#228;
sigh.
last night i had a billion things to think about.
insomnia sucks because.
you cant sleep cos you're thinking of too much crap.
then in the end when you cant sleep you think more about that crap.
and it gets worse.
you get stuck with stupid thoughts and idiotic memories.
no one can help you cos they're all asleep.
and you're just alone in your room in the dark trying not to think about those stuff but they just keep coming back.
then you realize how screwed up your life is.
and everything falls apart.

today was a tiring day.
had to pretend to be happy and smile and laugh and be friendly even though i felt all broken and pissed off at everyone so that ppl wont notice anything.
and they didn't.
anyway the other stupid part with insomnia is that you're super tired in the morning.
couldn't concentrate during chem test made a few stupid errors but still got 13/16.
the day just passed in a blur.
remembered being quite sad that i wasnt playing mahler.
then we got called down(:
i like mahler.
it sounds rly cool.
i think the eflat clarinet is cool too.
too bad my sister cant bring hers home anymore-.-
was enjoying the music during full band(:

i'm going to organize my pile of workshit this weekend.
then i'm going to revise everything.
so that i dont lag behind everyone.

anyway i recently discovered a rocket to the moon (:
i like them alot now, i know i'm quite lag.



:D

#228;
sigh.
last night i had a billion things to think about.
insomnia sucks because.
you cant sleep cos you're thinking of too much crap.
then in the end when you cant sleep you think more about that crap.
and it gets worse.
you get stuck with stupid thoughts and idiotic memories.
no one can help you cos they're all asleep.
and you're just alone in your room in the dark trying not to think about those stuff but they just keep coming back.
then you realize how screwed up your life is.
and everything falls apart.

today was a tiring day.
had to pretend to be happy and smile and laugh and be friendly even though i felt all broken and pissed off at everyone so that ppl wont notice anything.
and they didn't.
anyway the other stupid part with insomnia is that you're super tired in the morning.
couldn't concentrate during chem test made a few stupid errors but still got 13/16.
the day just passed in a blur.
remembered being quite sad that i wasnt playing mahler.
then we got called down(:
i like mahler.
it sounds rly cool.
i think the eflat clarinet is cool too.
too bad my sister cant bring hers home anymore-.-
was enjoying the music during full band(:

i'm going to organize my pile of workshit this weekend.
then i'm going to revise everything.
so that i dont lag behind everyone.

anyway i recently discovered a rocket to the moon (:
i like them alot now, i know i'm quite lag.



:D