#239;
my emotions are really out of control lately.
last night i told yasmine my emo stage was over.
but i dont think so. fusion was the only thing that distracted me.
i'm pissed off at everything and i end up hurting everyone including myself.
its not like i tried my best anyway.
i'm just a lazy ass.
and i seem like a little kid trying to put the blame on things i end up breaking when its all my fault.

zz. and then my heart has to be torn apart.
i already cant handle whats happening now, then there has to be something else that gets in the way.
there's no way i can let go of one thing without hurting myself.

oh gawd.
what is happening to my life.

anyway this whole sunday's been spent doing all the hw i've ever owed.
and playing my guitar.
the rain is relaxing tho(:
monday left before level EXPERIENCE (omg-.-), at least there'll be no idiotic work to piss me off and make my insomnia worse.
this year's level "camp" is hopeless -.-
sigh.
OBS next year!

i need to get my emotions in check.

#239;
my emotions are really out of control lately.
last night i told yasmine my emo stage was over.
but i dont think so. fusion was the only thing that distracted me.
i'm pissed off at everything and i end up hurting everyone including myself.
its not like i tried my best anyway.
i'm just a lazy ass.
and i seem like a little kid trying to put the blame on things i end up breaking when its all my fault.

zz. and then my heart has to be torn apart.
i already cant handle whats happening now, then there has to be something else that gets in the way.
there's no way i can let go of one thing without hurting myself.

oh gawd.
what is happening to my life.

anyway this whole sunday's been spent doing all the hw i've ever owed.
and playing my guitar.
the rain is relaxing tho(:
monday left before level EXPERIENCE (omg-.-), at least there'll be no idiotic work to piss me off and make my insomnia worse.
this year's level "camp" is hopeless -.-
sigh.
OBS next year!

i need to get my emotions in check.