnnnnn. [my parents just threw out the "if you do well at the end of the year, who knows what we may surprise you with" line at dinner today when trysh was offhandedly talking about "that drumset i want so much"]

i am going to learn new songs because i want to slack and that seems to be the best way to do it cos facebook is getting boring ><
and playing new songs is really cool [so i can join centerstage next year! DUH JOKING.]
sigh.
aren't i lame.

i stand by what i said yesterday.
I. Am. Smart. [what a random statement. Only smart people accept that i'm smart. :D ohcrap am i taking a leaf out of felicia's book. (am i actually using a figurative saying) o.o]
:D

dreaming, i was only dreaming, of another place and time, where my family's from.