#230;
Today's been a rly rly bad day so far.
I hurt you so much.
I came this close to knifing myself.
But I didn't.
I realized knifing myself would be the stupidest thing to do.

We've got ensemble test on monday I think.
Need to master Quintus and Fantasia by then.
And maybe if there's time rehearse with the juniors on monday morning.
I will pitch that high G.
Band yesterday was scary.
We screwed Mahler 3, kindof.
And 2SM was quite disastrous without the year4s.
I actually noticed myself moving around at some parts wtf.
Must play ALOT louder from now on.
And be confident of where to come in. Esp that scary part in the first movement.
Need to train the juniors alot more also.
Next year's SYF alr.
Wednesday and Thursday will be devoted to SP.
I want to reach that standard the seniors set for us. Maybe even pass it.

Can say my grades have been okay so far.
Except for math.
Math is the extreme alr, extremely bad.
Mrs Nancy Phua alr coming to talk to me to see whether I can "cope with the standard of SBGE maths".
Actually I cant.
But I dont know why the school put me there.
I don't rly get maths.
Its all a blur, stupid letters and equations and stuff.
I'm more humans and arts.
Screw school srsly.

Don't know when the Fusion results are coming.
But I hope they're good results.
We tried our best alr, no point looking back at what we did wrong.

I'm going to try and be a better person to you.
I have to prove to you that you can trust me.
And not disappoint you again.
Rly must try alot harder at everything.
Cant keep waiting for someone to push me.

#230;
Today's been a rly rly bad day so far.
I hurt you so much.
I came this close to knifing myself.
But I didn't.
I realized knifing myself would be the stupidest thing to do.

We've got ensemble test on monday I think.
Need to master Quintus and Fantasia by then.
And maybe if there's time rehearse with the juniors on monday morning.
I will pitch that high G.
Band yesterday was scary.
We screwed Mahler 3, kindof.
And 2SM was quite disastrous without the year4s.
I actually noticed myself moving around at some parts wtf.
Must play ALOT louder from now on.
And be confident of where to come in. Esp that scary part in the first movement.
Need to train the juniors alot more also.
Next year's SYF alr.
Wednesday and Thursday will be devoted to SP.
I want to reach that standard the seniors set for us. Maybe even pass it.

Can say my grades have been okay so far.
Except for math.
Math is the extreme alr, extremely bad.
Mrs Nancy Phua alr coming to talk to me to see whether I can "cope with the standard of SBGE maths".
Actually I cant.
But I dont know why the school put me there.
I don't rly get maths.
Its all a blur, stupid letters and equations and stuff.
I'm more humans and arts.
Screw school srsly.

Don't know when the Fusion results are coming.
But I hope they're good results.
We tried our best alr, no point looking back at what we did wrong.

I'm going to try and be a better person to you.
I have to prove to you that you can trust me.
And not disappoint you again.
Rly must try alot harder at everything.
Cant keep waiting for someone to push me.