# 150;

haha i just looked through my archives and found some happy post proclaiming the new year and the promise not be emo o.o
that's not possible, now, if you look at it this way.
i'm going to be emo.
its numb.
it feels good.
its not those pain type of emo la.
its the type where you shut out everyone around you.
so that you cant hurt anyone and no one can hurt you.
so that you wont care about what everyone says and everyone can ignore what you say guilt-free.
its confusing.
but it works.
for me, at least. =.=

you dont like it?
shut up. again, i dont care if you flame me, punch me, proclaim to the world about me.
its my opinion. my view. my actions.
its the only way i can live my life without anyone caring excessively about me.
because if they do,
i'll just let them down again.
that's the truth, isnt it. it's happened too many freaking times.

tomorrow's braces appointment again.
i still want it red.
and hopefully it wont be so pain now.

cant wait to start my guitar lessons. hope my parents remembered.
i can drown myself in music and never come out.

sigh. i wish i had something to take my mind off this dire situation.
i'll read new moon.
its depressing though. xD
heck, la.
just read about someone else's life and forget about mine.

my shadow's the only one that walks beside me; my shallow heart's the only thing that's beating; sometimes i wish someone out there would find me; till then i walk alone.
gotten myself stuck on a boulevard of broken dreams.

# 150;

haha i just looked through my archives and found some happy post proclaiming the new year and the promise not be emo o.o
that's not possible, now, if you look at it this way.
i'm going to be emo.
its numb.
it feels good.
its not those pain type of emo la.
its the type where you shut out everyone around you.
so that you cant hurt anyone and no one can hurt you.
so that you wont care about what everyone says and everyone can ignore what you say guilt-free.
its confusing.
but it works.
for me, at least. =.=

you dont like it?
shut up. again, i dont care if you flame me, punch me, proclaim to the world about me.
its my opinion. my view. my actions.
its the only way i can live my life without anyone caring excessively about me.
because if they do,
i'll just let them down again.
that's the truth, isnt it. it's happened too many freaking times.

tomorrow's braces appointment again.
i still want it red.
and hopefully it wont be so pain now.

cant wait to start my guitar lessons. hope my parents remembered.
i can drown myself in music and never come out.

sigh. i wish i had something to take my mind off this dire situation.
i'll read new moon.
its depressing though. xD
heck, la.
just read about someone else's life and forget about mine.

my shadow's the only one that walks beside me; my shallow heart's the only thing that's beating; sometimes i wish someone out there would find me; till then i walk alone.
gotten myself stuck on a boulevard of broken dreams.